Hey there guys
Sorry for the late update but i just can't believe that after all this time we're saying good bye😞.

Those couple of chapter have been emotions but i mean it's the finale so.

Enjoy the chapter beauties.

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(Four months later and some days)

"here you go the best Italian pasta in the whole world, Tesoro" luca told me grinning as he shows me the huge plate of the delicious looking pasta.

Wow it looks really amazing.

"this looks really delicious" I told him smiling faintly.

"try to eat per favore, for your baby rose" he told me softly and I nodded and glanced at my big belly, rubbing over it softly.

I'm six month pregnant now.

We both sat at the table in the center of his kitchen and I started to pour small portion into my plate, the smell of any food would make me throw up badly, I can't tolerate food anymore.

The mere smell of any food would make me throw up and I'd rush to the toilet and throw up everything in my system.

If you are wondering what happened to me and Williams, well it was four month ago the last time I saw him.

I left.

I told my mother everything and I said that I need space and that I need to stay away, she respected this, Sonia and emma and max as well.

I told them that I'll stay at a friend in Pullman and they agreed and I didn't say who is that friend and they respected this because they know better that if they knew where I am, Williams will manage to know as well.

I stayed with Luca at his other place but not at Pullman, at Washington DC.

So basically no one knows where I am except for lucas and I know what you might be wondering, no there's nothing going on and there will never be anything.

I told lucas everything and I made him know throughout the days that I can no longer love anyone but williams.

If you are wondering how those 4 month have been, well my belly is much bigger now. I've been having hard times and still, time didn't do me good at all.

Those past four months were shit, i did everything in them , i cried and yelled and screamed my pain away , i went to doctors and i had panic attacks and total break downs but I succeeded in my studding as well and had amazing grades. Yeah i suffered but i succeeded too.

The first two months were hell I suffered too much for my baby and my own health, the idea of not being around him and not having him in my life was destructive.

Yeah I still suffer till now but I then decided to shut everything out and that's exactly what i did and still doing.

I shut my emotions; all i care about now is my baby.

Till this day I sometimes speak to myself and I'd ask, was my leaving fair to both of us? Fair to my baby?

But I couldn't stay.

I couldn't trust him.

The pain was too much I had to leave, I couldn't take it anymore.

He hurt me real bad, till today I doubt that he ever loved me.

Maybe I shouldn't have left without giving him the chance to explain himself but what would he have said? Oh sorry Rosabella but you were a game I had to win to have more money? Or maybe, sorry Rosabella but you were the easiest way to be wealthier!

I couldn't look into his eyes no longer.

I call my mother every day and make sure that she's fine and Sonia too even my friends but it was after two months when I saw William's picture with a model in the T.V, I told them that I don't want to hear anything about him.

It was then that I convinced myself that he didn't love me at all and I started to hate him instead.

you know when you love so much then you get hurt so much that you instead start hating so much, well you could say that this is what happened to me but the only difference is that i know that under all the hate i fake for him, I'm madly in love with him.

I changed my number as soon as I left so he couldn't call me or his parents.

But mother tells me how they all went to her asking where I went and she only said the truth, she doesn't know.

Also she yelled at Joe for doing that to me and asked him and Williams to leave immediately, she told me that she said some really hurtful words to Williams as well but when she saw how destroyed he was, she went easy and told him to give me time.

Well obviously he was lying to mother.

At the start i couldn't believe that this all was a lie and my heart was telling me otherwise, my heart was telling me that i needed to stay and listen to him but this whole experience told me not to listen or trust my heart, i mean i heard him myself.. i heard him and saw him with my own eyes and ears.

But I wanted to come back, I planned that I'd stay away for two months as a maximum time but after seeing him the TV I realized that he's not worthy of me or my baby.

That day at the hospital, I was a coward, i couldn't stay and face him, i couldn't let him see how weak and broken and how empty and destroyed i became because of him so i ran away and left him.

I ran to the first person that came into my mind and the last person anyone would suspect that I'm with.

Lucas.

I went to him that day after leaving Williams apartment and went to Pullman, I called lucas and he came to my dorm room, no one understood what happened even rebeca and tom, I kept crying to Lucas i even fainted and had a mental break down. i told him everything and asked him if he could find me a place to stay at and tell no one where I am, to just take me away and that i don't wanna see Williams right now and maybe later I could but not now at all. He was so mad and wanted to go to Williams and he kept cursing him and saying bad stuff about him but I stopped him because back then I was feeling that I did Williams bad because I didn't give him the chance to explain himself, after seeing him on the TV I knew how much of a fool I was.

I owe Lucas my life .

He did everything needed so that I have all my courses online even my final exams online as well due to my pregnancy and he even took me to appointments to my doctor to check on my baby. Gender reveal was last month and I knew that it's a girl which made me cry so much out of happiness and sadness.

Am I bad for taking her away from her father?

But I don't have the intentions to take her away from him, I just need time to have the courage to meet him again, I need to forget him and his love so that when I meet him, I feel nothing.

I'm waiting for him to stop affecting me the way he is maybe then I'll see him again.

According to what mum and Emma had been telling me is that he didn't for ones stopped asking for me he even visited mum over a hundred times, she said that he looked like a dead body with no soul and what shocked me is that he even called Lucas!!

Luca told me that Williams was begging him to tell him where i went and hearing that hurt me even more, I love him dearly and I hate to see him like that or at least hated seeing him like that, not now.

All of this was two month ago, he even stopped visiting mum.

He revealed his true face.

Mask is off.

He cheated more than one time, he's all over the paparazzi every day with different women.

The first time i saw him on the news with a girl on his arm it hurt like a bitch, my heart was literally on fire and I felt the pain and agony taking over me.

What have i ever done to deserve this!

Did he ever love me?

Here me can't move on and i know i won't but him!

The second time it hurt too and the third by the fifth time i was okay with it because i realized that he probably didn't love me.

I mean he wouldn't move on this fast if he did.

He started going out with women 2 month ago.

I can never say that i hate him and as fucked up as it is i know that I'm madly in love with him.

I will always love him

Only him.

I can't stop thinking about him or our times together and it's torture most of the times because they became just memories now.

I know that it will always be him and i don't mind it.

He's the first person to ever make me feel those things, the first man to ever make me fall deeply and blindly in love with him and I don't think I can ever love anyone else after him.

I know pathetic but i gave up trying to forget him because trust me when i say that i tried to, i tried so many times to try to forget about him but it's like my heart nor my mind can obey me.

I fell so hard that i can't even stand up again.

Lucas became my number one supporter throughout those months, he respected that I only see him as a friend and a brother, he's now practically family as well and he's not complaining which made me love him even more and feel more comfortable around him because all he says is that he wants to be near me even if like a brother and it made me feel good and bad because he does nothing to hide his feeling for me but he never cross any boundaries and the fact that I know that he's been in love with me for quite some time now makes me feel guilty.

The doorbell rang.

"it must be Ricardo and Dante" he told me and went to open.

They are Lucas' friends and became mine as well.

"where is my bambolina" dante's high pitched voice reached me and I laughed lightly and went to them.

"here she is the most belissimo mama in the world" dante told me and engulfed me in a tight hug.

"missed you boo" I told him then I hugged ricardo as well.

We all took a seat in the living room.

"how was the party yesterday?" I asked them.

"i woke up with difficulty if it wasn't for rikky who called me over a fucking hundred times " he said glaring at rikky who nudged him.

Luca came back with peer to all of them and my favorite peach juice.

"grazie, luca" I blew him a kiss.

"Anything for you mio amore" he told me and took a seat next to me on the couch and I snuggled more into him.

Honestly he's ridiculously handsome, his muscular figure and did I mention that he shaved his hair? Well he was forced actually.

his hair is now nowhere to be found , a month ago i helped him to have a new hair cut which ended up by him shaving his hair so short that it's barely noticeable.

He's really great, any girl would be crazy to say no to that I know, but I only see lucas as a very close friend and lately he became family.

He accepted this and that's why we're more comfortable with each other now.

"you look really tensioned" rikky told me and I nodded.

"she really is and those unstoppable nightmares!" luca said frowning.

Well the nightmares are back but not with my father anymore, they're with williams.

"you need to have sex !!" dante said and I laughed loudly.

"yeah you could use a dick in your life" rikky said nodding and my cheeks are on flames but I laughed anyway.

"she really does and I happen to know who is the right guy" luca said wiggling his eyebrows and we all laugh and I hit his chest playfully.

"I could kick you out of the place you know" I told him kidding and he came nearer to me, smirking.

"no you love me, not you actually but this little pumpkin does" he talked to my baby girl and gave my belly a kiss which warmed my insides.

He's so sweet.

Did I mention that he let go of this bad boy façade and now is acting ever so nicely?

Let's just say that I'm so grateful and thankful for his existence.

"come on. Let''s go out and have dinner" rikky said.

"but I just made dinner" luca objected but they blew him off.

"go change" dante ordered me and I nodded laughing and went to change.

I wore my white tight dress and the beige fur long jacket and a white bag and beige Nike and we all went down to a nearby restaurant to have dinner since me and luca didn't finish eating the pasta he made because we were obviously forced.

"you look HOT mama" dante told me wiggling his eyebrows and I laughed.

"she always does" luca said quietly smiling towards me.

I smiled looking away.

I can't look into his eyes and see that look of adoration that I know I will never look back at him with this look.

We took his car and drive there.

I hadn't spoken a word since he started to drive.

I've been having this feeling those past couple of month; it's as if someone is watching me.

I look around me every time but there's no one there.

I really miss my family..

I miss him and I feel terrible for missing him.

I think maybe that's enough?

Maybe I should go back to them, my family I mean.

What about him?

I doubt he even care.

Of course he does and you know.

Yeah right, hear that. He cares so much that's why he's every day with a different model.

I shook my head away to stop the thoughts.

We reached the place and sat and ordered our food then my phone started ringing so picked it up.

It's max.

He's been distant lately.

"hey maxi boy"I answered cheerfully.

"hey Rosabella" his voice made butterflies visit my tummy almost immediately.

Bad butterflies.

Yeah he's been distant but not to call me with my full name in that tone so something is off.

"max? is everything alright?" I asked him, luca looked my way frowning now

"what's wrong?" luca whispered and I shrugged.

"look I don't want you to worry but...." He went silent again.

This is frustrating.

"please tell me what's wrong, you're making it worst now by not telling me" I told him frowning.

"since you left.. your mother's health hadn't been the best, I come visit them every time I can, buy she needs you" he said and my heart fell.

What the hell?

"max is mama fine? What's wrong with her? why didn't anyone say anything to me?" I fired with questions standing up now from my place.

"She's not in her best but she needs you by her side, don't you think that's enough? You been away for four month now. You wanted to punish Williams but you're punishing everyone you love along with it" he told me with a hint of anger.

What is he suspecting!

Yes I know four months are a lot but I needed this time.

"max you know everything that happened. You were there! I needed to get away." I told him angry now.

"no you didn't need to Rosabella. You could have done many things and leaving the hell away and thinking selfishly shouldn't have been one of them." He spoke back angrily as well and it surprised me so much.

After 4 month and a half he's saying this now!

He has been holding a grudge all this time?

"you just waited till now to tell me that?" I yelled at him and see a couple of people looking my way.

Ricardo, dante and luca all now are frowning and telling me to calm down.

So I excused myself and went out of the place and stood in the street.

Luca wanted to come along but I told him no with my head.

"I didn't expect you to actually leave for that long, for Christ sake we all changed our lives for you, your mother and Sonia moved to Seattle, I left and stayed with you for about a month and while you were kidnapped and had Williams problems I didn't attend any of my finals and I fucking failed! And with all of that I gave no damn as long as I'm supporting my little sister" he yelled back at me and I'm shocked.

I can't talk back.

Oh my god.

Tears come to my eyes almost immediately.

He failed!

I did that!

"you left me, you didn't tell me where you're staying and two month ago Williams discovered that you're staying with lucas the guy who you kissed before. You chose lucas over us! The one I warned you about so many fucking times! You trusted him and not us! I'm really hurt Rosabella you are selfish" he told me angry but this wasn't what made my heart ache.

It's the pain in his voice, it's the disappointment.

I disappointed him.

I feel a hole into my heart.

I suddenly become the bad guy without meaning to.

I couldn't hold back my tears

Williams knows where I'm staying?

And he obviously told max about luca because I never told max that we kissed.

But what hurt me the most is that Max had to go through all of that because of me!

am I really selfish!

"Am I this bad max?" I asked him crying.

"you're not bad Rosabella or anything near that word, but lately you've been thinking about yourself only. I heard everything you said about Williams and I went and knocked the shit out of him, then I heard him. I did the thing you were supposed to do" he said and exhaled loudly.

He talked to him!

" do you think that if he was really a fucking liar and that everything you think is actually true, that I would have let him even say your name on his tongue? But I heard him. He deserved a second chance Rosabella. You know this too well, you leaving just complicated things further, you ran away." He told me and as if what happened was just like yesterday.

The wound that was never mend cracked open again with all the heart ache.

"so you believed him" I told max not asked him because it's obvious from how defensive he is for williams.

Somehow I know max is right.

"I believed that he's madly in love with you just as you are. " this made me laugh with no humor while crying.

"yeah right, he loves me so much that he's every day with a different super model. What kind of love is that? I wanted to come back but seeing him on TV hurt me so much and I didn't want to ever see him again." I told him sobbing now.

I love this freaking human being.

Seeing him with other women and seeing him not caring that I'm gone hurts so much.

" how did he manage to make you believe him? What did he say" I asked  max angrily.

He exhaled loudly then spoke quietly.

" he didn't have to speak much, I believed what I saw when you were about to get kidnapped in the night club and how he was going crazy! or when you were actually kidnapped how he was on the edge of killing whoever touches you. This can never be a lie!" he told me quietly and this made my breath hitch.

"he took a bullet for you Rosabella" he told me and I closed my eyes tightly and hold my belly from the sudden pain I felt.

My equilibrium is fucked up now, whenever I gain balance and draw myself a path, williams always manage to make me go out of it. Just by my feelings and nothing more. He makes me feel things. After four months and a half still Williams is the only one who can make me feel a whole punch of feelings that all go against each other, all at ones.

Is this even humanly possible?

"w-w-what do you want now!! Max..I... I mean didn't he wonder how my pregnancy is going? Am I even okay? The gender of the baby? I had to go through all of that alone!" I asked him crying so bad now.

I'm not asking max.

I'm asking myself, I'm asking the questions which I think their answers will help me know that I was right by leaving, I want to justify my action for myself.

"he fucking cheated on me" I screamed at max in the phone.

"you actually have the guts to say this? Rosabella where the fuck are you staying right now?" he asked me yelling back.

Yet he didn't let me speak.

"you are staying with the guy you kissed before when you and Williams were dating. Williams didn't date anyone they were just to provoke you, he knew you'd see the news and he didn't do this not until two month ago after he knew that you are with this mother fucker, he said that if she ever truly knew me and cared for me she wouldn't have done that knowing how I feel about it" he said and if possible I'm hurt even more and I'm shocked.

This never crossed my mind.

He wanted to only provoke me!

He has the guts to speak about knowing each other and caring for each other?? He did nothing but lie.

"b-b-ut that was a mistake and Williams knows! lucas is a friend, there is nothing between us he's like a brother and I chose him because I knew that he's the only one who won't tell Williams where I am" I tried to argue to prove my point that no, I'm not dating luca and the kiss was a mistake.

"Rosabella, you went through all of that alone by your choice, you chose this! You went away and you still wanted him to chase you? When he figured out your place  he wanted to come get you but after knowing that it's lucas Greek's place, everything changed and he was really hurt, that's when he started to go out with women to make you jealous" he told me explaining further and clearing out the blur from the image.

How does he even know all of this?

Are they like really close now?

"Williams wanted to provoke me and make me jealous so he went out with them who know what else!" I told him frustrated and weeping like a little baby.

I mean what if something really happened between them?

I won't handle that.

"That's just it, me and Williams became really close, after you left he needed someone to talk to, someone who knows you too well to try and make him understand why would you decide to abandon him like that as if there was never any love between both of you" max told me and my heart itched a little more than it already was. But they have to understand, me leaving was a reaction to the information I knew.

For christ's sake I'm a human being and have feelings.

I can't control what I'm feeling!

I can't control the feeling of betrayal and how my heart ached and still aching!

But now my heart is aching desperately with need, the need of his love and existence.

" He's still loyal to you even when he's blindly mad, he didn't touch any other woman" max added and I don't know why but my heart beats out of happiness and relieve.

I cry a happy cry which made max chuckle.

"me too. I couldn't.. I wouldn't. I made it very clear to luca that he's like a brother and that's it, and I didn't really came out of the house for anyone to try anything " I told him softly and hear a loud breath of relieve.

Max is relieved that I didn't touch another man? weird.

That's a whole lot high level of loyalty to his new bestie williams.

"I mean who would have a crush on a woman with her belly a few inches in front of her" I told him laughing while sniffing away my tears.

He laughed.

" wow you're belly became that big?" he asked me asking.

"yeah.. I wish you were here to see.... I wish he was here" I whispered to him lowly with my head low.

I really miss him.

"do you still love him?" max asked me

"you are seriously asking me that question? Williams is my first everything, I love him to the point where I can't see any other male but him. Even when I was mad thinking that he forgot all about me, I was mad because I know I'm still blindly in love with him and I will always be." I told him honestly and heard the sound of a car door or a room door being shut at the back ground of max.

"Rosabella you really should give him a second chance, he deserves this. Technically speaking he only lied the first two weeks from when you saw him, everything after that was the truth" he told me.

"I know he does, I was a coward before, I couldn't face him. Honestly after knowing that he only did the dating thing because he thought that I didn't care for him or that there is something between me and lucas, I wanted to hate him but I can't and your words made every grudge inside of me to him vanish" I confessed.

I mean I only have max to speak out my emotions to him.

"so you are willing to give us a second chance?" I heard behind me the voice I've been yearning to hear for the past four months and fourteen days.

My breath stops.

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So yup she left.....
What do you think of her action?

And yes I'm updating another chapter cause a cutie asked me to make them 80 and who am i to say no!

What do you think so far of what have been happening?

Stay tuned for the last chapter 😞

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