Hey guys.

So I'll write the list of songs that goes along with Rosabella's feelings in this chapter.

* hurts like hell -> Fleurie.
*i love you -> Billie Eillish
* No time to die -> Billie Eillish

~ Was i stupid to love you?
Was i reckless to help?
Was it the obvious to every body else
That I've fallen for a lie ? ~

Her dress. 👇🏻

A double update to say sorry for late update 💗

Now enjoy the ride.

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It has been a week since my mother and my Ante.. Sonia , and Emma and max are here. i can't say that I'm all normal and fine, I just can be me again with Sonia and mother, they really did hurt me this time.

I've been going out nonstop with our friends and Williams showed emma and max great things here in Seattle, he really made them so happy which made me so happy. They were supposed to be gone by now but since they are all free and well, I'm a new mummy now, they wanted to stay to make sure I'm healthy enough.

If you're wondering how are things between me, mother and Sonia, well technically no one would notice that there is a change in my behavior, yet they know, mother and Sonia are well aware that I'm not my natural self with them. It's not that I'm a bad person with a black heart who cannot forgive, I just... lying isn't a thing I tolerate so I really can't help but be upset and take my distance.

I talk with them normally and we are fine, yet I'm distant and a little bit cold.

"flower, come on my love it's taking you forever!!" Williams has been calling me for the last fifteen minutes and he's starting to get on my nerves.

Did I mention how emotional I've been with the whole pregnancy thing, it's fucking up my hormones!

I'm currently finishing up my dress to go have dinner at Williams parents place.

Joe wanted to celebrate this rare gathering calling it " the reunion" and he invited just the closest people, my parents and his family, also the Silvio brothers and their father for the first time.

Also Williams said that we will announce there to the rest who don't know my pregnancy.

So I'm wearing now a nude pink tight silk tight dress, it's tall to the floor with a mermaid style, it's a dipped heart shape showing cleavage and the straps are hanging loosely off shoulder.

Okay the dress is sexy I admit, with the upper part being slightly transparent.

Hopefully Williams won't say anything.

My blonde hair is free and straightened, I applied a light nude makeup and my heels not so high though, I'm a pregy woman now and held my clutch and I'm ready.

"okay okay, stop whinning as a baby, I finished" I told him as I exit the closet room.

"come on you! wear your shoes" I told him adjusting the clutch when I noticed that he's not wearing his shoes yet.

When he didn't answer I turned to look at him.

He's just there literally gawking at me, this made me laugh out loud.

He never seemed to show me how much he admires me and how much he thinks I'm sexy and hot, this is a reason onto why I love him so much.

He compliments my femininity a lot and that boosts the goddess within me.

"you're not going out like this" he simply said which made me laugh again.

"Williams" I called for him laughing.

"that's a final no, woman" he said again smiling himself this time.

I laughed again.

"please daddy! I'll let you do whatever you desire later on" I whispered in a sexy way and his eyes literally brighten up and he nods eagerly which again made me laugh.

"okay then if that's the case" he said and we both laughed then made our way down to blake.

I'm at Williams pethouse.

"are you there yet!" I asked emma on the phone on our way.

"almost there, Andrew is driving like a mad woman" she giggled and I laughed as well.

Emma and max along with andrew and sara are all coming together.

While mum and Sonia they're already there, they went earlier on the behalf of joe and lizy's demand.

"do you know how much I love you?" Williams asked me and I nod smiling before shaking my head a no.

"I don't know maybe you can enlighten me though with a kiss, pretty please?" I pout like a baby and he laughed them with his hand around my neck he brought me to him and his hot pink lips landed on mine.

Did I ever mention how much of a great kisser Williams is?

Well in that case, Williams is a freaking god in kissing.

The way his tongue laps mine! How he bits down on my lip and lick it afterwards! He drives me insane.

He kept on sucking on my lower lip, then bit down hard making me moan, before I realize what's happening, both of his hands gripped me and I'm on his lap in an eye blink.

I broke the kiss with a very hard effort cause he refused to let go of my lips and he growled in objection.

"wil, we're in the car" I whispered as he continues to nip in my neck and suck making it very hard to stop moaning.

"so what" he breathed into my neck and I grabbed his hair softly pulling his head to look at me and he did as told and stopped kissing my neck.

"we can't" I told him smiling and he groaned in frustration.

I give him a quick kiss then sit in my place again.

"tonight though?" he asked.

"tonight" I promised and he placed his arm around my shoulders and I lean into him more and waited for the drive to come to an end.

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(four hours later)

Everything is exactly how I dreamed that it would ever be. Both of our families and friends are sitting all together and laughing, exchanging topics, old and new ones.

I couldn't ask for more. My mind took footage of the scene before his eyes to make it last forever.

"let's raise a toast for Williams and his rose and my grandson or daughter" joe said and we all laughed and raised out glasses.

"toast to that" max shouted and I laughed at this dumb head.

Some would wish for time to freeze now if they're in my position but I don't I actually want to see what life have for me maybe the future is way better than now when our baby arrives maybe the future won't be as bright at this moment but that's the thing, how would I know? I need to live it to know how would it be.

"I'm going to the rest room my love" I told Williams and he stood up and pushed my chair to the back to help my stand up.

What a gentleman I have here.

I kissed him a quick goodbye cheek kiss and walked away to go to the rest room.

When I was climbing up the stairs I saw Williams and his father enter his father's office on the first floor I am in but they climbed the other stair case since the stair are on the n shape, both looking so serious.

Weird.

I finished my business in the restroom then opened the door to go out but suddenly my heart practically fall into my feet and I scream loudly with my heart beating out of my chest.

"you scared me Ashley" I told Ashley placing my hand on my frantic beating heart.

She was just there in front of the door, she scared me to death, literally!!

"shshs, they'll hear you" I shushed me with her forefinger on her mouth.

My heart started beating but not out of being scared, out of nervousness.

"who"" I whispered in confusion.

"Williams isn't as innocent nor my dad. they used you. He did, you need to know" she told me looking sad for me.

What the fuck is she saying.

Williams used me!

"what the hell do you mean" I asked her angry now.

Of course I would be angry of any one said anything bad about the man I love.

"he doesn't love you, it was all a game" she said and I actually laughed.

She hates Williams, I know but to go that far and lie!

She is really sick as they say and I didn't buy it, I thought that she is sad and sorrow for losing her twin but she really hates Williams, she wants to destroy his life buy making me leave him.

How can a person hat their own brother like that!!

"okay Ashley, I need to go back to my family now" I told her bitter sweetly because well, I'm mad now.

She's a bitch really.

I mean who says that!

"you need to hear it, I know you don't believe me, please come with me" she urged me looking right and left and grabbed my arm and started pushing me towards their office room.

"Ashley stop!!" I tried to yank my arm away and stop her from practically dragging me behind her.

"please Rosabella! I'm not allowed out when we have people" she begged me.

I can see why isn't she allowed out.

I decided to go along with her just to prove her wrong.

"okay" I told her then walked with her to their office.

I feel really bad to eavesdropping but I'll tell Williams everything and how his sister forced me as soon and I see him down.

The office door wasn't closed till the end, it was opened ajar just slightly,

"look inside, it's him and father" she whispered

"if I looked they will see us the doors are glass" I whispered yelled.

This is too much really, I hate myself for what I'm doing.

Williams forgive me.

"it's my right to have freaking answers!" Williams shouted but in a controlled voice.

"keep it low you said she's in the bathroom" joe said and this made me pay attention yet feel the need to run away from what they're about to say.

Clearly I'm not meant to hear it and I don't want to I'm not even one percent curious.

"I need to make sure that she was safe don't you get it!" joe whispered yell quite loudly.

I heard Williams huffing in frustration.

What I heard next made my heart stop beating for a whole minute and it feels as if my whole world stopped, everything stilled and it's just me and my struggle to breathe well and this very painful pull in my heart.

"you could've told me that and that she's a friend's daughter instead of forcing her onto me!" Williams said.

My mind can't function well.

I'm not quite sure if what I heard is true or my ears betrayed me. Did Williams just say this! the man I love, the man I would give up anything for and do anything he asks me to, just said that!!!

"well you didn't do it for free did you! You asked for the whole firm to be yours to make her fall in love with you" joe answered back.

Everything around me is blocked.

I can't feel anything but my heart being torn into million pieces and nothing else.

Nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

My heart beats are beating so fucking fast to the point where I can't even breath. Air is escaping my body and nothing is coming in. and I feel blood rushing in my vains and brain so quickly that it burns.

He betrayed me.

He lied to me.

He doen't really love me.

Was it all a lie? Did he fake his emotions this good!

Every kiss, every touch and every word.

What about his proposal!!

The one where he cried while doing it.

Was it all a lie.

Is he that good!

I feel nothing around me, I'm not even crying or moving one muscle, I feel Ashley shaking me and pulling my arm dragging me away from the room, she's speaking but I blocked everything around me. My mind can't understand what the fuck did it just hear.

I can't progress what's happening.

I saw Eivan in front of me speaking but I can't understand anything, lips moving without voice.

Then he talked to Ashley and she left and he took my hand in his and he's making me climb down the stairs and taking me out side of the mansion.

My legs can't carry me, everything hurts.

I can't think yet my mind is speaking very loudly with possibilities.

All I know is that I left my heart and my soul on that door up the mansion.

Can anyone make me understand please!!

Am I in a nightmare!

I can't understand that Williams didn't love me! Williams didn't want me, I was forced onto him, I was a deal he made by force and took the firm in return.

My soul is on fire.

He set fire into my perfect world. All is let are ashes.

My heart hurts so much.

Even my belly , the cramps are unbearable.

Eivan was walking with me towards his car in the drive way of the brown family.

I struggled for breath and my legs ca't take my brain's order to keep on walking. My knees give out and I fell to my knees making Eivan stops in his track and look back at me.

I screamed.

I scream so loud.

I tried screaming the pain away, every word I've heard makes every single part of my soul ache with pain, he tore me into million pieces, he didn't step onto my heart, he torn it apart and set my whole being on fire.

"why" I screamed with ache, tears flowing out like a river.

Eivan bend now to me looking somehow happy.

"he doesn't love you, he doesn't deserve you Rosabella" he told me in a soothing way.

Is that supposed to make me feel calmer!

He added salt to my injury; his words stabbed me harder than it should have.

I cried louder, screaming my pain out.

"ROSABELLA" Williams yelling voice made me look behind me, he's running my way, he's far away from me, still on the door of his mansion.

"YOU PROMISED TO HEAR ME OUT ROSABELLA" he screamed looking horrified as he ran my way quickly.

"STEP AWAY FROM HER" he shouts at Eivan looking mad as he ran.

I see him in a new light, I'm disgusted by him and so fucking angry yet so fucking broken.

This man means everything to me.

He's my whole world and he fucking destroyed me.

How can I hate him in a second after being madly in love with him! I can't fucking hate him!! I can't do it.

"I hate you. you fucking LIAR" I screamed in pain crying out loud and he stops in his track as if he didn't expect me to say that, yet he recovered and ran again.

He knows I'm lying, I do too.

Everything hurts so bad, at the moment I wish I was dead.

Before I could hear what he has to say yet or decide to leave or hear him out I felt something very strong collapses with my head making scream in pain before slowly Williams starts to spin and I'm hearing everything from under water and the light keeps getting dimmer and dimmer and I feel that I'm being carried onto someone's shoulder as they ran away from williams.

I'm not so sure I hate this idea at the moment.

My head's hit didn't hurt as my heart does.......

He destroyed me.

Everything hurts, the breath I'm breathing, every beat my heart is beating is in ache and pain, even the tears sliding down my cheeks burn. Pain and ache are taking control over every sense in my body; they're taking over every organ and every cell and atom within me.

I hate the fact that I'm doubting my own hearing, and I loathe the fact that my conscious is reasoning and telling me maybe if you hear him out.

I hate him and how he faked everything he ever felt.

Ashley was right, him too.

He's a monster.

I sank deeper into the darkness, and they're nothing left for me except my pain and my bleeding heart.

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Sorry🥺
This chapter and the next one practically made me cry🥺.

How do you feel about Williams now?
Do you think she should hear him out! Should we give him a chance tho?

Okay srsly I'm sad about them.

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