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This chapter is in Williams POV as i promised , half of it to be specific but you want the next chapter to be in WilliamsPOV Too , tell me so that ik .

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The writing on the wall by sam smith
I'll leave you to it now 😊
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The question made me panic for a moment

What will happen if i got pregnant?

i know this is too early for what I'm saying but i couldn't help the possibility , because if this really happens everything will change.

To worst or to better.

I don't know.

Am i ready now for a baby?

i mean I'm just 20, i have a year ahead of me in collage

but the most important question is

Will Williams be okay with that ?

if i got pregnant somehow i know that William's reaction will be the line to our relation, i mean if he'll be okay with it , I'll be happy that he's willing to have a baby with me even if it's too early but if he refused badly and made it a problem i know for sure that things between us will not be good from my side , i don't know honestly how will i react then , but if he asked me for abortion then he can forget all about me

Listen to that , hah

I'm already thinking as if I'm pregnant already!

Maybe i should share my thoughts with him

Just to test the water

"Williams ..are you asleep yet ?" i asked him because we fell in a complete silence about half an hour ago and i'm feeling his breath regulates and slows down and he's not moving

"no baby not yet, i knew you were still awake, your body is tense. What are you thinking of flower?" he asked me and i shift to look at him

here goes nothing

"...i was just thinking  that....what if..uh...you know....ugh..n-nothing , let's sleep " i told him feeling frustrated and shook my head and hugged him tightly , i feel his hands around my waist and he suddenly flipped me so that I'm on top of him , my thighs straddling his lap , i gasp at the sudden action and see him looking intensely at me

" why are you hesitating to tell me what you're thinking of ?" he asked me with a hint of hurt in his voice , i never wanna hurt him .

" I'm not hesitating Williams, i just don't know how to say this " i told him placing my hand on his cheek and the other is on his chest , his hand pushed my hair behind my ear and the other is crassing from the area beside my breast till my waist and up again , covering my curves.

" tell me " he demanded with a plea look in his eyes

"uhm...i was gonna say that what if ...you know unprotected sex and...uhm..you came i-" he cut off my misery

"What if you got pregnant" he said more like he's sure but his soft tone calmed my shaking body.

Dude! Butterflies were visiting my tummy, i nod biting my lip while blushing like crazy.

"i don't see the problem " he said and i looked at him confusingly

he don't mind me getting pregnant ?

i think he saw how confused i am because he smiled

"i just proposed to you an hour or two ago for god's sake , i wanna spend my whole life with you , so baby of course i wanna make babies with you ..." he said smiling with his soft eyes staring into my emotional ones

" do you really think that i'll be against you becoming pregnant ?" he asked me but his sweet sweet words didn't leave place for any discussion , it made my heart melt with love and joy , he really wants this , wants me.

God ! i hope i never wake from this amazing dream ..the most wonderful dream of my life

Today I've experienced a lot of emotions I've never experienced through my whole life .

"i just...i thought...i don't know how you'll react if something like that happened that early " i told him finding his chest so amazing to stare at , at the moment , i feel his hands sliding down my back slightly till they reach my butt cheeks and he griped them both making me gasp and moan at ones as he pushed me down onto him , i was having my weight on my knees but now i feel him and notice that we are both naked.

i feel his slightly hard cock pressed against my hot core now

a shock of desire runs through me making a moan escape my mouth

"i'll be the happiest person on earth early or not ...just the thought to share a baby with you is making me already feel something so warm and deep..almost like...don't laugh ... butterflies in my tummy, good butterflies " he said looking dreamy and damn ! i am doing the best in me to not burst into a fit of laughter

"you got me " he asked me searching my eyes but then he smiled and shook his head

I've never imagined Williams telling me that he feels butterflies in his tummy and not any butterflies everyone .. it's good one .

"uhhhum " i nod my head in agreement and understanding , i'm biting my lip to stop the laugh

"go ahead " as he said the words laughing himself too i couldn't hold it in and burst into laughing

"Butterflies....sorry williams....good butterflies" i could not hold my laugh as i fell on his chest and continue laughing , his chest is vibrating with laughter too

"hey...i just...describing my emotions is new to me okay...i'm trying here ..some support would be good " he said laughing and i sit straight still laughing and straddling his lap

"okay okay..sorry baby..i will support you " i told him still laughing lightly

"i mean every word bella ...i'd be that happiest person on this whole planet to share a baby with you , no wait not A baby no i want twelve ..six girls and six boys " he said smiling widely like he's talking seriously

hah ! twelve

is he like crazy or something ?

twelve children , hell how a pussy is supposed to pass this number of babies .

does he wants his own soccer team ?

i laughed out loud

"tweleve ? really ? how am i supposed to do that ? are you planning on having your own squad " i told him with humor

"yes really i'd like twelve children and baby don't worry about how we'll do that , if you get pregnant every time we have sex , i promise you with over a million child and actually yes i want my own fighting children little squad " he said seriously still having that wide whole teeth showing smile

"brown suicide squad " he said dreamily and i laugh and throw my head back

brown suicide squad hah ! hear that

four is great if not three .

I calmed down from my hysteric laugh and turn to look at him only to find his eyes staring at my exposed breasts then he bit his lower lip in a sexy way making some moist form between my thighs

"you look sexy as fuck " he said with dark eyes and raspy voice

"am i ?" i asked him smirking and his eyes moved to meet mine and i feel his man down there harden a little more

"fuck yeah ! with all the hickeys i gave you..across your breasts , collar bone , shoulders and neck " he smirked and i gasp

oh my god he gave me a lot of hickeys

"williams ... are they too obvious ?" i asked him and he nodded smirking as i glare at him

"what will your parents think of us now...or ..or your siblings " i huffed crossing my arms across my chest and looking away , god i don't know how i'll see them tomorrow, he laughed out loud

" i guess it's not that hard to know who gave you those hickeys plus they already know that we're fucking up here so ...just be cool with it " he said way too cool

Wait do they have cameras in the rooms ?...holly cow.

"how will they know Williams ?..do you have cameras in the rooms ?" i asked him panicking yet again he laughs

"yes we do actually but for the main rooms they're shut down but they know because of your screams baby which i happen to love so much ..fuck they turn me on " he said and i wanted to panic that they heard me screaming their son's name as we have sex but he Williams gave me that look, the look that says that he's ready for another round

"williams no...i'm sore " i told him in a warning tone and he pouted like a little child

god help me not to  kiss him so hard that he'll die from hard impact 

"you're not being so supportive at the moment you know " he said so low acting as if he's not talking to me like a small kid , it made me laugh and cup his cheeks

" really ? then tell me how to be supportive " i told him arching an eyebrow still smiling in amusement

no way he's 24 , man ! he sounds like a nine year old kid .

"maybe you can like....give me a kiss " he said and i smiled but oblige

a kiss is safe

it all starts with a kiss

our lips moved together as i open my mouth for him and his tongue entered my mouth dancing with my own slowly on their own accord , the kiss is slow and sensual and carrying something deep and comfy it made me sigh in the middle of it especially when he start sucking my bottom lip , we broke apart , he's eyes are dark with desire and lust , i kept staring at his deep brown eyes , the same eyes I've fallen in love with the moment i lock contact with them , they're carrying so much love and devotion and promises , promises of a good life, a perfect life full of laughter and happiness , promises for a new life ..his brown eyes are like a tough rusty iron gate opening its doors widely for me , waiting for me to pass and enter his heaven of a life , a shiver ran through me as i realized how much i actually love Williams , we're not Romeo and Juliet nor Caesar and Cleopatra , Ram and Lila or even the Egyptian Antara and Abla  , no we are Williams and Rosabella.

i cupped his cheeks and kept staring at his eyes , his are searching mine with the same emotions filling his eyes

"baby !" he's trying to know what i'm thinking of  , i smile.

"did i ever tell you how much i love you !" i wondered and he broke into a warm smile and i don't know why but a bad feeling just struck my heart , it's like i'm feeling that something bad is about to happen and it scared me , it really did ... i don't know why i have this feeling but i have it strongly .

Maybe because i'm actually happy that's why I'm afraid that something will happen that will make all of this fade away , that's us humans after all .

" i love you too bella " he said sweetly smiling then shifts me so that he's hard tip is brushing my entrance , i gasp and blush as the wetness between my thighs is only increasing and probably sliding down my thighs

how did he became this hard now , we didn't say anything sexual

he brought me closer to him by his hand on the back of my neck pushing me down so close that i'm breathing his breath and he's mine , then he breathed in my ear simple words that made my heart flip and ignited my senses awakening my emotions 

"This moment is a new beginning to eternity " he said husky then slowly lowered me to him entering me .

i moan closing my eyes , affected by both his words and the pleasurable feeling of him inside me yet again without a condom

though i'm so sore but it didn't matter because i want to be as close as possible to him , i want us now .

i love the feeling of him pulsing inside me slow and deep and how his breath becomes hard pants and the way his eyes rolls in the back of his head , the sweat dripping from his forehead , sliding down his chest when he's about to reach his elasticity and finally how he stills and his legs tens and he closes his eyes tightly and cums inside me with a shout of my name on his tongue or how his hot cum warms up my body.

William's love will be the death of me

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william's pov.

my heart is itching

it hurts so god damn much

just to think that maybe ...just maybe , even for a slightest second that after all what happened and all i knew about bella that i might actually lose her ..

this will be the official death of me.

to say that i was out stroked, would be an understatement to what i felt when dad dropped the pomp on both of our heads , i was at the beginning shocked and confused , is that why he did what he did but again why when he could have reached out for her instead of all of this , is that why he told me about her in the first place? why didn't he just tell me the truth ? why lie and be all mysterious ?

see he knew what I wanted and he gave it to me and made me do what I did in return but he didn't mention the consequences of falling in love with her ... falling in love with bella was never the plan but it's not like it's something I had control over , he never said how beautiful she really is .

what i know for sure is that if bella knew a thing about all of this , i will lose her forever ...

the fuck ! no

no i will not

i will not lose her

i will not allow her to walk away from me , she can hate me but never leave me , i can't live without her .

God! i'll be a dead man

a dead soul in a living body

i finally found her .

after what lizy said it all made sense , i placed all the missing pieces together and got the whole right image .

it was really her.

Those baby blue eyes really belonged to her, my flower .

she had always been hunting my dreams , a little sweet baby girl in my arms staring at me , capturing my soul, marking me hers from day one .

i've always felt that it wasn't just a dream , it felt too good to be a dream it always felt real , the baby girl that i was carrying in my dreams was actually bella .

from the moment bella stepped inside my office , the first thing that consumed me were her eyes , her wide baby blues ..i said back then to myself that man her eyes ..they're almost the same of the baby girl in your dreams , the most amazing blue eyes

i swear sometimes back then i'd be making out with cara and i'd imagine the same blue eyes staring at me and i'd feel dirty as fuck and leave .

i used to leave because i felt like cheating on whoever this girl had grown up to be which i was sure a very beautiful woman , that's why when i saw bella i imagined her immediately.

never have i ever seen a woman as beautiful as Rosabella , the strong connection i felt when i saw bells was so deep and new as fuck to me , i didn't ever feel this connection with someone else, like hell ! never had it happened to me before , i was never a softie but thanks to my flower i became as soft as a teddy fucking bear , not my body if you know what i mean  .

I knew that I was a lost puppy when i found myself moaning her name while fucking cara and imagining her instead of the blue eyes and that's when i broke it off with cara .

that's why cara hates bella so much

silly cara was trying to get bells to be jealous by telling her that i can never fuck her as i used to fuck her , i only fucked her to keep my dick at a calm pace but if anything i didn't even and for once make love to her it was all about forgetting my problems by pleasure .

i know i know

i took advantage of her not only her but probably every girl i slept with and that would be countless maybe not Avlon because i actually respected Avlon and still , i used to think that i love Avlon and even though we never broke up and i just left but when i met bells i knew that i was wrong when i thought that i loved Alvon , but cara and i both agreed that this thing between us will be only about fucking our brains out , in front of people we're together but between her and i , we are only friends with benefits , it was all going good until she decided to fall in love with me .

you all see this weird fact about love , it always happens when it's not supposed to , love is a son of bitch like it searches for places where it's forbidden and decides to take place.

i know that i surprised her today by proposing

hell ! i even surprised myself .

poor girl was about to die from shocking....

i wonder what would her answer be ?

even though it's pretty obvious for me but i'm still a nerve ball

the moment i asked her to marry me i knew that i would never want anything in the world more that her being mine till eternity , till my death because definitely asking her made me feel things , feel that i want her in my life , no i need her in my life

i want her to be completely mine , with soul , body,  heart and law and mostly in front of god , to have god's blissing.

yeah i may not appear really religious but i deep down I'm a good person who's close to god . i just want her to be my everything , i want her to carry my name to be Mrs. Brown instead of Miss Hunter

my lady , my wife ... Mrs. Rosabella Brown

i would want nothing in the world more than her.

just imagining her in the white dress looking like the angel she is ..it made me shiver with this new emotion .

never would i have imagined that i'd say that but i can see us having babies , i wasn't kidding when i said that i want twelve child , i want a big family i want six boys and six girls , i like my house to be full of running children .

Brown suicide squad , i like that .

Aren't children the cutest thing alive or what?

okay maybe not

the worst part is that you wouldn't be able to have free sex

like what if i wanna fuck bells in the kitchen , imagine a kid walking in on us ...god forbids  !!!

or when i wanna fuck her in bed and when we're just about to get into it a child comes running because he had a nightmare and demand to stay the night with us ...

fucking hell !

that would be more tough than i thought of

maybe i could reconsider the twelve child thing ?

you know what maybe we should wait about the whole thing

nah I'm just kidding

or am i !

bella thinks that i forgot to use a condom but then i remembered and decide against it , i feel bad as fuck for lying and I'm well aware that she hates nothing but lying and lires and I've been nothing but a lire but not on the parts where i tell her about our future and how i truly feel about her , there is no doubt that i'm hopelessly in love with bella and i wanna marry her but about the condom thing i just .... what could i have possibly said to her is that, hey listen i didn't use a condom on purpose because part of me wanted to get you pregnant because that way you'll never leave me , hell no.

but i used condom the last two times , i only came inside her twice and then came on her breasts which was sexy as fuck and the last two times i was wearing a condom so at least give me credit for that

as fucked up as it sounds but i am that desperate

you don't know how it feels to feel threatened every day of your life that any minute you might lose your life , that i might lose her

my sick mind said that , you love her and you just proposed and i do wanna have babies with her so why not get her pregnant and that way if she ever heard of the truth or knew anything she'll be forced to stay

fucking sick !! i know but i can be anything when it comes to her

She's my obsession

i know bella , some of you might say that she will take the baby away and leave but i know better , bella was raised without her father she knows how bad it feels but she knows that there is nothing which she can do because her father is dead so she wouldn't want her child to live the same miserable life of being fatherless like her specially when his father is still alive and it's not like i'm gonna leave her nor my baby

listen to me , i'm talking as if she's already pregnant and leaving me

fuck ! how did my heart is hurting me at the moment when the though of her leaving me came to mind !

i wish i could have said no to dad from the beginning but that man knew how to make a deal and topping that when I fist saw her i was intrigued by her , i wanted to know her better and honestly i just wanted to know dad's intentions through her  that's why i agreed and honestly I needed that deal and what he was offering , never have i thought that i'd fall this hard and this quick in love with her

me and dad have a lot to discuss

I mean if he knew from the beginning that she's his best friend's daughter why all of that then? Why? and then after i truly fell for her he was so against us being together ? why was he against me falling for her even when he knew that she had fallen for me ?

Isn't that what he wanted ?

now i doubt that it was really fate who brought me and flower together

i feel that dad has something to do with it , but that isn't a reason for me to do what i did

i agreed

i could've said no and then have my way with her

but dad's deal was good then , i chose the easy way

and what's the price....

losing her would be me paying the price

at the moment dad's price is worthless ..it's shitless and i feel disgusted by myself .

I wanted this deal off long ago but know almost everyone knew.

I'm afraid that someone might slip

i will never tell her

what if i tell her and then she leaves me , i can't handle that

my head is buzzing with so many questions

fuck my life

calm the fucking down brown

she'll never know , who might tell her

andrew will never open his mouth , plus he's as guilty as me!! okay maybe not that much , but he's lying to her as well , sara too but i know that they both won't speak a word even blue I mean she's my sister and she knows how much I love rose so we're safe.

they would never do this to me

they would never do this to us , specially sara who loves bella so much , she won't love to see her hurting .

while dad i mean he's the one who's making us all shut our mouths

no one else knows so who might tell her ?

no one will , so why risk losing her over something that is already buried ?

is this considers as betrayal ?

lying i know but betrayal ?

i turned my head to stare at the angel sleeping behind me on the bed , i'm sitting at the far edge of the bed while bella is sleeping naked like an angel , she passed away an hour ago after i fucked her for another four times , i know i had worn her out but hey we fucked three times and made love twice tonigh so , i didn't  fuck her hard . i have to have some credit here , okay .

she looks so peaceful and calm ..sleeping with a faint smile on her lips , her eyes are actually half opened half closed which is weird and somehow scary .

i mean who sleeps with their eyes opened !

but she looks cute

my cute little flower

her skin is glowing under the faint light of the night stand lamp , i felt the pride and my ego was raised ten foot in the sky when my eyes caught the masterpiece i made on her body , her neck collar bone and the whole chest area and he ass , her back too and hips from my tight hands grip they are all full of love bites and hickys even her thighs and shoulders , her golden hair is spread behind her like a yellow sheet while she's wrapped around the pillow having her arms around it as if she's hugging me and a leg bellow and above the pillow , i couldn't sleep .. from the moment we shared at the hot air balloon i knew that i've fallen in love but i was sure that i'm whipped when my blood boiled with jelousy when i saw this Greek Italian hanging with her and calling her kitten

that fucker , i hate him like i could knock his head on the wall then on the floor then chock him then again smack his head on the wall then so politely i'd feed him his dick if he's still alive .

i need to talk to dad ASAP

i stood up from the bed slowly then cover my baby with the white sheets and went to my walk in closet  . even though this is not my main room it's just a small guest room but i brought rose here because well i didn't want Ashley in the room next to mine hearing bells screams , but i stay in this room too , a lot . the white colors cheer me here and calm my nerves and i'm sure bells would love the room when she wakes up , i grasped grey sweats and put them on , i'm well aware that i'm not wearing any boxers but what the point of wearing any when i'll be sleeping naked anyway , i just wanna grasp something to eat and talk to dad if he's still here

some shit must be done

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So...
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