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If someone here is team Lucas , I gotta tell them
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Oh . My . God .

this ......

it can't

why does it has to be him out of all people ?

I can't even begin to think what should I say or do now !!

It's him ... The guy I spent years wanting to know who he might be , the one who stole my first kiss and took my mind away with him..

Yes it was nothing and I was sure back then that he was probably just having fun but to me it wasn't cause I was never kissed by a guy and he wasn't any guy he was a beautiful one who knew what was he doing and just to know today that I've been around the same guy for almost a week now made me shiver and stopped my mind from any thoughts .

after what he said i know that i can't be normal with him like i was .. it would be hard knowing that he's the same guy .

i was so bend on knees to know that person .... those ocean blue eyes consumed me and I noticed nothing but them during that one small kiss . 

I stared at his soft pink lips tgat once were kissing mine then  found myself touching mine .

What the hell is wrong with me now ?

stupid little kid  , I scowl myself

no i'm a stupid big kid , not small

He started deeply into my eyes before he sigh and started speaking .

" remember when you were in year 10 ? it was the last week at school , that day it was senior prom party and you ...you were walking alone at the school hall " he said looking at the ground and looks nervous , suddenly my mouth goes dry and i swollowed hard ... It really is him .

"Continue please " i whispered softly and he looked surprised that I want him to continue and willing to hear him  while me I'm  just about to have a heart attach .

Oh goodness it's really him !!

" it was dark and i was in a really bad mood , i was walking in the same hall as you but on the opposite side then i...uhm....i saw you ...you were looking so innocent and ... Small .. so fragile and scared as if it was your first time at school at night .. then you started looking at the ceiling and smiled when you saw mr philib's decorations ...i -i...couldn't....just walk like that and i already knew you not in person but I saw you with Andreya before ..... i don't know what got into me but the next thing i found myself kissing those soft plumb lips " he said brushing my lower lip with his thumb and that go me closing my eyes and shives started rolling down my spine , my breath hitched .

What's happening to me now ?

i opened my eyes and the feeling of being dazed is consuming me , my heart is dancing at it's own frantic tempo , my eyes moved from his dark blue ones to his pink inviting lips and my thoughts were like , those are the same lips that kissed mine .

the next thing i know my lips are clashing against his .

I don't know how , when or why but it just happened , my lips on his stills cause I don't know what to do , he slowly opens his mouth and I did the same then our lips started moving in a familiar way  , his mouth closed against mine and he sucks my lip a moan was threatening to come to life but I hold it in , i closed my eyes slowly feeling every inch of his lips on mine , his hot warm pink lips .

I'm trying to bring back the memory of the kiss we shared maybe then I would make sure that's it was really him  even though I'm pretty positive that it's him .

Even if I have any doubt the  same taste of his lips  made it clear to me that it was really him and I'm more sure than ever , he closed his eyes then pulled away slowly and soundingly if that's a word .

" was i your first kiss back then at year 10 ? " he asked me and i blushed but nod my head slowly anyway .

" i believe our kiss didn't include tongue " he said with a husky voice and I blush even harder .

He has on hand palming my cheeks  and the other is on the crook of my neck .

" Fuck !! I wanted to do that long time ago" he said with his eyes full of lust mixed with a punch of emotions  .

oh my god !! my cheeks turned fifty shades of red , this can't get any worse .

his eyes are looking widely at my lips then my eyes , his are hungry and his lips are agape and so pink , so inviting .

without any warnings his lips landed back on mine but this time forcefully that he had to hold my head from the back of my neck , we both inhaled sharply , his tongue licked my bottom lip asking for entrance , my hands tugging lightly at his shirt . His tongue didn't wait for me to open my mouth Because it entered my mouth without permission and it's not like I'm complaining .. my mind is fogged and I can't think of any other thing aside from his tongue that  started dancing with my own  massaging it and crassing it slowly at first​ .

the kiss progressed to being turned into making out as his tongue started thrusting forcefully I to my mouth  and it made me moan .

Damn not! He's such an amazing kisser .

I wonder how many women had he kissed using those lips zi the thought  made me frown  so I pushed  it aside for now .

He bitted my  lower lip and tugged which got me shivering .

we both stood together on our knees on the couch , and our heads followed each others with quick movements .  his hands are holding me in place holding my waist and my lungs are searching for oxygen i can barely breath . his left hand made it's way to my hair tugging it slowly and the other is still holding me in place by my waist . it feels good and my heart is beating out of my chest but not even close to what williams makes me feel .

williams-......

Holly shit !!

what the hell am i doing ?

i love williams , oh my God .

Does this considered as cheating on him ??

i quickly pulled away from Lucas as if he's gonna burn me .

Oh god that's so wrong ... so wrong , what have I done !!!

I walked and stand away as far as I could ,  i need my space .

My muscles are stiff and my heart is beating so hard and I can't even breath and the huge effect of what I did or let Happen hit me hard like a freaking huge jet and it made my stomach clench painfully .

I turned to him , his blue eyes are glowing and he has a faint smile .

I'm so sorry Lucas .

" wow " he said with a hint of blushing on his cheeks and a smile .

" this was a mistake " i whispered and his smile faded to be replace by a frown , my heart hurt me momentarily Because I know that I'm the reason into why he's frowning now , i feel bad for doing that to him while he's been nothing but truthful with me .

All what I'm feeling is nothing compared to the feeling of being guilty becasue aside from the idea of williams and how i feel like i cheated on him that I'm bad but I mostly feel guilty because a part of me liked it ... Liked kissing luca , liked the feeling of being in his arms and the feeling of his fast beating heart against mine or the way his hands where slowly crassing my body and don't ask me how or why  .

Do I love Williams ?  Yes absolutely yes .

But I can't help feeling something for Lucas and I know that it's too wrong .

"why ?" he asked looking in pain and it saddened me further .

" i can't lucas i don't see you like that beside ..... i'm with williams ....i ....i love him " i said softly on the very edge of crying , his frown deepens .

" i know ...... that you love.......
williams , but maybe we could- " i cut him off

There can't be maybe .

" no lucas we can't ... i only see you as a friend a really close one i ju-....." he cut me off yet again .

" don't go.with that i-only-see-you-as-a-friend shit .. cause the way you kissed me first then kissed me back says that you have a thing for​ me deep inside of you wether you admitted​ it or not " he said with a serious tone but a very hurtful eyes .

" You're just too afraid to admit it ,rose. But I can see it in your eyes and that way you responded to my kiss ... i'm willing to wait " he said softly now with a hurtful voice this time , he let his mask down and I can totally see now the weak Lucas Greek and it pained me more .

He's willing to wait for what ?
For me ??

how on earth's name did we get to this point !!

I don't wanna give him hope on something that's barely there.

" lucas ... i thought we were friends , you know " i told him looking at the ground .

i know that maybe i'm being harsh on him but i can't ...

I can't give him hope and I know better that I can't be with him cause simply I.love.williams .

i already see myself as a cheating women .

Okay !! Dramatic much ?!

i know that lucas is right and that deep down i have a thing for him but that's the thing it's deep down and can never goes up and maybe I'm only feeling this because me and Williams are not official or exclusive or anything .. not yet .

what if williams knew about this !!!!

Oh my God , no ...

he'll leave me ?

no i mean he's still not my boyfriend but he'd be so mad that maybe he'll say that she cheated on me and we're not together yet so what might happen if we got together , and the thought will make him leave me.

Holly cow !!

i really feel guilty and torn apart by doing this to williams .

" all i'm asking is time , give yourself time to think clearly and i'll be there as a friend untill you say to me that you have a thing for me and till that day comes i will never make a move on you , I promise " he said sincerely and I can tell that he means every word said .

wow !

He really cares that much !! He's willing to stay my Friend and see me with other dude just to not bother me .

I don't know if that should make me happy or sadden me further .

" lucas i don't want to waste your time i already told you that i love williams and..that kiss....i'm not gonna lie back at year 10 i was so obsessed on knowing who you are and that obsession didn't fade till i met williams , you were the first boy ever to kiss me and it was really good and simple , you made me feel wanted and special but things change and i can't do this to williams " i told him as a single tear fell down my cheek ,I look at his broken , hurt eyes and tears slid even more .

" if the kiss is bothering you that much forget about it and as i said i'll always be here caro whenever you need me as a freind and when you need more i'll still be here " he said and it made my heart itches ... Can a person be like that ? Care that much ??

i smiled a sad smile and went to give him a hug , a quick brief one though .

he cares that much and it made me shiver.

or i'm just another girl that he wanna go into her pants ?

no ! I think not , he said he knew who i was and he know my mamma and sonia he said he used to see me with emma and max and that sonia used to give his parents her famous and well known chocolate cookies beside he said we were neighbors for 3 years .

what about i call mum and ask her myself about the greeks ?

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the ride back to campus was awkward ... let's just say that the weird  silence was unbarring . 

" so ...uhm....we're good ? " lucas asked looking unsure and nervous when he parked in the dorms lot.

" Y-yeah...we're good , you're still one of my close friends , luca" i said smilling .

" I like how you call me Luca "  he said and we both smiled .

we both agreed on forgetting all about this kiss and that it never happened and lucas told me that he's always there and he'll never try anything on me not untill i start feeling that i want him to .

So far I'm relaxed even though I have the feeling that he's not gonna forget about his kiss soon but I drop it because for me I already started forgetting it .

i changed my cloths and started studding  a minute passed by before a pretty worried tom parg into the room followed by miranda .

" oh god ! are you okay ?" he asked me not giving me a moment to speak before he took me a tight huge 

i noded

"yes i'm fine tom " i told him with a sure voice to make him calm Abit  then we broke the hug

"i was so worried , it's the first time you ditch collage , you went aftre him and i pissed you off  . i just didn't want you to get hurt rose , i know i should've-" i cut him off

"tom i'm fine and i do understand that you was worried and i'm sorry for snapping at you like that it just that some words had to be said and i had to go after him " i told him and he nodded in understanding .

"i'm sorry rose " he softly apologized

"no you shouldn't ..i'm sorry " i said looking at the ground with a shy smile .

"don't be , bestfriend " tom said and my smile widen

" okay best friend " i said back and we both hugged again then I noticed Miranda behind him when I looked to greet her , she has a look in her eyes that made me shiver in a not so good way but I smiled anyway.

" and miranda please don't think that i'm upset or anything i really like you , we could be really good friends " i told her and she smiled but I'm not stupid I can tell that it's fake then she gave a tight hug and when I say tight I truly mean it .

"you're really kind hearted as tom said " she said with a. Forced smile that got me frowning while smiling  .

What's wrong with her ??

"i can be cruel real times  but it's just becaue i love you guys " i said and we all laugh .

the rest of the day was spent in studding and reading tess of the d'urbervilles as always and hearing some music .

I don't know why but I'm in mood for Ed Sheeran .

There is something that y'all should probably know about me , I'm an Ed Sheeran , the weekend , Halsey and Drake addict .

They sing different types of songs  , everyone of them has his own time and mood for example , if I'm in Williams mood weather it's good or bad it's always Ed Sheeran and Halsey .. if I'm in dancing and diving into music it's the weekend and Drake it's all about the beat guys .

At the moment I'm hearing kiss me by Ed Sheeran I was hearing Lego house and then this song came after and immediately I thought of Williams , the argue to call him and hear his voice increase so much and reached it's maximum but I don't know if he's busy or what ?
 
i decided to go with texting him

Now the harder problem is .. what will I say ?

the idea of teasing him on phone is still there in my mind somewhere but after what happened with lucas today i'm not sure , i just wanna apologize to williams even though he's not my boyfriend and he has no right in telling me not to go out with lucas nor kiss him but i still feel the commitment between us , I feel that I must be loyal to him and i'm sure that if he knew about the whole this one way or another that this could be called a disaster , i don't know how will he react i mean he made it pretty clear that he really likes me and that he cares and that I'm only his and that he  hates sharing , he said it bright  and clear the lat phone call , on other hand i went on kissing  another dude .

i'm a really bad person and I know it .

but I'm afraid that i'll lose him .

i can't lose williams

Okay I'll play my easy-teasing game with him .

let's start with true feeling .

i quickly broght my laptop and start sending him an e-mail

From :rosabella hunter.
Subject : you .
To : williams brown.

williams
I'm having one of those days that makes me realize how lost I'M without you.

yours rose

i send the e-mail , i don't know how i got this courage but as i wrote the words and sent them , i felt real their meaning really is to me and how I'm rally lost without him by my side .
at the same instant there is a new mail in my inbox .

My heart beats accelerates as I saw his name .

From : wlliams Brown.
Subject : you .
To : Rosabella Hunter .

Rose ,
why e-mailing ? i'm lost everyday witout you rosabella
One word from you changes my whole mood.
recently you're the reason into why I'm smilling , baby .

Jones Brown

TJB, brown enterprises holdings , INC .

the moment i read his e-mail my heart start danicing and a smile is drwn to my lips immediatly as I read his email over and over.

wil ,
well , i was going to text you but i don't know why i e-mailed you instead ;)
and I love seeing you happy , my biggest reward is seeing you smilling .

yours rose

i e-mailed him back still smilling like a goof.

"textig boyfriend now aren't we ?" the smirkig rebeca who's now lying on her bed was the reason into why I looked away from the phone .

"huh ?" I asked her raise both of my eyebrows .

" whatever babygirl continue what you're doing " she said laughing and i laugh too but was stopped when another e-mail reached me

flower ,
i like the way you write the word yours at the end of every e-mail , we have a mutual feeling about you being mine ;)
About me smiling , don't worry about that cause at the moment i have eight men around me can assure you that hell ! i'm smiling like a goof .

yours too
williams brown

oh my god ! i didn't even notice me writing the word yours at the end of every email .

When he wrote it to me it made my heart startef beating real fast and a blush creeped to my cheeks just like what happens to me whenever I'm around him .

wait . did he just say that there is eight men surrounding him ??

Where is he ?

Wil ,
I love being yours , Mr Brown.
where are you now ? am i interrupting anything ?

yours
Rose.

shit ! what if he is attending a meeting or on a business Dinner or worst with his parents !!

flower ,
don't worry baby , i'm at this boring meeting for fashion week and flower , i'm the boss i can do what ever i want .

yours
williams brown

i can see him smirking at the moment and it made me smile .

williams ,
okay boss , i just don't want your men to say that i'm distracting you ;)

yours
rosa

now let's start playing .

rosa ,
i like the nickname . Don't worry flower ,i don't get easily distracted , no one can distract me , beside talking to you is much better than this shit.

Yours
williams

I laughed at his words .

is that so Mr Brown ? he can't be  distracted we'll see mr .

wil ,
is that so ? this sounds as a challenge

Yours
rose

A minute passed and he didn't email me back , the next thing i know my mobil is buzing with a message i opened it and it's from williams

W:let's talk here , will you except the callenge 😏 ?

i smiled and decided to play a little

R:gladly babe

i know i'm not good at those things but i'll give it a try .

W:fuck ! I wanna hear you say it if I'm not in a fucking meeting I would have called , say that again , flower  .

omg it worked just from one word .

R:say wt again bbe 😌?

I sent this message and didn't wait for him to replay Because I quickly sent another one .

R:anyway ur nt here at the moment and i'm like really bored all alone 😪 .......

hell !! i don't know what i'm saying now but i wanna win the challenge and I'm just waiting for a specific questions and then my plan would be walking on the right track .

W:where ru nw ? what ru doing ?

YES , that's the question I'm waiting for .

R:i'm on bed and about wt i'm doing , if u were here brown , you would've seen , baby boy . I can assure u that ur missing a great show , Wil .

i know i know , i'm getting horney but i have all the right to be . first i can't resist this Greek god , second i need him to use his imaginations even though i'm not doing anything or saying anything but I love feeling inpower and having the upper hand here .

W:fuck me ! ur teasing me baby and hell !! it's working

i lugh at his use of words and decide to tease him further , and I know that I'm playing with fair but I wanna see where this is going .

R:well , about that .... if you were here maybe 😏.. but ur not 😖

I sent it and waited with shaking nerves a good three minutes passed and he still didn't reply

god !! did i go too far ?

now he'll think that i'm a hormonal teenager .

oh go ... oh god

just when i'm about to panic another message is delivered i opened it immediately

It's a long message .

W: i had to excuse myself because there were 8 fucking men staring at my growing cock and for that i'll have to go christian grey on you , i'll repeat my words again for you babe... soon , so soon you'll be the treat to my hard as rock cock .
no longer cold fucking showers.
i'm a man of my word flower

oh good lord

h-his words they made my heart beats accelerates and my palms strated sweating and down there i feel desire and my p*ssy is pulsing I'm sure as hell that it's soaking and I feel so..... So

Turned on

i didn't know that my plan meight work to actually go to the point of giving his a hard on .

he's actually hard and the idea of him having cold showers a lot because of me turns me on .

he said that i'll be the treat to his hard erection .

does this mean that he wanna ...you know ..with me ?

Holly heavens !!

It's surprising how  I'm willing to give up on anything just for him .

i bite my lip and try to calm my breath and my desire .

"are you okay rose ?" rebeca asked snaping me from my thoughts

"y-yeah ...i-i am " i said slightly breathless

i have to reply to his message

R:we'll see christian grey 😏
btw i won the challenge
*still smirking proudly*

i send the message and waitedi'm

W:you just got yourself another challenge but i won't be losing that one too baby 😉😏
there is a really importent question i have to ask u when i see u on saturday .

hell! another challenge but i'm feeling really curiours about this question he has to ask

he's not proposing is he ??

i start panicing

no i'm still young

Of course that's not what he has in mind , right ?

another message snap me out of my mental panic attack .

W:don't worry i'm not gonna propose 😂

i laugh at my stupid thoughts and the way he read my mind and speak my thoughts .

R:ok-ay i'm waiting on fire till satureday 😚

so much promises for one day

i mean really , he promise me a lot of things for one day and me too .

W:Rosabella Hunter u just kissed me 😱 😂 wait till you see baby . now go sleep it's already 9:30 and i want you to have your beauty sleep my flower 😘 , as for me , my man is trying to get calmer now .

i laugh at his message and a shiver ran through me while reading the word my flower

he reminded me with the time , I didn't notice that it's already 9 thirty  , he's having a meeting at nine in the evening ! weird .

i guss you can expect everything from a business man.

R:yeah sorry about what i did to your man , okay i'll go have my beauty sleep 😂 and i'll dream of you 😊

W:don't worry about my man he's used to it whenever he's around you .good girl always dream of me 😏 .

oh god

i turn him on a lot ....

good lord help me !!

R:okay good night

W:sweet dream baby

and with that i went to bed hugging me pillow as if i'm hugging williams and quickly sleep came and visited my eyes .

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So that's it .

First please Williams lovers don't murder me ...

Ik that this is a
(what-the-fuck-?)
Kind of matter because they actually kissed  But at least he's a good kisser 😕

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