"When the story has ended,
Why am I writing pages?"

18/06/2024

This chapter is something I am writing to release my emotions with. After losing my mom this is the first thing I am writing, I hope you will like it.

I am trying to convey what I am feeling.
I hope you all have a nice read.
Comments are appreciated.

➶—Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook had their whole life planned but the god had other plans. Leaving their hearts longing for their lover.➶—

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^pic credit to the rightful owner.

Please ignore the mistakes.
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Third person POV

Soft steady footsteps resonated throughout the lobby of the building as a tired blonde dragged himself out of the electric box, his hairs dishevelled, shirt messy and eyes puffy swollen red.

He looked blankly at his surroundings, the empty lobby silent as he reached the door of his apartment and typed the passcode, his breath shuddering- 010997

He pushed the apartment's door open, revealing the silent home as the blonde's eyes took in the sight of his house- of their home. His siren-like eyes watered at the longing crawling into his chest, when another sob left his lips. Covering his teary eyes with his palm, the male failed to move away from the door frame.

"Jungkookie.." The blonde whined, rolling around the bed as he looked at his lover standing in front of the dressing table, fixing his raven locks in a man bun.

"Do you really have to go?" He whined loudly, the elder chuckling as he finally turned around and walked toward his boyfriend, who sat up on the mattress with crossed legs, puppy eyes blinking at the other.

Jungkook smiled cupping the other's cheeks in between his palms, leaning down and kissing away the pout from his lover's lips, "Yes, I need to. Taehyungie." He giggled at the other who made a face at him, walking back to fix his tie.

"But- but why? I don't want to be alone." Taehyung uttered, walking toward the elder and helping him put on his tie.

"I need to, Tae. If I manage to crack this deal I will be able to afford the bigger apartment we were looking for." Taehyung glared at his lover as he pressed his lips into a thin line.

"But we don't have to. This apartment is yours as much as mine. I hate when you go away." The blonde uttered, making his boyfriend smile in adoration for his man.

"Don't sulk Taehyungie. Okay fine-" The younger looked up at the elder as Jungkook grabbed his chin and pressed a soft peck of love over his strawberry lips.

"When I come back I will have a surprise for you." Jungkook uttered, the younger pouting as he glared at his lover. "I better like it."

"Oh, you will love it!" Jungkook chirped as he hugged the blonde, the younger giggling into his chest.

Taehyung closed the door behind himself as he looked around the house, the four walls suffocating him, the silence hurting his ears. His sight fell on one of the pictures hanging on the wall of the living room, Jungkook hugging him as he glared at the camera.

The blonde felt his sight turn blurry, wiping his tears away, he took a longing look around himself. Pushing himself through the hall and entering their bedroom. His sight falling at himself, tucked in black pants and a black shirt.

"Why is your wardrobe only have black?" The blonde screamed as he looked back to his lover who typed something on his laptop, smiling from ear to ear.

"Black is pretty. It's mysterious and radiates dominance." Taehyung walked out of their walk-in closet, huffing at his boyfriend angrily as he pushed the laptop away, getting the attention of his lover who looked at him confused.

"Get up! Get up!"

"What happened, Tae?" Jungkook stood up, letting himself be dragged away by his lover.

"Your wardrobe needs a refresh, there's literally no colour! I hate the dark palette. You are "The" Kim Taehyung's boyfriend, you need to radiate with happiness." Jungkook laughed as he rolled his eyes at the younger, who was busy forcing him to wear his shoes.

"Why do you hate black so much? You will need to wear it someday." Taehyung looked at the elder with squinted orbs, poking his tongue out at his lover as he pushed him out of the door.

"You know what, I am gonna wear pink to your funeral only to mock your dead self." Jungkook laughed loudly, shaking his head lovingly.

Taehyung walked out of his room, loose pyjamas and a baggy shirt hugging his figure, pouring himself a glass of water, when his eyes fell on the half opened packets of ramen, nose flaring and blank eyes turning sad as a tear rolled down his eyes. He angrily walked toward the kitchen counter before grabbing the packets and disposing them to the dustbin.

The blonde looked at the wall clock, smiling as he put on his earring. Skipping on his feet happily as he hummed to himself happily. Heart beating with excitement at the thoughts of crashing himself into his lover's embrace, only an hour more.

His tummy rumbling with hunger, as he pulled out two packets of ramen and smiled, deciding to feed himself something before he left for the airport to receive his lover who was on a business trip to London for a week.

He filled the saucepan with water pouring a little in the cup of ramen, smiling when his phone rang. Boxy grinned at the display as he picked up his phone. Squealing with happiness, "Jiminie, what's up?"

But the blonde was met with silence from the other line, his smile falling down as the worry for his best friend took place in his heart.

"Jimin, are you okay? Is everything alrig-"

"T-Tae.." Jimin's voice wavered from the other side, the emotions and fear swirling behind his words making Taehyung's heart fall into the pit of his stomach as he clenched his phone tighter.

"Are you okay, Jimine? Why are you-"

"J-jungkook-" Taehyung gulped, feeling it difficult to breathe as a panic settled in his chest, "-Jungkook what? What happened?" He screamed, feeling his eyes turn watery.

"Jimin, fucking tell me what happened! I-I- Jungkook w-what-

"Jungkook's plane crashed, n-no- No one survived." Taehyung gasped, many tears rolling down his cheek, stumbling back wordlessly, the phone slipping down from his hand as Jimin's worried voice was heard from the other line.

One more tear rolled down the blonde's orbs, finding it difficult to breath as he sprinted on his feet, making a run barefoot, sight blurring and Jimin's words stabbing his heart painfully, only a prayer on his tongue.

"J-jungkook, n-no- i-it can't. Pl-please no- Jungkookie..."

Taehyung fisted the kitchen counter as furious water droplets left his eyes, mouth struggling to breathe air, he cried silently. Closing his eyes, he waited.

The blonde flinched at the unannounced presence of his husband who sneaked his tattooed arms around his waist, hugging his petite figure from behind, taking in his smell, he placed a soft kiss on the younger's nape as Taehyung's cheek blushed red.

"What are you doing, Jungkookie?" He asked, stirring the hot soup on the stove, smiling widely at his boyfriend.

"Hmm, I am loving you." Jungkook whispered, his rough voice tingling Taehyung's insides. He giggled at his silly lover.

"When we get married, I want to adopt a kid, Taehyung. We will have our little family." The blonde grinned as he picked up a few ingredients and sprinkled them in the soup while having a clingy rabbit stick on his back.

"Hmm, Only one kid? I want at least five of them. They are so adorable." Taehyung hummed as he tasted the soup, moaning in delight at the taste. The raven behind him placed a kiss behind his ears.

"If you could get pregnant I would have blessed you with fifteen of those tiny humans." Taehyung felt himself turn hot as he looked wide eyed at his lover,

"S-shut up Jeon!" Taehyung uttered flustered, the elder laughing wholeheartedly, hissing afterward when received a smack on his head.

Taehyung clenched his eyes tighter, waiting with hope in his heart. He waited for a familiar arm to sneak from behind him, waiting for the soft touch to meet his nape, waiting for the warming cologne to hit his nostrils.

He waited, "I-i am waiting, J-Jungkookie." He whispered, a tear rolling down his eyes.

"Pl-please love me, I-i am waiting." His heart shuddered at the breaking hope present behind his limbs, as he turned around with fury. "I said I am waiting, Jeon Jungkook!" He screamed loudly.

Eyes falling open only to see the empty kitchen, ears turning to hear his own voice and nobody else's, a hiccup left his lips as he felt it hard to breathe. Clenching tightly on his chest, his body hurting as his shoulders shook with unheard cries of sorrow.

"W-where are you, Jungkookie? W-where are you?" Taehyung questioned, ears deaf to any answers.

"What are you doing, kook?" The blonde questioned watching his boyfriend type something on his phone, he peeked curiously at the screen.

"Alarm?" He questioned, confused as the raven pushed him down to have a seat on the dining table, smiling. He put a glass of water in front of him, the blonde scrunching his nose when saw the tablets in his lover's hand.

"They make me yuck!" He whined, the raven huffing as he cupped Taehyung's cheek, forcing his mouth to open and pushing the tablet inside, making the younger take a big gulp of water. Who struggled to get away.

"But these keep you healthy." Taehyung glared at his boyfriend who pushed another tablet into his mouth, giving him his charming bunny smile.

"And, I have set an alarm so when I am away you don't forget these tablets, you have to take them on your own." Jungkook smiled, making the younger gulp another tablet, the third and the last one.

Taehyung grumbled under his breath adorably, glaring at his soul. "You will not let me breathe even when you are away, won't you?" Jungkook nodded, chuckling as he gave a candy to Taehyung who resembled an angry puppy.

"Even If I am in another world, I will make you take these. You can't get away, Taehyungie."

"You are a meanie."

Taehyung gulped the big sip of water down his throat, blinking his eyes to keep the moisture away from them but failing miserably, as he coughed. The medicine leaving a bitter taste behind, he let his head fall down on the table.

"You did so good, love. Good boy." Taehyung looked up with the speed of lightning, his neck snapping as his eyes widened, watching Jungkkook leaning on the door frame with his arms crossed, smiling.

As the blonde pushed his chair back and made a run toward his lover, "Jungkookie.." He made movements to hug the elder's figure only to have nothing under his arms, empty hands dangling in the invisible air.

His eyes turned blank as he turned around on his heels absentmindedly when the doorbell rings, head snapping toward the main door.

A soft smile took over his lips, hurrying to open the door,

"Jungkoo-" The words dieing on his lips as he came face to face with an unfamiliar man, who smiled unknown.

"There's a parcel, sir." Taehyung closed the door as he took the carton box inside, settling himself down on the floor, his sight fell on the wall clock once again. Memories of the last call he had with Jungkook fresh in his mind.

"What parcel?" The blonde asked his boyfriend, who was on Facetime with him as he folded his laundry. Jungkook laughed at the confused face, heart bubbling with joy.

"Just receive it for me, Taehyungie. It will be there tomorrow around 2 pm." The raven requested, watching with love in his orbs as Taehyung chuckled, shaking his head.

"You are so silly, Koo. You will be here by 1 pm already. You can receive it yourself." Jungkook pressed his lips in a thin line, smacking his own forehead.

"You are the silly one, Tae. I want you to receive it and open it in the living room. Don't argue." Jungkook whined lowly in his throat, the blonde surrendering.

"Okay okay fine. I will."

Taehyung crossed his legs, as he pulled the ribbon tied neatly above the box and put it down on the floor, letting the box fall open. His eyes teared once again. The white silk dress there.

The blonde picked the beautiful piece of fabric as he smiled at the cloth, closing his eyes and letting his tear kiss the apple of his cheek. A sob threatening to leave his lips at the gift, keeping the fabric down he picked the letter pressed in the corner of the box, opening it with his shivering fingers.

Wiping his face harshly to not have his eyesight turn blurry as he let the silent words of the letter settle in his heart, Jungkook's voice reading those syllables to him.

Dear Taehyungie,

I am sorry, I have to take the help of pen and paper. I wanted to say these words to you out loud but I am scared. What if I mess up? I can't have you throw blows at my handsome face. Can I?

Taehyung giggled, tears getting in his caramel orbs, sniffling softly as he caressed the paper with love.

Growing up in an orphanage was so tough, Taehyungie. Even though I had people who loved me and cared for me, there was alway an empty part of my heart.

A part that was lonely and painful, I thought I have to learn to live with the pain that fills my chest, the pain of longing. But since I met you, it hurt less.

I used to cry silently in the wait of someone special but since you decided to bless me with your presence, I realised I have forgotten how it feels to be lonely.

When I think about my life, it's all about you, Taehyungie. I can't even think of a life without you. You are my happiness and my love. I want to earn for you. I want to be the best person you could find out there. When I thought there's nothing good in me you brought the best out of me.

Tae, I just want you to pull you into my lap and kiss you till you become a giggling mess in my hold. I can't even think of a place where you are not with me. I want to work hard and provide you with everything, I want you to be my queen and I want myself to be your little peasant bunny.

A laugh slipped out from Taehyung's mouth, eyes dipped at the corners with glee.

I know sometimes I am a pain in ass, I know that I always force you to take those yucky medicines. I know you want to kick my ass out of our home sometime.

But I love you so much, petal. That I want to be stuck with you for life. I told you, that when I come back I will have a surprise for you;

Taehyung kept the letter down, picking up the tiny box from the floor, eyes burning as his nose turned red, biting his lips to stop himself from sobbing out his emotions as he opened the tiny box.

The diamond ring beautifully sitting there, the other tiny note waiting for him. The blonde let his shivering fingers wrapped around the paper, as his lips read out syllables softly out loud.

So, will you be my forever, Taehyungie?

- I am waiting in the bedroom,
Your peasant bunny, Jeon Jungkook.

Taehyung stood up on his feet, running toward their bedroom as barged inside, smiling, squealing loudly with happiness;

"Jungkookie, you silly rabbit! I am here-" But his smile fell drastically, the empty room reminding of the unfortunate events as he stared at the four walls of the room, their pictures hanging here and there.

His lower lip wobbled, eyes burning with warm water as another tears rolled down and then another, finally letting himself loose, a painful loud wail escaped his lips, breaking down into a fit of tears, he let his cries resonated throughout his home.

Taehyung felt his knees go weak as he fell down, resting himself on his calves, his shoulders shook. The piece of paper clenched in between his fingers as he curled his hands over his chest.

"A-after thieving me of my happiness, of m-my life, where did you hid yourself, Jungkookie?" He whispered, heart breaking sobs rolling out of his mouth.

And without his knowledge, his hands clasped together as Taehyung rubbed them to ask for the apology of sins he didn't know about.

"I-i am sorry, so s-sorry. Please come back to m-me. Pl-please Kook, come b-back.." The male apologised, pleading with his every cry for the elder to come back to him.

"I-i will not annoy you. I-I will take my meds like a g-good boy. I-i will never disrespect you. W-will never- never r-roll my eyes on you, pl-please taetae is s-sorry.." Taehyung let his body fall forward, head touching the ground, begging to whatever power it was.

"Pl-please forgive taetae and- and come back to me. I-its suffocating, Jungkookie. I beg you, please, pl-please come back." Taehyung's whole body shook with cries, the whole house witnessing the younger's begging.

"D-don't be so cruel, love. Please c-come back. I-I am sorry. So fucking sorry.." Taehyung refused to get up from the floor, begging, refusing to believe that there's nobody to hear him out. Nobody to caress his locks and kiss his worries away.

He refused to believe that Jungkook wasn't with him anymore. He refused to believe that Jungkook was gone.

"W-where are you, K-Koo? W-where? Come b-back to m-me, j-just once. I beg of y-you, come back only for o-once."

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Oneshot 5. 3287 words.

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Since those unexpected event took place, life had been difficult. Not even in my wildest dream I had thought about losing so dear to me.

I remember talking to my mom just a day before, everything was perfect. She told me that she wished to see Jungkook one day and I had laughed loudly at her.

Nowadays, everything reminds me of her. I want to write but I just can't seem to. Every other clip of Jungkookie remind me of her, she used to tell me that how he is too pretty to be a man. She used to love his silly acts and told me that how she find Jungkook as a crackhead. Those little wishes of her, I couldn't complete.

I wish I just could go back to normal but I can't. I tried writing what I was feeling since two months through tae's character. I remember crying and begging, promising that I will good just bring my mother back to me but no one listened. I just can't believe that she's gone. It's so hard.

I hope you enjoy reading. I am always grateful to all of you. Don't forget to tell me if you like this chapter, okay? Your words seem to comfort me a lot.

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The way I love them, I don't think I will ever love somebody like that.