Bellamy was mad to begin with when he entered camp. He was mad with himself, because probably just killed 300 innocent people. He was mad for being selfish, for thinking only about his benefit.

Then he was mad for snapping at his sister. He pushed her away and he wouldn't be suprised if she hated him. And besides Octavia, he let Astrid down. Just the look in Astrids eyes when he shoved Octavia made him want to turn back time. To see the disappointment in her beautiful blue eyes made him falter.

But his anger soon turned into panic and fear when he found out that neither Astrid nor Octavia arrived at camp that day. No one had seen them and he felt like screaming.

And now, his fear turned into relief when he saw the two girls still alive. Yes, he could see the blood on Astrids torso and on Octavias leg. He could see the knife situated not far away from them. But they were alive.

"Astrid. Octavia." Bellamy breathed out as he rushed to the two girls. He enveloped Octavia in a hug first then handed her the key to unlock her restraints.

He then turned to Astrid and before she could speak he engulfed her in the tightest hug ever. Astrid smiled softly, even if he couldn't see and threw her arms around his neck, for once not feeling pain in her torso.

"I thought you were dead" Bellamy sighed in Astrid neck sending shivers down her spine. She couldn't deny that she missed him.

"Well here we are" Astrid chuckled but cringed when she finally remembered her wound. Bellamy looked at her questionable before his eyes averted to her wound and anger clouded his vision.

He helped Astrid up and let her stay next to Octavia as he advanced on the passed out grounder. Astrid raised an eyebrow in question but smiled weakly toward Jasper when she saw him.

Finn was crouched next to the grounder, inspecting all his knives and the foghorn.

"We need to get out of here. Before he decides to wake up" Astrid gestured to the grounder.

"He's not going to wake up" Bellamy sneered, anger coulding his vision. He grabbed a knife and moved towards the grounder.

"Wait Bellamy! Stop! He didn't hurt us! Lets just go!" Octavia pleaded trying to get out of Jasper's grasp as Astrid stood next to her shouting the same words.

"They started this. Finn, move" Bellamy said moving closer to the grounder.

"Foghorn" Finn whispered, barely audible. Before anyone could react, the grounder turned around and stabbed Finn with a knife, making him fall to the floor gasping for air.

Shouts and screams full of panic were the only thing heard in the cave as the grounder got up and shoved Bellamy on the stone floor, a spear inches from entering his throat.

Astrid, despite her injuries, got a large rock from the cave and hit the grounder in the back of the head with it. The grounder fell unconscious and Astrid could see Bellamy staring wide eyed at her. Astrid extended a hand toward him, helping him stand up. They didn't break eye contact.

Their staring contest was interrupted when Octavia shouted for Bellamy and Astrid. The two turned, almost remembering that they weren't alone, and saw Finn on the floor bleeding.

Jasper rushed to take the knife out but Astrid interrupted him "Jasper no! Take the knife out and Finn will die along with us when Clarke finds out" Astrid exclaimed.

Jasper nodded absentmindedly and Bellamy crouched down and picked Finn up. Jasper helped Astrid and Octavia walk out of the cave where Monroe was waiting.

The group walked back to camp in silence, Bellamy sneaking small glances at Astrid when she wasn't looking and Astrid sneaking small glances at Bellamy when he wasn't looking. Octavia and Jasper noticed but decided not to mention it since Finn was practically dying.

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The group arrived back to camp exhausted to say the least. Astrid hadn't eaten in a long time and she felt like passing out. She didn't doubt Octavia felt the same. It was harder for Astrid though since her torso and thigh hurt like fucking hell.

"Clarke! Where's Clarke?" was the first thing Jasper screamed when they arrived at camp. Astrid rolled her eyes at the name, not being able to not to show the hate she had at the blonde.

"Hey I'm here. What's up?" Clarke asked as she ran to them. She almost hugged Astrid but then she caught sight of Finn. "Finn? Oh my god!" Almost like a The Flash - a movie Astrid saw with her dad a long time ago - Clarke was at Finns side, guiding the group back to the drop ship.

In the drop ship was the last person Astrid thought of, Raven fucking Reyes. Raven rushed to Finns side, glancing briefly at Carke.

Astrid nodded absentmindedly when she heard Clarke praise her for not taking the knife out. At the mention of her name, Ravens head snapped in her direction as her eyes practically bulged out of her head.

"Blue!" Raven exclaimed - using the nickname she gave her because of her eyes - as she ran to Astrid and squeezed the life out of her.

Astrid chuckled as a tear made its way on her face. She fucking missed Raven.

As they let go Astrid took in every injury on Ravens head "Raven Reyes what the fuck did you do this time?" Astrid laughed then suddenly remembered of the other people in the room who were watching the girls amused. Well except Clarke. She didn't care about them, she only cared about lover boy Finn.

Raven realized the same thing as she turned to Clarke "Can you save him?"

Clarke paced stressed "Not me, I need my mother. I need to talk to her"

"There's still no radio" Raven rubbed her face as she plopped next to the radio.

"Raven fix it!" Clarke basically screamed. She then turned to Octavia and Astrid. "Are you two okay?"

"I'm good but Astrid not so much" Octavia explained.

"What's wrong?" Bellamy immediatly asked, being at Astrids side.

Astrid cleared her throat slightly, aware of how many eyes were on her "Well there might have been a huge fucking piece of wood in my torso that the grounder just ripped out without so much as a countdown and then he put one of those heated knives on me and it hurt like a bitch"

"Yeah, i am amazed i can still hear after how you screamed" Octavia muttered but everyone heard her because of the silence.

"What?!" Bellamys practically shouted before Clarke could say something.

"You know, the usual" Astrid shrugged with a sheepish smile.

Clarke shook her head "Sit down" she ordered. Astrid huffed and sat down on a chair as her vision turned to Raven who was still trying to fix the radio. She put the jacket Bellamy gave her on the chair, slightly grateful that the grounder didn't take it.

Clarke ripped what was left of Bellamy's shirt, leaving Astrid in a sports bra. Astrid didn't have problem with her body so she sat comfortably but Jasper and Bellamy seemed to get flustered. She understood Jasper, he was basically as innocent as a three year old but Bellamy? That she didn't know.

"How big was this piece of wood?" Clarke questioned as Bellamy pulled Octavia outside to talk, so he wouldn't blush so damn much anymore. Octavia did enjoy watching him get flustered but decide to not mention it at a time like this.

Astrid explained to Clarke everything for like a hundred times until the girl finally let her go, telling her not to put to much pressure on her wounds or to do any dangerous activity.

As Clarke walked back to Finn, leaving Astrid to stand up and walk towards the drop ship door, Bellamy came in with an angry expression and a shirt in his hands. He walked up to Astrid a nodded toward the shirt.

Astrid took it with a raised eyebrow as Bellamy sighed, trying not to let the conversation he had with his sister get to him "Well Clarke and the grounder ripped your other shirt apart so i thought you might need a new one" he explained. "Also, do still have the jacket i gave you?"

"Thanks" Astrid smiled and put the shirt on, then remembered his second question "Yeah I do" she gestured to the jacket she had lazy thrown on a chair close to Finn.

"Good" Bellamy nodded "It's cold outside, you should put it on. Wouldn't want you to freeze" he teased causing Astrid to fake laugh.

Bellamy went to leave the drop ship but turned abruptly "Also, my jacket looks good on you. Blue" he smirked at the sight of her red cheeks then left the drop ship.

Astrid was left to watch the place where Bellamy left with very red cheeks until a small laugh sounded through the drop ship.

Astrid turned to Raven who had a smirk on her face "You're letting him call you Blue? I thought only special people could" Raven teased the turned back to her radio.

"Shut up" Astrid groaned then went and grabbed Bellamys jacket from her chair. She put it on and sat back down, but not before looking down at herself. She did look good in his jacket.

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I know, i am like a terrible person for not updating in so long. But like, every time i woke up i just did not find the motivation.

I guess that just tonight, at 2 AM my motivation decided to pay a visit. Little bitch.