Astrid stirs awake when Bellamy shouts slightly from beside her. She opens her eyes slowly and sees Murphy trying to give Bellamy a cup of water. She quickly gets up and rolls her neck before pushing Bellamy back down on the mattress and going towards Murphy. Bellamy gives her a disbelieving look but she ignores it.

"Give me the cup, Johnny." Astrid mutters softly as Murphy hands her the cup. He watches as she turns around and goes to Bellamy, a guilty expression finding its way on Murphy's face but disappearing as soon as it came. He had a plan and Astrid wasn't going to get in the way.

Astrid crouches next to Bellamy and gives him the cup. When he only stares blankly at her and the cup, she gives him a stern look. Bellamy sighs audibly - and dramatically - but drinks the water. Astrid smiles satisfied and lays back down next to Bellamy after putting the cup aside.

"You feeling better?" Astrid asks, guilt once again clawing at her mind. She can't help but think it was her fault he got sick. If she would have pushed him away then none of this would have happened.

"Don't." Bellamy says firmly. At her confused look he continues. "Stop feeling guilty. It wasn't you fault. I was bound to get the virus at one point."

"Yeah, but-" Astrid is interrupted by Bellamy putting a hand on her mouth and sending her an amused look.

"Please shut up." he says with a serious expression before an amused smile makes its way on his face.

"Asshole." Astrid grumbles quietly, a small chuckle leaving her.

After a moment, Bellamy breaks the silence. "Have you seen Octavia?"

Astrid nods while playing with the collar of his shirt. "She was helping people all night. Murphy gave her a break."

Bellamy tenses beneath her. "Do you trust Murphy?"

Astrid hesitates, knowing she had a peculiar relationship with Murphy. They had been best friends for so many years, but they broke apart. The both changed and she felt like Murphy will never be the same. She didn't know if she could trust him again, the way she trusted him before. He betrayed her then by ratting her out and he could do it again. "I don't know." she answers quietly.

Bellamy nods as he plays with a lock of her blonde hair. "We should bring everyone inside. It's almost dawn."

Astrid looks up at Bellamy. "You don't think Jasper and Finn can do it."

Bellamy sighs heavily while sending her a look. "Do you?"

Astrid mutters under her breath. "Jasper is capable of doing it. Finn on the other hand..."

Bellamy sends her an amused look once again, at her small hatred for the Spacewalker.

•

At the entrance of the drop ship, Astrid looks up from where she had her face buried in Bellamy's neck when she hears an explosion. A small smile makes his way on her face when she realizes it was the bomb Jasper was supposed to shoot.

"They did it." she sighs happily while Bellamy kisses her head.

"I am become death, destroyer of worlds." Clarke says from beside the couple. At the weird look she receives, she sighs. "It's Oppenheimer, the man who built the first-"

"We know who Oppenheimer is." Bellamy and Astrid say at the same time. Clarke sends a weird look to the couple but they ignore her and prepare to welcome Finn and Jasper back to camp.

•

After Finn, Jasper and a sick Raven arrived at camp, Clarke got to work at helping Raven. Astrid couldn't help but notice Finn's crestfallen expression when he turned away from Raven, making her think that they probably broke up.

Good, Astrid thought. Raven was her friend and he was just leading her on. While Clarke wasn't Astrid's friend anymore, she wouldn't want that to happen to the girl either.

Astrid stood silently in front of the graves that the delinquents dug. Fourteen dead. Fourteen people they couldn't protect. Fourteen people they could never bring back.

"You don't have a gun." a voice made Astrid jump but quickly relax when she saw who it belonged to. Bellamy.

"Fourteen people." she muttered quietly as Bellamy stood next to her and draped an arm around her shoulder. "Promise me something, Bell."

A warmth filled Bellamy when he heard her say the nickname, something he only allowed Octavia to do. He didn't know when he allowed her to call him that, or how he became close to her but he would never regret it. Besides Octavia, she was the best thing that happened to him and she always managed to bring a smile to his face. "Anything."

"Promise me you're always going to be careful." Astrid said as she turned to face him. "Promise to put yourself first sometimes. Promise me you won't die. Promise me you won't become one of these graves. Promise me that even in twelve years you will live and be happy."

Bellamy wiped the small tear that made it's way on her face. "I promise that as long as you and Octavia are alive and well, nothing will happen to me. I'm never going to leave you." he brought her in a warm hug. "Never."

Bellamy rubbed the back of her head as he held her. He pulled away from her and brought his head down, giving her a much needed kiss. Astrid melted in the kiss, butterflies swarming her stomach as her fingers tangled themselves in his curly hair. Bellamy brought her closer by the hips and in that moment, he knew he would do anything for her. He knew he was falling for her hard, and for the first time in his life, he wasn't afraid of falling.

What neither of them knew was the Bellamy wasn't going to keep his promise. He wasn't going to put himself first, he wasn't going to be able to protect Astrid forever and he wasn't going to have a happy ending. Because life didn't work like that.

A/N:

i??? finally??? updated???

After so many days, i finally updated. ALSO thank you so freaking much for 13k+ reads. It's unbelievable that so many people have read my book and i'm so grateful.

Also, i hate season 7. I want to erase it from my mind. And i also hate the ending of this chapter but i felt obligated to add that because y'know. But he ain't dying anytime soon so at least there's that.

Also, this chapter is a bit shorter then most because i should be doing math right now so i don't have time to write a huge chapter. I will try to update more often but school is just so confusing and i already have a 3 in geography and physics.