Warning : this chapter will definitely be a sensitive one and will refer to themes such as self harming, which may understandably upset some people.

If you are sensitive, perhaps skipping this chapter would be best.

Suicide is not a light topic. If you know of someone or are considering of suicide, reach out and help the person that needs the help/help yourself.

Yoosung Kim

• he's been suspecting that something was up as you hadn't come home after buying groceries. Only after hearing a noise of bags being dropped outside the apartment did he to she check on you.

• as soon as he sees you standing on the railing opposite the apartment, he bursts out crying and pulls your body off the railing.

• he begins to blame himself, apologising for spending too much time on LOLOL and neglecting you.

• "I'm sorry (name)! I'm so sorry, please don't throw away your life like this! I'll take you anywhere you want... just please don't do this..."

• takes you back into the apartment, into the bed and watches films with you, never letting go of with with the fear that you'll do something like that again.

Zen

• as soon as the sound of metal clattering against the bathroom floor echoed, he burst through the door, shocked.

• he chucked away the razor that was in your hand and grabbed the nearest towel to put pressure on the cuts, all the more while tears were slipping from his eyes.

• "Why would you do this babe? I'm sorry if I don't make you happy enough, I'll change! Just don't leave me (name), promise me..."

• he thinks it's because he spends too much time focusing on his work and not enough with you, or that he doesn't compliment you enough.

• he bandages your wounds, kissing them better and telling you that you're perfect and he's so lucky to have you.

Jaehee Kang

• she's been away at work all day, and when you didn't greet her as she comes home, she knew something was up.

• she sees you with a noose, fitting it around your neck as she walks into the bedroom; immediately sinking to her knees and breaking down at the sight.

• "Why would you take your own life? I'm sorry if I don't treat you well (name), don't throw away your life, there's so much to live for... I want to love you for as long as I can."

• she thinks it's because she can't satisfy you the same way that a man can, and she that she isn't good enough for you.

• wracked with guilt, you drop the noose and apologise to her. She holds you close, muttering her own apologies.

((I hated writing hers))

Jumin Han

• he suspects that something's wrong as you've been in the kitchen for far too long, and as he sees you holding a knife.

• he knocks it out of your hand and holds you by the shoulder, a little too tightly, but in fear that you would take it back.

• "What are you doing?! Why would you even try something like this?! Don't you know how much I care about you? Don't you ever try something like that again, I can't lose you (name)."

• he blames himself, thinking that he's been giving you the cold shoulder as he's been too focused on his work.

• he doesn't allow you to go anywhere near sharp objects without his supervision; but he takes you away on a holiday to rid of those dark thoughts.

Luciel Choi

• he's been searching for you for hours since he hasn't heard from you all day, eventually finding you at the train station.

• his mind jumps to the worst conclusion, grabbing your hand and pulling you away from the path of the train, whimpering hysterically.

• "Why?! You said you'd live your life with me, we'd do everything together! We haven't gotten married at the space station (name)..."

• he can't help but draw his own conclusions, thinking that's it's his own fault for you even considering something like that.

• takes you to your favourite fast food restaurant and buys you whatever you want, making sure a smile is on your face.

V

• he starts to suspect something as you spend the majority of your time in the bedroom, not seeing him all afternoon.

• the moment he sees you with a bottle of pills in one hand he makes his way over to you, cupping your face to check for any indication that you had swallowed them, thankfully you hadn't.

• "Not you... anyone but you. You can't leave me, you're the one who gave my life meaning again, don't leave (name)."

• he blames himself as he's been away for weeks at a time with exhibition, leaving you all alone.

• promises to never leave you all alone anymore. He spends that evening treating you like royalty, treating you with affection.

Saeran Choi

• gets a little fidgety since you haven't left your room in hours, and finally decides to storm in and demand you come out.

• but when he sees you with his gun, positioning it at your chest, he freezes on the spot, tears springing to his eyes.

• thinks it's his fault because he sends mixed messages to you, some days with affection and other days with arguing

• "Stop what you're doing! Don't do that (name)! Don't you dare take away your life!"

• when you've lowered the gun, he kisses you tenderly, begging for forgiveness. He never loses his temper around you again for the fear that it would drive you to that mindset again.

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dt : catchingthranduil