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❪ CHAPTER THREE ! ❫
-ˏˋ VALENTINE BLABBLE! ˊˎ-

( please note: these next two
chapters will not take place
in present time, & will consist
of moments from 2016
through 2024 (post blip) ! )

(   JANUARY, 2016!   )

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-ˏˋ PRIVATE CHAT ˊˎ-
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PETER <3
SUN, JAN 3    1:34 PM

PETER <3
hey! may told me you
got back from mexico
yesterday! i haven't
heard much from you
lately...

PETER <3
wanna hang out
tonight to catch up?

LUCY <3
sorry, i've been so
busy since i got back

LUCY <3
i got you a keychain :)

LUCY <3
also can't go out
tonight. promised
matt i'd hang out with
him as soon as i got
back

LUCY <3
will try to drop off
your keychain before
i head out though

LUCY <3
are we still on to go
see the force awakens
on saturday?

LUCY <3
also may told me
about max!! i'm so
sorry!

PETER <3
oh, no worries!

PETER <3
yes, we're still on!

PETER <3
and thanks rosie :(

♡

FRI, JAN 8    6:26 PM

LUCY <3
hey! can we reschedule
our star wars movie
day? matt has a swim
meet tmr

LUCY <3
also he wanted to
know if he could come
with us when we do
watch it? you can ask
ned to come too!

PETER <3
absolutely not
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PETER <3
sure!

LUCY <3
also i forgot to give
you your keychain!
i'll try to give it to
you on monday!

PETER <3
i don't want the
keychain, i just
wanna see you!
( erased ! )

PETER <3
sounds good!

♡

(   FEBRUARY, 2016!   )

SAT, FEB 12    1:34 PM

PETER <3
hey!

PETER <3
i'm sure you're busy
with your cool new
friends and boyfriend
doing whatever it is
you do, but would
happen to be free
tmr?

LUCY <3
hi pete!

LUCY <3
can't go out tmr, matt
and i are supposed
to go to the arcade
downtown

PETER <3
right

LUCY <3
what?

LUCY <3
what's that supposed
to mean?

PETER <3
nothing

PETER <3
have fun

♡

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-ˏˋ LETTERS & NOTES ˊˎ-
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feb 14, 2016

dear lucy,
        i'm writing you this letter because i know that if i try to say what i have to say to your face, i won't manage to get any full sentences out. so here goes.

        i don't know you anymore. i don't see you anymore. all i get is a quick text or a rushed hello in the halls from you every few days. i know you are busy and i know you have matt and your other friends, but hello?? i'm supposed to be your best friend!

        these past few weeks have been weird. ever since we were kids we pushed away almost all of our other friends. we blocked out people until there was only me and you. and i'm not saying this is a good thing, i'm just saying i haven't noticed until recently. and you probably haven't noticed either, because you've never been in the position i'm in now.

        you have always had someone. you always had me. i always had you. now you have matt and . . . i have no one. well, at least it feels like i don't. now i feel like those other people that used to try to become our friends, that tried to push their way into our circle but were met by turned backs. i know you probably aren't doing it on purpose, just like we never did it deliberately when we were little. it's not that we didn't want anyone else, it's just that we didn't need them. and now it looks like you don't need me anymore.

        anyways i'm not trying to go on about how much i hate matt, (which i do!) i'm just trying to tell you that i miss you. and that well . . . things are weird without you.

        in a few years time if my name ever comes up you will probably say, "peter, now there's a name i haven't heard in years. we used to be best friends. i wonder what he's doing?" you'll sound like my aunt and uncle when they have dinner parties with friends and talk about "old times". they always mention people i've never even heard of when they're talking about some of the most important days of their lives. yet, where are those people now? how could someone who was your bridesmaid like 20 years ago not even be someone you're on talking terms with now? or how could my uncle not know where his own best friend from college lives? he studied with him for four years!

        anyways, my point is (i know, i know, there is one!), i don't want to be one of those easily forgotten people! super important at the time, yet years later just a vague face and a distant memory.

        i know you have your "special bond" or whatever you call it with matt (even though you've broken up twice already!) but we have another bond. we're best friends. or does the best friend bond disappear as soon as you meet somebody else? maybe it does, maybe i just don't understand that because i haven't had a girlfriend yet. but i'm not in any hurry to find one either, because i liked things the way they were with you.

        it hasn't been easy, watching you with matt. honestly, it hurts a whole lot. why did i learn to like you now? well, to be fair i always liked you. but i didn't realize how much i did until you had somebody else in mind. i had years to do this. years. years when there wasn't matt. years were i could have told you i liked you.

        anyways, maybe you've outgrown me, but i haven't outgrown you. i don't think i ever will. maybe matt and the other girls are now your best friends and i have been downgraded to just being your "friend." at least be that to me, lucy! even if you don't feel the same way. which you obviously don't because you're with matt. and if that's the case i won't bother sending you this letter. and if i'm not sending this letter then what the hell am i doing still writing it? okay, i'm going now and i'm ripping this stupid thing up.

sincerely, a very conflicted,
peter

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(   MARCH, 2016!   )

dear peter,
        i'm writing you this letter for a list of reasons. i haven't spoken to you as much lately, and that's because matt hates it when i have other guy friends and he's always on my ass about it. but right now i don't care. there's so much i want to say to you to make you feel better, but i can't imagine how you're feeling or that any words might bring you comfort.

        i'm so sorry about your uncle. i'm so sorry you have to go through this. i absolutely hate that this is apart of your life now. one day i know things will get easier, but today doesn't have to be that day. it's okay to not be okay. it's okay to be angry. so, do what you want. cry. or don't cry. don't let anyone make you feel like you're supposed to be acting a certain way.

         give yourself permission to feel. and i'm not going to tell you to "be strong" because i know you are. if you're reading this, that means you woke up this morning, and i'm proud of you for doing that. being strong doesn't mean that you have to hold back tears or censor your reactions. it doesn't mean that you have to give that tight-lipped smile you do and pledge to people that you're okay. i think letting the tears and everything else out is one of the strongest things you can do.

        this next bit of advice is a bit weird. when and if you can, write down your memories. i'm serious. i know you would always make fun of me for that diary i used to write in. but if i never wrote in it, i probably wouldn't have ever remembered some of our best memories. i just found it the other day, and boy were we chaotic kids. i even found some old notes you wrote to me during class. but like i said, write down your memories with him. details fade. memories fade. i was so little when i lost my dad that i can barely remember much about him, but i wish i did. you could ask may to write down her memories too if she can. i think you'd be grateful for the collection of stories and little moments later.

        i don't want to write too much because you probably don't have the emotional energy to be reading pages of pure rambling. so to get to my other point, i haven't been the greatest friend lately. but i promise to do better. like i said before, i don't have any magical words to write to make you feel okay, i just want you to know that i hear you. i see you. i feel your pain. and i'll be here, no matter how long it takes for things to get easier.

always,
rosie ♥

♡

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-ˏˋ PRIVATE CHAT ˊˎ-
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PETER <3
THU, MAR 3    3:19 PM

PETER <3
thank you

PETER <3
for all of it :)

PETER <3
wanna come over
and help me write?

LUCY <3
of course

LUCY <3
be there in fifteen :)

♡

(   JULY, 2016!   )

FRI, JULY 22    2:14 PM

LUCY <3
i think i'm going to
organize a search
party. have you fallen
off the edge of the
earth? are you even
still alive? i haven't
heard from you in
weeks! i even called
may and she said
that you've been
acting a bit off
lately.

LUCY <3
i don't know if this
has to with your uncle
or anything but...is
everything okay? because
if it's not, you can always
confide in me because
i'm your best friend
and...it's a law.

LUCY <3
and if things are getting
better like you said, then
tell me anyway! i'm your
friend and i need gossip.
it's section two of the
same law.

LUCY <3
i am here for you if
you need anything.
just please let me
know that you're
okay.

PETER <3
i am okay!

PETER <3
i've just been busy
with the new stark
internship lately.

PETER <3
wanna meet up
later?

LUCY <3
he lives!

LUCY <3
i thought you'd never
ask :)

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started:               jan 10, 2022.
published:           mar 22, 2022.
word count: 1747.

i feel like this chapter is so
short but it literally has
1747 words