He doesn't remember when he started feeling these things for his best friend.

Maybe it was during a manhunt video.

Maybe it was in the SMP.

Maybe it was during one of their various videos together.

He couldn't remember exactly.

But he knows he started vomiting them once he said those simple words.

"I....love you, Dream."

He didn't really mean it, he knows.

Not romantically, anyway.

But god, he wished he did.

He wished to hear that simple phrase come out of his best friend's mouth once more.

He begged, cried, hell, he even gambled with showing George his face!

But nothing worked.

Right now, he was watching his best friend gawk at the various colors he now had access to.

"Woah, it's blue!"

Dream had to mute his mic to vomit in a nearby trash can, which is now permanently by his desk, ever since he started vomiting those damn roses.

The violet petals were still small, thankfully, but it wouldn't be long before they grew large enough for him to choke on them on the way out.

He glared at the bloody petals, taking in every silky detail.

They almost looked fake, with as vibrant a blue it is.

He left his mic off most of the video, not wanting to ruin the moment for his best friend.

"Wait, stand next to the dandelion"

More of those bloody rose petals.

"You're darker!"

More petals.

What really got him was when his best friend was mesmerized by the sunset.

He looked down at his trash can full of blood and blue rose petals.

I don't care if I die anymore.

As long as he's happy.

I'm happy.

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I'm really soft for the colorblind video, okay!?

I haven't seen a hanahaki DNF book yet, so here we are! Plus, I wanted to make a hanahaki book myself.

I know that Owl425 used blue roses for her Skephalo book "Black Roses", so if it seems I'm trying to copy her in that regard, I'm honestly not. I just looked up flower meanings and blue roses seemed the best fit (at least one description of them is), plus it's George's favorite color, so.

But know that I'm not trying to copy Holly whatsoever! I love Black Roses, and it was part of my inspiration for this, actually! But I'm gonna try and make this unlike Black Roses, and make it more of the whole unrequited love thing portrayed in her book (if you don't understand what I mean, you'll understand soon enough).

If you're curious, this is the flower I'm basing this off of

It'll make sense as to why in later chapters, don't worry. :)

Be prepared for blood and angst!

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