― to sophia.

Soph. I know maybe I would never make it, or maybe I will. But the future seems unknown. I'm sorry I was so busy the past two weeks, I couldn't make time for you, or us. All of this made no sense to me and I was trying to prove all of this wrong by not believing in it. But somethings always are true even if you don't want them to, even if you don't want to believe in them at all.

I just want to be close to you right now. I want to hold your hand and tell you how precious you are to me. The way you always gave me courage to do things, boosted my confidence for the smallest of things. I want you to do that right now. I know you can't be here with me right now and I'm so glad they are taking you away from all this mess, but selfish to say I feel so lonely.

I may never be able to meet you again Soph, but I know one thing. If I ever see you again, above in the heavens, I'm sure we will reunite as best friends, as the soulmates we are. 

I'm sorry, I could have told you about all of this earlier. We could have had our time to say our goodbyes. But even if you never receive this letter, I want to say it to you.

I love you Sophia, I will always be there for you and I will always miss you. 

I hope the words that my soul wants to say to you reach you, I hope you understand that I want you to keep living, no matter what. I hope you are watching the stars right now and thinking about me, just like old times Soph. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better friend but stay safe, always stay safe!

I love you and I always will.

Goodbye.

Your best friend, Li.