April 30, 2xxx
Journal entry 1
11:53pm

Ya know, I never quite understood the point of having a crush on someone. Whenever I've liked someone, I always end up the one whose hurt. When I fall for someone, there is no picking myself up immediately. I hit solid concrete. And when no ones there to catch me, it hurts like hell. And its always cause they're never around or because they notice someone else.
Guys seem to always fall for other guys, the girl who is strong or the girl who is weak. The hard to get independent girls or the girls who are just all around helpless. Most of the time theyre really pretty...they have gorgeous eyes. I don't know...I've certainly never been one of those girls. What with my scarred face and body, seemingly unattractive personality and crap. I always seem to fall for the wrong guys at the wrong times. And I'm never confident enough to speak up and tell him. That on guy who I look at different than everyone else. Ugh...what am I gonna
do?

-C.R.L.

More entries to come