Hey guys, 

I'm so sorry for being MIA for such a long time. I'm honestly having a super tough time at the moment. My classes are stressing me out, and I've been struggling with my depression and identity. I've come out recently as bisexual to my closest friends and some others I can trust. I'm pretty sure I also have ADHD, which has recently worked up a lot. 

I've also been struggling with guys. I've written strong female characters who don't take shit from men, but I've realized it's a lot harder than it looks. Especially when you fall in love. I've fallen in love twice this year, and both times it hasn't worked out. The first one took my virginity, and when I told him I had feelings for him later, his response was, verbatim, "Go fuck yourself, it's not my problem." The second one fell in love with me too, but as soon as he told me he loved me, he said he couldn't deal with feelings and left. 

So to anyone with a broken heart, whether it's from guys, girls, parents, life, classes, anything: keep going. I haven't gotten to the part where it all pays off, but that's all I can hope for. I've gotten stronger and have tolerated less and less abuse. But especially with depression and crazy schedules, I have a really hard time being able to sit down and write, and the ADHD makes it hard to concentrate.

So in essence, I haven't forgotten y'all. I promise. I love you all still, miss our discussions, miss my characters, miss the laughter and sadness and death threats. I'm just having a super hard time and need support to get through it so I can come back. 

Love always, 

Sierra