((A/N: please note to listen to this song ^^))

My mind and body felt separated. I visualized all the scenarios of how I'll break the news to Tony or should I lie? What am I to do? Tony trusts me, I... If I'd know —I would have saved him.

I'm nothing but a murderer. Seth? Of all people to kill. He loved me? Or did he? But he was into Tony now?

Tony... Please forgive m—

Feeling something hard slam against my face, Dean busted out laughing a bit then realized he messed up and came to my aid. "Yo–pfffst —you okay?" He asked as I glared at him, but I broke into a broken sob.

"How am I going to tell them?" I sob.

"Just be honest with them, whoever it is, I'm sure they'll understand, Silvia." Dean's tone was a husky, gentle tone. The tears were hot on my cheeks.

I had cried the whole way here as Dean had carried Seth's body. Yeah, I wasn't going to burn his body. Dean is going to go bury Seth among the fallen Heroes of the Vampires.

My heart was hurting so badly. Why did it hurt? Maybe because it was going to hurt Tony?

"Go before he s-sees you." I told Dean who nods, kissing my wet, messy face as he left to go find a good spot.

I fell to my knees in front of the doors. Even if we won.

I was defeated.

Because I hurt someone who trusted me with his secret. What if he didn't tell me? Would this all be different? I wish I could go back in time and save him.

I hated myself do much. So, so much that it made me sick.

Time felt like it was slowing. I was the monster, Seth was just a lost boy, cursed to kill me... Yet, I've killed him...

"Silvia? What's wrong? Answer me, please. Why won't you answer me?" A familiar voice zones into my hearing. Was someone talking to me this whole time?

I look up, my vision blurry to see —

"—Tony!" I nearly gasp out, almost like I was punched in the gut. Feeling my heart stop for a solid ten seconds along with me holding my breath, I just stare at him, dumb fuddled.

"Silvia- are you okay? Your side is bleeding? Where's Dean and the others?" He asked, stroking my cheek. Tony was so sweet. It hurt, knowing I would soon hurt him.

I gulped down what felt like a rock. "They're dead... Only me and Dean returned... We found my mother..." I mumble, some of it hard for him to understand, but he put it together.

"That's great! Where is she?" He asked, excited to see Kellie.

"King Xander, the Wolf King, had her imprisoned all these years, so I'm letting her get revenge, she'll be here soon..." I mumble, not meeting his gaze.

I'm being so awkward, I think he noticed.

"Silvia." Tony's voice was a deadly serious tone that I had to look at his worried face. "Y-Yes?" I ask, nervously.

"I went to go talk to Seth about what happened that night a—" whatever he said after that was frowned out by this loud buzzing —almost ringing —in my ears.

Should I tell him? What do I do?

I can't, this is going to hurt.

What if he already knows?

No way he knows.

"Silvia, Seth had broken out of the prison. Did he go after you guys?" Tony asked bluntly. I went to speak, but no words came out.

He stared into my blue eyes, seeming to search for an answer, but he found nothing.

"Silvia, did he follow you?" Tony asked again.

I had to rip the bandage off. " Yes, H-He d-d-did." I stutter badly, my fists balling up to try and contain my shaking.

Tony's face softened a bit. "Good. So." He looks around. "Where is he?" Tony gave me his heart warming smile.

Oh God, please, why are you so cruel?

I felt the fresh burning tears roll down my cheeks as Tony's face became more blurry. "Silvi—"

"I'm so sorry Tony!" I clung to his chest, sobbing like a crazy lady.

"I killed Seth! I k-killed him! I didn't know it was him! When I found o-out i-it was him— oh Tony —I hate myself so much right now. So so much that I'm sick to my stomach!" I confess.

No answer.

Not even a comfort from him.

No words.

He gently pushed me off and walked away.

Where to?

I can't remember.