*insert lyrics from video that I'm too lazy to type out*

[There should be a GIF or video here. Update the app now to see it.]

Btw I can actually sing/rap this song in English, took me a while to learn the timing but I got it down!

Ok so today's a double update! Yay! So practically this involves why I've been busy this week and the next chapter is something more dark... soooo this chapter is also a quick warning:

If you're triggered by suicidal topics or dislike it, you can skip the following chapter. No hate or negative comments, you're not forced to read about these topics, my works or anything of that sort.

Now let's get to the actual chapter, shall we? As you guys may have noticed, I haven't updated this past days. I was pretty busy...

So let's go on with my schedule-

*drum roll* Tuesday, I actually left school early because I had an appointment with my therapist at 2:30 and it's about an hour and a half from my school. The whole time I was just like "can we finish things a little early so that I'm not late?"

That didn't happen and we actually spent about 5-10 minutes over an hour. Also she found out about my eating disorders.... I was probably about to go crazy but then I remembered that it's different for everyone and blah blah blah.

She was all like "you do know that it's about control? That you could've stopped whenever you wanted."

It's not that simple, you need at least a person to help you out. Anyways then we had to run to the studio that's over a hour away from where I go for my appointments. Thankfully I was dressed and had my hair up in a bun.

I took of my sweatpants off, pinned my number then went to stretch. There's practically two groups: the ones in company (with the exception of Anna and Avery's sisters) and the ones that aren't. The company group is in a circle while the others are scattered on the other half of the room.

Then we got called into the big practice room and the audition process began. After the dancing part and the woman from Moscow Ballet (she's Ukrainian btw) (also the company is from Russia) assigned roles, we got papers and took pictures of who we're dancing with.

I got three roles which is amazing! I've always gotten 1 role sooo I'm extremely happy! My first one is party guest and I'm portraying the oldest girl cousin (she said all party guests were cousins with each other) so I'm the leader on the right side and Mya is the leader on the left and I believe she's a bit taller (and skinnier, and prettier...) and about 1-2 years younger than me. Second role is mice and yea, I actually wanted that role because it's a very fun one. Then the last role is Chinese, which is a variation. My best friend that's in dance and I got older Chinese and we're dancing together. Practically the stage is only us two, out tiny variations (they're about 7-9 but still tiny compared to us) and I believe the two professionals from Moscow Ballet.

I love my roles and they're really fun. Wednesday I had a class to learn the choreo for party guest, Thursday I had choreo classes for Mice and Chinese. Friday, I was at the studio from 4:45 to 7:50, I had three classes without breaks, party, mice, then Chinese.

Saturday morning I had dance, which was company class and yea. That's practically it.

Quick reminder for those that get triggered or don't like the topic of suicide:

You don't have to read the next chapter.

Bye Ah! Peeps!

-Mystery