Ashley's POV

When the wake was over, I couldnt stand it. I got  a cab and went back to the hotel at the last tour location. I went to get some air and clear my head on the roof.

"Fuck my life and everything in it." I staggered over to the edge of the roof top. "I need to be with you Scar." I leaned forward and then fell for what seemed like forever, bu then i landed and everything instantly went black, but all the pain had gone and it felt better.

their was something else that i definatley noticed, and i didnt like it. Scarlett wasnt with me. It was just black. Nothingness.

The end of everything...

Andy's POV

"Hey guys, you seen Ash?" I asked after we got back to the hotel.

"Nope, he said he was going to get some air on th-shit..." Jake said and ran out the door as quickly as he could.

"What is it?!" I asked, following him.

"Oh shit! Ash went up to the roof!" Jinxx called, also running.

All of us were running. BVB, OTL, A7X, Sammi, Juliet, Ella and Carla.

We got up to the roof and there was no sign of Ashley. We feared the worst so we peared over the edges of the building.

"ASHLEY!!!!" Bobby screamed.

We all ran over to see Ash lying on the sidewalk with blood pooring from his head.

"NO!!!!" I screamed and ran down the stairs all the way down to the ground floor of the hotel.

The others shortly followed after. I ran out of the hotel and took one look at Ashley's lifless body. Somone must have called 911 cuz we could hear sirens coming closer to where we were. When they DID get here, i just totally paniced.

"Who's going with him?" A paramedic asked us.

"Andy, you go." Bobby said. I nodded and got in the back of the ambulance.

"We need to get him wired up here! His pulse is way too weak!" A paramedic called and rushed around Ashley's almost lifeless body.

When we got to the hospital, the same one Scarlett was in, his pulse was nearly gone.

"You guys come here a lot don't you?" I looked up to see the nurse that had tryed to help Scarlett looking down a t me in the waiting area near Ash's ward.

"He couldnt take it." I cryed through the tears.

"Who couldnt take it Andy?" She asked.

"Ash. He jumped off the roof of the Plaza hotel." I whispered.

"Oh my god! And he's still alive?!" She asked.

"Just." I moped.

"Scarlett's funeral was today right?" The nurse asked. I nodded.

"You cant blame him for being upset i suppose." I said. "Loosing someone you love so suddenly."

"I know. I feel so guilty now, if i had done more then Ashley wouldnt be in this situation." The nurse told me.

"Dont blame this on yourself, you did what you could." I replied.

"Andy, im so sorry." She said, sitting beside me.

 "Its ok, like i say, dont blame yourself, this wasnt your fault." i repeated.

She just nodded and looked down at her feet, she said that she would stay with me until the others got here.

"Andy!" Jake shouted.

"Jake!" I replied with a weak smile.

"How is he?" He asked.

"Not good im afraid." The nurse butted in.

"Oh." Jake said, putting his head down.

"We never did get your name." Jinxx said to the nurse.

"Oh, i'm Cerys, Cerys Chard." She replied with a smile.

"OMG SHES CC TOO!" CC said, really exited.

"Oh yeah." I said suddenly, but not enthusiastically.

"Well, im honoured to have the same initials as such an amazing drummer like yourself CC." She said to him.

"You listen to our music?" CC asked.

"Yeah, right since your bands early days. I love you guys!" She replied.

"Thats awesome!" I said and smiled a little more enthusiastically.

 "So, anyway, is it ok if we see Ashley now?" Jinxx asked with his arm around Sammi's shoulder.

"I'm pretty sure it will be." Cerys replied. "Go on in."

"Thanks Cerys." I said as everyone walked into Ash's ward.

I took one look at Ashley. he was so pale, and a bandage was covering the stitches in the back of his head. He wasnt concious, but he moved slightly every now and then.

"Guys, can i talk to Ash for a sec?" I asked everyone.

"Sure, come on guys, give him some space." Sammi said and they left and closed the door behind them.

"Hey Ash." I said and sat on the edge of his bed. "I hope you can hear me right now because i need to tell you a few things. I know that i didnt tell you that me and Scar dated, but thats cuz it was ages ago, we thought it wouldnt matter. I know how much you still love her right now, i need to hear you laugh, i need to see you smile, i know Scarlett's gone, but it doesnt mean that you had to do this to yourself to see her again. I dont know what to do right now. I need you here with me and the guys. Its not just us that needs you to survive either, its the fans too. They dont need you in a hospital bed on life support, they need you on stage playing your heart out like you always do; they need you more than ever now. They want to help you move on. I know it. Please Ash, just wake up." My eyes welled up with tears that i couldnt control. I just let them out.

I looked out of the window of the ward to see One True Lies and Avenged Sevenfold with the rest of the band, Juliet, Ella and Sammi. Syn gave me an 'are you ok?' face and i just nodded and truned my head back to look at Ash again.

"Please Ash. I'm begging you. Wake up. Recover. We'll get through this together i promise." I pleaded. Nothing.

I got a bit lonely after a while so i beckoned the others in. They were all allowed in because there were no more tests that had to be done on Ashley until later on.

"Hows he doing?" Kacky asked.

"Not good." I moped.

"It's ok baby, hes gunna be fine." juliet told me and wrapped her arms round my neck.

"I hope your right." I replied and spun her round so that she was facing me. I rubbed her stomach, she was now two months pregnant, so she wasnt really showing, but she still had moring sickness, drowsiness and weak ankles, so the signs were there.

"This cant be happening. Jinxx tell me this is just one scary as fuck nightmare." I cryed.

"I wish it was dude." he replied.

"Me too." A little voice said.

We all looked up to see Ash, eyes slightly open, smiling weakly.

"Ash?" I asked. He nodded.

"I'll get the nurse." Sammi said and ran out of the room.

"Why the fuck would you do that to yourself man?! You jumped off a fucking building!" I sorta shouted.

I knew i shouldnt have, but i was exited and mad at the same ime and it was fucking up my head. I didnt know what to do or think.

"I'm here, oh my god, Ashley! Your awake?" cerys said jogging in behind Sammi.

"You still rememeber me?" Ash said weakly.

"How could i forget?" She smiled warmly.

"I suppose. I make people's lives." He said and chuckled quietly.

"yeah, and you certainly made an impact on my life." She said, still smiling.

"You've been taking care of me?" He asked.

"I've tried and, it seems to have worked. None of the other doctors and nurses thought you were going to make it, I wasnt totally sure myself. But i knew how strong and brave you were dealing with Scarlett's illness." She said as her smile dropped at the last bit.

Ashley's POV

Every inch of my body hurt like fuck. Physically and mentally, i just wanted Scarlett back.

"I didnt see her." I said, glumly.

"See who?" Andy asked me.

"Scar." I replied, quietly.

"What do you mean Ash?" Jake asked.

"Sometimes poeple do. This. To themselves to see a recently lost loved one. Sometimes they see them, sometimes they dont. Ash was one of the unlucky ones in a way i guess." Cerys said.

"You did this so you could see Scarlett again?" Synyster asked. I nodded. "Thats kinda sweet i guess. One last goodbye."

"Yeah. Would have been better if it had worked though." I glared into nothingness.

"Oh my god, Avenged Sevenfold?!" Cerys said suddenly, acting kind fan girl.

"Yeah, we are." M smiled.

"I cant believe you guys are here! You guys are amazing!" She said.

"Thanks, im in a rare modd. So... hug?" M said and smiled at her.

"YESSSSSS!" She squeeled and hugged him tightly. We all laughed.

"Rest of us get one?" Johnny asked, she smiled and nodded exitedly, then hugged each of them.

She giggled and blushed, then thanked them.

"Oh, lets be awkward and ask which one of themis your favourite!" CC said and we laughed.

"You dickweeds! Now im gunna have to answer it!" Cerys said and we all laughed again.

"It's ok, you dot have to i you dont wanna." I said weakly. I was in serious pain.

"Oh but i feel like i have to!" She whined.

"answer it then!" Alex said and laughed once.

"Oh fine." She paused for about 15 seconds, thinking about it. "Ima go with... Syn!"

"HELL THE FUCK YES!" Syn shouted and i winced. "Shit, sorry Ash."

"It's ok, my stupid fault." I replied.

"No it wasnt, you cant control your emotions anymore than anyone else can!" Cerys said.

"I have to agree with Cerys on this on both her points there. It's not you fault and Syn's guitar solos are fucking legend!" Jake said and everyone laughed. I just smiled because my head was killing me. Hardly surprising though...

"Nurse Chard, leave the visitors alone to see Mr. Purdy, they need their time." A doctor said, poking his head round the corner.

"Yes sir." She said. "I'm sorry guys, i gotta get the machines ready for some of the patients tests, including Ashley's."

"Ok, we'll talk later." Andy said.

"Sure thing." She smiled and left.

"Shes pretty awesome." Danny smiled.

"Yeah." Fynn agreed.

Just then, my stomach gurgled. It made me blush.

"You hungry Ash?" Alex asked and i nodded.

"I'll go see if you can have some food." Zacky said.

I'll come with." Johnny said and followed him out."

They came back about 10 minutes later.

"Fucking doctors and their stupid fucking rules and regulations." Johnny mumbled as they walked back in.

"The doctor said that you werent allowed any food until after the check ups and tests." Zacky said, following Johny inside.

"Oh." I said, simply.

"Here." Bobby said, handing me a small cookie.

"Where'd you get that from?"Alex asked.

"The waiting room. They have like, five bowls of them." She replied. 

 All of a sudden, everyone except for Bobby, Sammi, Ella, Juliet and Andy were gone.

"At least i got a kiss before Jinxx left." Sammi giggled.

"Mines to preoccupied on fod." Bobby laughed.

"I'm not hungry." Andy shrugged.

"What?! Andy Biersack?! Not hungry?! What is this fuckery?!" I smiled slightly.

"Are you feeling ok Andy?" Juliet chuckled.

"A lot has happened today, the funeral, the wake, Ashley's suicide attempt, its made me loose my  appitite." He replied.

"Fair enough." I said, getting upset from the recent memories.

"I'm sorry Ash, i shouldnt have brought it up." Andy said and put his hand on my shoulder.

"It's ok bro, we cant change anything, no matter how much we want to." I said, a tear fell from my eye and skipped along my cheek bone and onto the bed sheets.

"Need a hug?" Sammi asked me.

I nodded.

She came over top the bedside that Andy wasnt on and hugged me gently.

"you ok Ash?" Jinxx asked, walking in. Me and Sammi pulled away.

"Yeah, just recent memories." I said.

"Oh." He replied simply.

Just then, CC ran in with his arms filled with cookies, we took one look at him and laughed, even me, which fucking killed.

"Dude, how many?!" I asked.

"Pffft, i dunno." He replied.

He crouched down on the floor and emptied the contents of his arms onto the ground, then he dug around in all eight his pockets that were also filled to the brim with cookies.

"Jesus bro!" Andy almost shouted.

"Yeah, we got about two or three each, CC, fifty?" Jake chuckled walking in.

"Your such a fat shit CC!" I giggled.

CC stopped, looked up and pouted.

"Ouch." he moped.

"Dude, look at the floor in front of you!" My responce came.

He did as he was told and laughed.

"Yeah, ok, maybe a little." He blushed.

"A LITTLE?!" Zacky nearly yelled. "You took like, four bowls worth!!!"

"I was hungry!!!" CC shouted back playfully.

"Dude, whats with the past tence?" Danny asked as he walked in with the others.

"I dunno, i just chose to say it like that." CC shrugged.

Oooook then." Fynn said, trying to change the subject. "CC's stomach aside, how you feelin' Ash."

"As good as i can be after my girlfriend's funeral and a suicide attempt." I replied and laughed humourlessly.

A/N: Hey guys, just thought i'd say this... i feel relly awkward right now cuz Rebel Love Song just came on and... after 'these' events, id dont know whether to change it or not... you know what?! screw it, i love this song soooo much :D

"I guess." Fynn responded.

Next thing i know, i'm humming Die For You. Not the most appropriate song under the circumstances, but it made me happier.

"Are you sure your ok humming that song in particular Ash?" Jake asked me.

"Fine, i'll hum something else." I mumbled and switched to 'So Far Away' by A7X.

"Dude, your gunna make yourself upset again." Jinxx said once he realised what song it was.

"So i'm not allowed to keep myself occupied?!" I snapped.

"No Ash, its just... those songs." Alex butted in.

I started to hum Saviour instead.

"FOR FUCKS SAKE ASHLEY, GET A GRIP, SCARLETT IS DEAD! SHES NOT COMING BACK!" Bobby screamed and ran out.

Tears ran out of my eyes and everyone else just stood there in a stunned silnce.

"Way to fo Ash." Danny scowled and followed Bobby out of the ward.

"It's ok Ash, we're all upset, its just something we gotta move on from." Andy tried to calm me down. "I guess its just your way of getting over things."

"I think its time to tell you something." I started nervously.

"What is it?" Carla asked.

"Scarlett was two weeks pregnant when she died."

"What?!" Andy asked, totally shocked at the news.

"I was going to be a dad and some stupid fucking illness took it all away from me," I cried into Andy's shoulder.

Andy was always there for me, i loved him (Like a brother) for that.

"It's gunna be ok Ash." He told me.

"How is it?!" I shouted and pulled away from him.

"Why does everyone else get to happy, have girlfriends, an oncoming baby, and i'm stuck thinking suicidally because i lost all of that in ONE FUCKING DAY!" I shouted, screaming the last bit.

"Ash, please calm down. Theres nothing you can do about it now, its just life, im sorry for being so blunt but its true." Danny said, walking back in with Bobby behind him.

"I'm sorry for upsetting you Bobby." I said quietly.

"It's ok, your mourning, i get it. Its totally fine." She said smiling.

"Its time for your tests Ashley." Cerys said, walking in.

"Ok, we'll see you later Ash." Andy said and waved as he left the room, shortly followed by the others.

"You ready?" She asked me.

"As i'll ever be." I sighed.

"First we've got to take you for an MRI to se if your brain is anymore damaged than we first th-" She started.

"I have brain damage?!" I asked, sternly.

"It was to be expected Ashley, you jumped off a building." She stated.

"I know that, How did i survive that?" I asked.

"We dont know, i guess Scarlett's watchi9ng over you." She replied, offering me a warm smile.

I thought about it for a moment.

"Yeah, she must be." I smiled properly for the first time in about a month.

"Wow. I think thats the first time i've ever seen you actuallly smile." She said, eyes wide.

"I've had nothing to smile about recently." My smile faded, so did Cerys'.

"You ready?" She asked, changing the subject.

"As i'll ever be." I sighed. "Did we just say the same thing as just a momnet ago?" I asked.

"I guess we did." She smiled. "Come on in guys." She called and four doctors walked in a unhooked the wheel brakes on my bed and wheeled me to the MRI room.

"Ok, we're gunna lift you and put you on the machine table now, ok Ashley?" Cerys said.

I hesitated and then nodded. I'd never had an MRI before.

I closed my eyes as the dctors put me inside the machine.

A few lights turned on and they were really fucking intense!

"Ok, the scanner is gunna activate in 3,2,1" The doctor said and i braced myself.

I suppose it tickled a bit more than anything else.

But then i felt a light burning sensation where my head had hit the concrete.

It got too much and i screamed.

They turned off the machine and ran to me, then it all went black...