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Here's this fourth update from James's POV

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James's POV:

I sniffed a little at that lavender fragrance and my mind straight away recalled the person, Nicolla.

She's right here again. I began to walk in the compartment, following the smell. I got a hold of the pole on the middle and there's someone already grabbing my hand.

The same electric shocks appeared and I knew that it was her.

"James, it's me Nicolla. Here's plenty of seats to sit. " she explained as she assured me while caressing my hand a little. I got calm rapidly and she helped me to sit beside her.

"Oh, thank you again Nicolla. I...I was in daze as I walked here. So, how do you do? " I said lying of course, because how can I ever tell her that I got her smell so I followed. And, so I tried my best to change the topic though.

"I'm doing good and let me introduce you to Jordan. Jordan this is James, give him a hand shake. " she coed to someone and my system shook at the name, Jordan. Of course, it's a guy. So, she's not alone here but with a guy?

Who's this guy?

To avoid from getting caught of myself which is kind of hurt, I quickly put in my best smile and stretched my hand to this so called Jordan. Soon, I felt her connecting both of our hands and all I could feel is little fingers clasping in mine.

"It's a kid. " I smiled as I released this relief hush of breath while recognising the little boy.

"Yes, he is and his just three. " she explained to me and I nodded as my face bubbled in happiness.

What's happening to me? Then, suddenly I got this thought. What if she's married and this is her son?

Am I having this electricity of feelings for someone who's already taken, with a child?

"Is this...your son? " I questioned after a long due of silence and the question came more like a worried one.

Well, I'm really worried because you see, I had never got this feelings before on any woman I met. This is unique and different at the same time.

It's been 4 months since I gone blind sighted and I'm now embracing my new life here. It's hard at the first because being an employee from a CEO, is very difficult. Especially to someone who's unsighted, like myself. Luckily, I am this fast learner and so, I did learned Braille in just 3 months. I got this telemarketer job here and I'm living in this simple condo which is very different from my mansion.

When I was a fine sighted business tycoon, I got a lot of alliances or blind dates from various of women, yet, I didn't got this feeling when I touch them or even when we kissed.

It's already different in a good way with this woman and I hope I don't get her answer as something that is totally scary for me.

"Urmm...he isn't but...." she trailed as she gave this long pause of silence.

"He is...my son. " she muttered and my chest had already tighten around my collared shirt.

Why God? Then, why do I have to feel this way about a married woman?

Even though, I couldn't see her, I could feel her presence to be so warming and calming. She's sweet and kind at the same time when we bumped for the first and since yesterday, I have been very eager to meet her again.

She gave me this long silence again and I began to wonder about her catching me in this dooming form.

"Oh, I didn't know that your married. I'm..." I hesitated at first with an awkward smile but I don't want her to read more about me.

"I'm not married. " she quickly cut me shortly even before I could continue speaking.

"Oh, really. I don't really know that your a single mother. " I gave this satisfying smile as I chuckled while she giggles.

Huh, my heart is going rampage as I get to know this because I don't mind her being a single mother with a child. As long as she's single so that I explore my ongoing odd feeling for her.

That if, she really wanted to...with blind man.

"I need to start being used to, actually. " she replied and I got this confusion.

Being used to?

"What? You need to start to get used to? " I curiously questioned as my right hand tighten around my cane.

Okay, there's this pause again and now it worries me. Did I push her too far? Like, did she left me unnoticed?

"Nicolla, are you still there? " I called out for her as nervousness took over me and my hand flew on the air to touch her presence.

Did she...did she leave me already?

"I'm here. I'm here. " suddenly her assured voice came up to me as she quickly grabbed my hand. I got this chills running over my body and I'm on the need to have her closer. At least, by connecting our fingers together.

I could feel her chubby fingers intertwining with mine and I felt like the mass here.

This woman is going to kill me. And, I wonder how could she possess me without even me seeing her.

"Urmm...I'm sorry. " I could sense that coy in her voice and she slowly untangle our fingers. I wanted to deny but this is no good. Not on the second day of us meeting.

"No need to sorry. I...was startled when I thought that you left me without saying anything, maybe because of what I'm asking you about. " I explained with a satisfying smile, knowing that she's there near me.

"Oh, no. That's rude. I would never do that. Plus, I was....just thinking about some stuff while your were asking. " she simply added in.

"Alright, I will take that. But, can I know about why do you said like that just now? You know, the 'I need to start being used to' ? " I softly uttered with a hint of humour, curiosity got the best on me and she giggled again. Her sweet voice overwhelming me.

I gave in my full attention to her words while she explains the meaning about it as I slightly lean in to her, exhaling her fragrance again.

After hearing to her, I felt so proud and excited to meet such a woman. She have the heart of gold and who do simply want to be a mother. Everyone can't be the same as her.

Instantly, I got the flashback of my own mother. No, I shouldn't zone out now.

"You have a very good heart, Nicolla. This little guy deserves love and your the right one. I'm proud of you to have such a thought. " I encouraged and complimented with my sweetest smile but later, all I heard was faint sobs.

My chest scrunched in such sound and I knew that it's from her.

Do...I say anything wrong?

My hand slowly clasped hers as I took my hand to her face, her skin felt so soft under mine and my thumbs were wet with tears.

Oh, God. What have I done?

"Please, don't cry. I-I just....said about what I wanted to say. I...I don't know that it will effect you this way. " I sadly explained as I continue wiping away the tears that I hate now.

"No, it's not that. Having compliments isn't usual for me. I'm...I'm just..." she was struggling to explain but I stopped her with soothing words to calm her down.

She soon away assured me that it was fine and I hesitantly let her go.

She took this pause again and I knew that she is fixing up with herself.

"Nicolla, are you okay now? " I asked, worried about why is it taking her so long to reply but then I heard this soft, yes.

There's this jerk on the compartment and I heard the intercom, mentioning my station's name.

"I...I think this is my...stop then. " I said as I slowly stood up while the train halted in the station. I got really nervous as I heard the door was about to open and I got prepared with the cane. I walks over to the door with heavy heart because I don't want to leave her presence.

Fortunately, I got this lightning like idea and I quickly stroll back to her.

"Nicolla, can I get your number? You know, I...I needed a friend like you. " I nervously asked because I don't used to ask something like this to a woman and I heard her giggling again. I wanted to see that giggling beautiful face and now, I'm very sad about being blind.

"Of course, you can. And...I don't mind being your friend, James. Give me your phone so that I could key in my number. " she asked politely and I gave it right away.

"I had already saved it under my name. You can call me anytime if you needed to talk. " she said as she lend me my phone number.

With a final signature smile of mine, I left the train. My feature mirrored happiness as I walk out of the compartment.

Okay, simply said....I want this woman. I want her, not like 'I want her' kind of want her. It's just the strangest yet the unique kind of want her.

Being blind for 4 months really gave me a lot of pressures and challenges but who knows, that it will also helps me to find the perfect woman for me. Yet, let me tell you this...I don't mind about how she looks like because my body or heart won't react like that if it's nothing special. She make me felt the oddest feeling and I'm very sure that she might be the goddess that created for me.

2 months, just 2 months more and I would get to see my beautiful woman. Until that, I better got close to her.

James, isn't forever blind....hehe