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Nicolla's POV:

"Just let me stay like this for a moment. "James whined as I have been struggling for more than 10 minutes to get out of his tight grip.

Jordy had already doze off in his arms and at least, he need to set me loose to lay the little guy on the bed.

"James, Jordy's asleep....I need to put him on bed. " I tried my best and at last, he got convinced.

He loosen his grip from around us and I took the chance to take Jordy to bed.

I gently lay the baby on the middle of the bed and after kissing his cheek, I came back to the living room.

His head leaned on my side as he got my smell, like he said, which is still clueless about how does it will work when I smell like nothing but sweat.

I made my way back to him and he instantly pulled me on his lap when he found me sitting next to him.

He's being super clingy since he came back home, I thought and I mentally smiled at the fact of him really missing us so much.

"I missed you. So much. " James mumbled as he nuzzle his nose on the crook my neck and my body doing rampage already.

"J-James....I..." I tried my best to form some words but everything caught me off guard when he kissed near my lips and things seems to led us to do more.

Surprised, we both were so surprised and nearly.jumped out of the couch together when his phone rang loudly.

We panted for air and after some moments of relaxing, I fetched his handphone to him as I get down from his lap and he recalled the person while giving me an expression of disappointment to get away from his lap.

He was talking something to this someone, but all myself could do is to blush at the possibilities that might happen if we continued.

Being honest, I completely lost myself in him, despite the baby sleeping in my bed right now.

Oh my God, what if we were doing something and suddenly Jordy walks in? That would be the last day of me, rotting in embarrassment.

I was traced back down to reality when I felt a gentle squeeze on my thigh and a smiley James wiggled at me.

He glowed in bright happiness after the call and I wonder what was that about.

Without a warning, he took hold of both my arms, spreading them apart as each of his clasping mine. Widening my arms gently as he leans his huge frame into me. He slowly let go of my arms and slides into my chest as he embraced me tightly. He exhales near my neck, which tickled me a little and he planted a soft kiss on the crook of my neck, sending shivers down my spine.

"So, what's all the cozying about, Mr Daniz? " I questioned as I giggled at the ticklish feelings on my neck.

He never says anything but pulled away, his hands reaching to cup my cheeks.

"Baby, I will soon get to see you. " He whispered as excitement flashed his face and my smile dropped as the same insecurities rushed in me.

Would he ever like me? What if I don't look that good as much as he expected?

"Nicolla, please don't zone out already. " James chuckled as he leaned in to peck the corner of my lips.

"Okay....I mean, I'm very happy for you. You are finally going to see and did they rearrange the surgery to the early date as you request? " I asked, showing a big grin myself as I hugged him.

"Yes, they just called me and informed about the rearrangement. Oh, I'm so excited to see you two. " James nearly yelled in joy as he snuggled me into him.

I'm happy as long as he's happy.

*******
Here's the day, James getting his surgery day and I took a day leave, along for Jordy, to accompany our man.

Our man, it forms when Jordy caught me writing 'my man' with James name on my handphone anda when I asked him to pass me the handphone, the little baby asked me the meaning behind it.

I explained him briefly that it's a way to address people and Jordy started to yell out at James as 'our man', whenever he visits.

I would laugh, watching my boy learning cute things around us but, still I never get to insist him to call or address James as the father. I know that sometimes, James really would felt uncomfortable if the baby calls him 'uncle' as like usual, because his face would scrunch in worry and he even used to ask me about it.

All I could tell him, is that the little baby needs time to comprehend the things around. Especially, to all the sudden things that happened in his life.

A cute little snore echoed from my embrace and Jordy had me cuddle him to sleep as we sat here on the couch in the waiting area. We have been around here for almost half of the day and James had already walked into the surgery.

I stroke my baby's hair as I kissed the top of his head while grinning like an idiot.

Moments of 6 hours ago flashing in my mind.

He held us, as tight as possible. Kissing both of us in our head before saying, "I love you two so much. Tomorrow morning, my first image should be you two. I can't wait to note in ever details about you guys. "

James cupped my chin with one of his hand and raise my lips to his, giving me a sweet gentle kiss. He continued away kissing both the cheeks of the little baby on his arm before giving him to me.

Me and Jordy, standing hand in hand while watching our man, walking in the door to start the surgery.

Everything seems to be fresh in my mind and I'm all here for him to cherish with.

I'm in love with a man who loves me for how I'm, without even bothering about how do I look and that's a God's blessing, isn't it?

"Well, if your not that BBW I acknowledge about, who would you be right. "A blonde woman, who's in her middle 20 approached me, walking while swaying her hips as if she's doing that ramp walk now. She gave me a smirk and I looked at her confused.

I clutched onto Jordy a little tighter and the baby snuggled into my side.

Who's this woman?

"Urmm....do I know you? " I asked feeling rather surprise as I looked up at her, nervous jutting in me as she continue eyeing me with a hint of disgust.

Oh my God, is she.....Silvanna?

"Oh, don't tell me that James had never talked about me to you. Come on, he must have right? I'm the fiance, after all. " she screeched in her sultry tone as she gave me a pride smile.

Yes, she's Silvanna and James told me that he's not in touch with her any longer. She cheated and hurt him pretty badly, so she doesn't deserve to be his fiance.

My face turns into anger from frown as she clicked her tongue once again as she spatted at me in disgust, "He's definitely going to regret when he opens his eye tomorrow morning. He will come back to me eventually. "

That's it, I need to show some action. I slowly slipped out of Jordy's snuggly body and made him lay softly on the couch while placing his favourite blue pillow to support his head. His snoring softly and I pecked his temple, before standing up to face this lady.

She rose one of her eyebrow and I looked at her with flaring anger.

"You, woman....doesn't have anything to do with us. He loves me for how I'm inside, rather than the outside, so, you don't have to clarify me things about he wants and not. Between....don't ever go around and tell everyone that your the fiance, because you should put in your mind about what you do to him. "I raged with courage as I pointed her with no regrets and for that, her eyes remain wide yet awake.

Her feature becoming smaller and smaller from my words, yet, I could laugh and shout out at her that to leave us alone.

"Silvanna, you might be engaged to him and I know that you won't longer be his fiance if he came back tomorrow, so, please....don't embarrass yourself more. I beg you to leave now. " I noted but soon, a stern voice jerked in. Taking both of us in surprise.

"Who are you to ask her to leave? She's his fiance, no matter what she did but you....you black fat whore is the one who shouldn't be here for him. " The cold eyed woman shouted at me as she glared me to death, she continues while watching Jordy through my shoulder, "He deserves something better and especially, he doesn't deserve someone who carries a bastard child, which isn't James at all. "

"Who are you and don't you dare call my baby a bastar- "

"I'm Mrs Daniz, that nothing for stepson's legal guardian. You don't think that you shut me off like you did to her, don't you? Well, listen this....leave him right away and I will spare both of your lives. " she snarled as pointed me and next at my little sleeping boy.

"You wouldn't dare. " I yelled in complete anger and she just stared me, looking to her right at Silvanna as she smirked. The latter stood like a dumb there, listening to us as if she's confused of all the scenes now.

The woman let out a hush of snort as she opened up the biggest truth that put both me and Silvanna in utter shock.

"You think I can't do that? For your information, the accident that happened to James months ago was a complete sketch from me on him to die right there, but unfortunately, the brat was saved and lost his eye sights instead. If I had dare....doing that, why can't I put the same dare on both of you? " she taunted as she pointed at us.

I became weak again and my eyes widen in shock. So, the accident was all planned for him to die? Oh my God, what could have happen if he didn't survive.

"You don't want put both of your lives in danger for that sick brat, don't you? " she continued, coming slowly closer to me.

I couldn't think, all I know is that I should keep away the baby from this evil. What if she really hurt the baby to get back at me? I would die the next second.

But, how can I trust her? What if she's just making up a story to shoo me away?

"What do you want now? " I asked and she still smirked, looking at me with a tiny bit of surprise.

"Ran away from him. Dissappear as far as you can. You know that he clearly doesn't deserve you and he will be marrying her straight away after tomorrow. Your enough of being a burden here for him. " she spatted with venom.

"If your still going to be adamant, then blame yourself only. I will never let you or that bastard of yours to survive, just like how I made it to him. " she continued and my eyes had already watered up with tears.

My baby could never get hurt by anyone. If our disappearance wouldn't bring anything to harm my baby then, I'm going to do it

I love James with all I have, so, I will put on a fate for us to meet up any time later. If we are meant to be, no matter wherever I'm, he will get back at me.

For now, I need to protect my baby along with myself from this evil like woman.

"Fine, I will leave. I will disappear, but promise me that you would never hurt James like you did before." I finished, my chin raising a little, showing the little amount of determination in me.

My heart stopped. My mind refuses to believe my decision but , I can say that she meant every word she spoke. The way her venomous eyes glared through me and my baby, had put me a lot of possibilities of hee hurting us.

I can't risk my child for my own sake. I met James, I brought him in our life so, I need to make this happen for both of our sakes.

I'm giving a huge hope in the thought of him finding us back and I knew he will be sad by tomorrow, knowing that we are not the first one for him to see.

I can't even imagine the view of him suffering when he get to know about me and Jordy's disappearance.

He wouldn't know of how we look also, so how could he find us? My heart questioned, paining me every second after the thought of leaving him.

"I won't hurt him. It's enough for me to see him surfer, losing his loved ones.....he just doesn't deserve happiness and how could I want him to be happy after she snatched mine? That's not fair. " she uttered with her eyes rolling dramatically.

I swear when he wakes up from the darkness, you wouldn't be in light anymore, Mrs Daniz. I never say anything, but thought to myself.

My James won't let her to put him down any longer. I knew that he grew stronger.

Wiping away the shedding tears, I walked back to the couch while picking up the sleeping baby in my arms and my bag. I walked past them vigorously, my tears threatening to fall every seconds when I took each steps away from him.

I knew for sure that he might be in the ongoing surgery and there's no way for me to see him now.

I stepped out of the hospital, stopping to glance once over the big building while whispering to myself, "I love you, James. And, I'm very sorry. Please come for us, we will be waiting for you. "

I'm too weak to even think about the consequences of hurting my baby so I had to do this.

I spun around back and walked away, giving my heart and love to the man inside there.