Chapter 20

The Bliss

Ilang araw na rin mula noong sinampal ko 'yong kabit ni Rondel sa tapat mismo ng unit ko. Hindi pa rin mawala-wala ang inis ko sa pagsulpot nito bigla roon pero nahimasmasan na ito dahil nandiyan naman si Q para kausapin ako.

Napansin kong iba ang pakikitungo nito sa akin. He's not that cold anymore. Sure he still has some snide remarks but he has become sweeter. Or maybe it's just his way of making me feel comfortable to have sex with him?

Wala naman akong problema roon. Hindi rin naman ito clingy o laging naghahanap ng atensyon kaya wala naman siguro itong gusto sa akin. Maybe he's just really being a good guy who wants to get inside my skirt? Hahahaha. Yeah, right.

"When do you plan to go back to the house?"

Ilang beses na nito akong tinanong sa linyang 'yan kaya nasanay na akong taasan ito ng kilay at sasabihan ng "Who knows?"

Kaagad na nagkasalubong ang kanyang kilay. Hindi muna ito nagsalita at tinutok ang tingin sa TV. He's just using his ears, of course so he didn't have to face that way but he's still acting normal, as if he's not blind at all. That's one thing I like about him. He just acts as if it's the simplest thing in the world-a blind guy watching a movie.

Hindi ko nga alam anong pumasok sa isipan nito at biglaang nagtanong kung anong sikat na series ngayon. Kaya ayan at binigyan ko ng English dubbed anime series para isalang. It's Horimiya, a romantic story of two highschoolers who wanted to know more about each other. They found out they're very different outside the classroom and they explored that side of them together. Nagsimula na rin roon ang character development ni Miyamura Izumi, ang main character na lalaking hindi kasama sa mga usual groups sa room. He opened up to new people who became his good friends. May iba ring love story tungkol sa mga kaibigan nilang dalawa ng main lead na si Kyoko.

I mean we are old but it's not against the law to watch some stuff like this. Nagustuhan ko ang storya simula noong ibida ito sa akin ni Avicii. Hindi ko nga alam paanong nahilig sa high school romantic story and tamad na lalaking 'yon.

"Who's your favorite character?" tanong ni Q at lumingon sa akin. Nasipat ko ang suot nitong simpleng white sweatshirt at white jogging pants na bumagay sa kanyang balat.

He looked like a casually dressed angel.

"Shindou."

"The loud friend?" tanong nito at tila napaisip pa saglit. "Ah. Yeah. You like guys who aren't soft-spoken." Ngumisi ito nang pagkalaki-laki kaya napanguso na lang ako.

This is also another thing about Quentin. When he grins like that, I already know he's teasing me about something naughty or funny. Now, he's still making fun of my fetish of being cussed on bed. I mean, isn't that normal?

Hindi rin naman niya malalaman na fetish ko 'yon kung hindi niya ako inunang murahin. What a hypocrite, right?

Nabalik ako sa riyalidad nang bumalik na si Q sa panonood. Kumunot pa ang noo nito habang nakikinig, na para bang ang hirap intindihin. I bet it's hard watching a dubbed series like that. He has to listen and imagine what the characters might be doing based from their voice, tone, and the background music.

"I like him because he's an idiot but he's still a good friend." Napalingon naman muli si Q sa akin at natawa sa sinabi ko.

"You like idiots?" He combed his hair with his fingers and leaned on the couch lazily. I saw his well-defined collarbone again and gulped. "I thought you'd prefer Miyamura since he had piercings, tattoos, and he beats the hell out of someone when he's mad or embarrassed?"

Napatitig ako sa mukha nitong konti na lang ay ipipinta ko na sa mismong kwarto ko. Nakakaloko 'yang ganda niya.

"I don't like pretty guys," labas sa ilong kong sabi at naupo sa kabilang dulo ng couch. Baka kung ano na naman ang magawa ko kapag maamoy ko siya. He smelled of vanilla everyday so I had to stop myself from sniffing him every second. I could only do it when I'm sleepy or when we just had sex. Nakakabaliw ang amoy nito. Parang mas mabango pa yata ito sa mga babae.

"Getting fucked by a pretty guy is different then?" tanong nito kaya napaismid na lang ako.

Another thing about Quentin is that he's becoming more and more confident. He has become so blunt with his words that I'd even consider him talking dirty as our normal conversation.

Sometimes, I could see myself in him each day. Nakakainis isipin na nakakainis din pala ang personality ko kapag nakikita ko na ito sa iba. I mean, am I really that overconfident? Well, I can't really be irritated that much since Q's just telling the truth.

But what the heck have I done to Q?

"Sa dilim naman tayo nag-se-sex kaya ayos lang," paliwanag ko rito. Nang lingunin ko ito ay nandoon na naman ang nakakaloko nitong ngisi. Hindi ko alam bakit hindi ito nagmumukhang manyak kahit iba na ang pakiramdam ko sa ngisi niya. I guess he's too pretty to be a maniac.

"Why do you like getting fucked in the dark?"

And there's the million dollar question! Psh.

Curious na curious ba talaga ito sa mga gusto ko sa sex? Siguro ay gusto talaga nito akong i-satisfy? I'm satisfied enough already.

I glanced at his slender fingers and imagined sucking and lapping them like an obedient bitch. My eyes then got glued to how his tongue wet his lower lip.

I averted my eyes to suppress this "urges".

Sabihin na nating gusto kong makipag-sex sa kanya pero napaisip naman ako nitong mga nakaraang araw, bakit ako ang mag-aaya? Heh. Masabihan pa ako nitong hayok sa laman. Well, it's true but just let me experience getting asked for sex.

I mean, he's the one who told me he wanted to have sex with me but he didn't make any moves! Ako na naman ba ang mag-i-initiate?!

No way.

Natigilan ako sa pag-iisip nang makitang parang naghihintay pa ito sa akin.

Oh yeah, right. He asked me why I like to get fucked in the dark.

"I used to be blind so I'm sensitive to sounds, too." He looked taken aback with his raised brows and gaping mouth. "So I'd like to focus on hearing your moans, grunts, and the sounds our bodies make."

"Am I..." he paused. Mukha pa itong nagdadalawang-isip sa sasabihin. "Am I also gonna stick with this fetish once I'm not blind anymore."

Wow. I can't believe he's mentioning this. I think he's really considering having an eye operation. Ayaw lang talaga nitong aminin. Hindi ko na rin ito tatanungin ulit tungkol diyan kaya inuna ko ang pinag-uusapan namin.

"Maybe. You're gonna be hypersensitive when one of your senses isn't working so the feel of someone's pussy will be overwhelming." Ako ang natuyuan ng laway sa sinasabi kaya tumawa na lang ako. "Don't worry too much, Quentin. May mga babae namang mahilig din sa lights off."

I saw him scratch his neck then frowned.

"Like you?"

"Yep." Itinaas ko ang paa sa couch at niyakap ang mga binti ko. "So, who's your favorite character?"

"You," he murmured so I gasped in mixed surprise and amusement. "I-I mean my favorite character is Miyamura."

"Haha!" nasisiyahan kong bulalas at mabilis pa sa alas-kwatrong lumapit sa kanya. Sinundot-sundot ko ito sa braso habang tumatawa. "Crush mo si Miyamura?! Pfft—hahahahahahahaha! Seriously, dude. My gosh. Akala ko si Kyoko ang sasabihin mo o kaya ay si Sakura! Hahahahaa!"

He puffed his cheeks and gave me a glare, if that's even a glare when he just looks like a cute cherubim having tantrums.

"You asked who my favorite character is, not who I like!"

"Magkapareho lang iyon!" bulalas ko at napahalakhak nang malakas. Napalabi ito, tila hindi makapaniwala na tinutukso ko siya  tungkol doon. "Ikaw ha, mahilig ka pala sa pretty boys~ Yiee!" I poked his side and giggled. "Narcissistic ka pala? Hahahahaha!"

"Shut up," he mumbled while trying to evade my ticklish poke. He bit his lips but when I finally wiggled my fingers near his armpit, he burst out laughing. "Hahahaha! Ah~ Huwag mo akong kilitiin~"

Mabilis nitong natakpan ang bibig dahil doon. Ako rin ay natigilan habang nanlaki ang mga mata kong nakatitig sa kanya.

Did he really just moan cutely?! What's up with that girlish voice?

Nanindig lahat ng balahibo ko sa narinig at nakaramdam ng init sa loob ko.

Peste. Natibo na yata ako dahil sa mahinang daing na 'yon.

"Fuck," mura ko nang mariyalisang basa na ako sa baba. "You're fucking cute," sabi ko at pinaglandas ang kamay ko sa pisngi niya. Namumula na ang kanyang leeg pati ang buo niyang mukha sa kahihiyan pero naturn-on na ako sa boses nito kanina. "Baby, can you moan like that again?" mahina kong usal habang napapahingal na ako sa antisipasyon. "Sige na, baby, please~"

Nakagat nito ang labi kaya mabilis kong sinundot ang kanyang tagiliran at muli siyang kiniliti. Nanlaki ang nga mata nito pero agad ding napatawa ulit.

"Ahahahahaha!" he laughed uncontrollably then my fingers went back near his armpit again. "Hahaha ah~ N-No~" Napapikit ito habang napapadaing at kita sa kanyang mukha na hirap na hirap na itong maisaboses ulit ang nararamdaman. "I-I just like Miyamura b-because he's c-cool!"

Ano raw?

"What—"

"There I said it!" nakanguso nitong sabi, pulang-pula pa rin bago hinawakan ang mga kamay ko para ipirmi. "I-I'm not gay, okay? M-May kiliti lang talaga ako."

I didn't even tell him to explain and now he's speaking as if that's what I needed. Although, perhaps, that's what I needed to hear to shake away this feeling.

Parang nahihipnotismo pa rin ako sa paghalinghing ni Q kanina.

And I'm getting wetter seeing this side of him.

Peste. Baka magahasa ko talaga ito rito. What the heck am I even talking about?! I'm a woman for Pete's sake!

Nagkasalubong ang kilay ko at tinabig ang kamay ni Q.

This is all this guy's fault!

"Mas cute ako sa'yo!" I told him and guided his hands to my side. "I can giggle like that too!" Walang pasabi nitong simulan akong kilitiin kaya bumunghalit ako ng tawa na parang baliw. "Fuck! Hahahahaha! Stop it! Stop it!" Pero bago ko pa siya mapigilan, bumaba ang kanyang kamay at napunta sa bewang ko, pababa hanggang sa hita kong hubad. "W-What are you—"

"Just wearing a shirt and your panty again." Napalunok ako nang dinaganan ako nito kaya napahiga na ako sa couch habang tinaas naman nito ang paa ko bago hinila ako papunta sa kanya. My ass hit his raging hard-on and I gasped in astonishment. Wait, what just happened?! "I want to try dry humping."

Bago pa ako makaprotesta ay kiniskis na nito ang alaga sa naglalawa ko nang pagkababae.

"Hmnn ahh Quentin~"

Buzz. Buzz.

Buzz. Buzz.

Natigilan kami pareho nang marinig iyon. Parang gusto ko na ngang saksakin kung sinumang walanghiyang naging dahilan para maudlot ang ginagawa namin ni Q.

Istorbo. Tsk.

Nakita ko rin si Q na namumula habang magkasalubong ang mga kilay.

"I'll be in the bathroom." At nagmamadali na itong umalis sa couch para magsarili.

Kahit gusto ko itong sundan, kailangan ko pang i-umpog sa pader kung sinumang istorbo 'yan.

Padabog kung binuksan ang pinto at naestatwa sa kinatatayuan. Para kasing nakikita ko ang batang bersyon ni Q na bagot na bagot na nakatingin sa akin. Nakaponytail ang blonde na buhok nitong tantya ko'y hanggang balikat. Medyo natatabunan naman ng round-rimmed glasses ang dark brown nitong mga mata. Matulis ang ilong nito habang nakakurba pababa ang manipis na mga labi.

Sinampal ko ang sarili bago ko pa pagnasaan ang binatang nakasuot ng college uniform na white long sleeves at black slacks na pinatungan ng black blazer. May grey na necktie namang nakatali sa kuwelyo nitong tuwid na tuwid.

"Good afternoon. Is my Kuya here?"Nagitla ako sa boses nitong lalaking-lalaki at may pagkapormal pa ang tono. "Kuya Lan says I can find him here."

Napakurap-kurap ako at napangiwi sa nalaman. So Lan just told someone about my condo's address without even telling me?! Walanghiya talaga ang gagong 'yon!

I gave my sweetest smile and I saw the boy blink with furrowed brows. Hindi ko mapigilang isipin na ganitong-ganito siguro ang expression sa mukha ni Q noong nasa college pa ito.

"Good afternoon. Are you looking for Quentin?"

He nodded and said, "Yes. Can I talk to him?"

Oh shit. Pa'no na 'to? Nasa bathroom pa si Q!

"Oh, you can, kid. May ginagawa pa kasi siya sa banyo."

Tumalas ang tingin nito sa akin at pinagkrus pa nito ang mga braso. He raised his chin so I just noticed he's taller than me by a few inches.

"I'm not a kid. I'm 20."

Ah?

Tumango-tango na lang ako at giniya siya papasok.

"Sure you are." Tila hindi nito nagustuhan ang sinabi ko sa pagkakasalubong ng kanyang kilay kaya binigyan ko ito ng praktisadong ngiti. "Come in."

Walang pasabi naman itong pumasok kaya pinigilan ko ang sarili na mabulyawan ito. Sinarado ko na ang pinto at nagtitimping naabutan itong nanonood ng Horimiya habang prenteng nakaupo.

Bilib naman ako sa apog nito. At home na at home ang loko.

"You were watching this with Kuya?" tanong nito, seryosong-seryoso. "Are you kids?"

Lumapit ako rito bago nameywang at tinaasan ito ng kilay. Walang galang 'tong walanghiyang 'to ah.

"Wala namang sinabing para lang sa inyo 'yan."

His thin lips were in a grim line before he spat, "I'm. Not. A. Kid."

"Sure," nang-iinis kong sabi rito at ngumisi. "So kid, what are you doing here?"

He pursed his lips with the term "kid" but decided to not repeat our banter.

"It's none of your business," sabi nito at tumitig nang maigi sa suot kong oversized shirt bago napakamot sa leeg. He adjusted his glasses and coughed as he averted his eyes towards the television. "Are you my brother's new girlfriend?"

"It's none of your business," panggagaya ko sa tono niya kaya tumalas na naman ang tingin nito sa akin. "What? Kids won't understand."

Napatayo ito, tila nanghahamon ng away sa pagkakasimangot nito.

"What the fuck did you say?!"

"I said your a pompous disrespectful little kid!" Naglakad ito papalapit sa akin at halos lamunin na ako nito sa galit na nasa kanyang mga mata. "What? What? Susuntukin mo ako?!"

"I don't hit girls," he murmured, more to himself than to me.

"I'm not a girl. I'm a woman," pang-aasar ko rito pero ngumisi lang ito at pinasadahan ako ng nagmamatang tingin.

"You're not a woman. You're a slut."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad na nasampal ito.

"How dare you?!" galit kong sigaw rito. "How dare you get inside my house and disrespect me you crazy shit?!"

Nagkibit-balikat ang lalaki at nang-uuyam na tumawa.

"Well, you invited me inside."  Then, he paused. "Wait, did you lie about my brother being here so that you can act like my slut?"

Nag-landing ang kamao ko sa tiyan nito kaya nanlaki ang mga mata nito nang tumilapon siya palayo. Natamaan niya ang cabinet at natabig ang iilang mga vase. Nabasag ang mga iyon sa sahig habang gumewang ang lalaki at napaupo. Nakanganga ito habang hindi makapaniwalang nakatitig sa akin.

"What's going on here?" Sumulpot si Quentin na nakakunot ang noo. "I heard something break."

"Q huhuhu!" maarte kong ngawa at agad na lumambitin sa leeg niya. "Your brother called me a slut! You're the only one who can call me your slut, babyyy~"

"Wait, my brother?" I gave him a glare as he dismissed my "paawa" acting and prioritized my mention of his brother. Tsk. "Noren's here?"

"K-Kuya!" agad na sigaw ng walanghiyang mokong na klarong dumadaing pa sa sakit ng pagkakasapak ko rito. "That slut fucking punched me!"

"Language Noren." The moron named Noren gave me a glare, as if he's blaming me why Quentin didn't even ask how painful the punch must be. I stuck my tongue out and pushed my self on Q's body. Quentin held my waist with both his hands but he looked towards where Noren was. "What are you doing here, by the way?"

Hmpf. Iritable kong tinulak si Q palayo at padabog na naupo sa couch. His brother just called me a slut and he's still as calm as ever?! The nerve.

Pero bakit niya nga naman kailangan akong depensahan? I am just his casual sexmate, after all.

"Well, I have an assignment about people with disabilities in my family so I have to observe your life for three days." Kakamot-kamot pa ang walanghiya at napalapit na kay Q.

Napansin kong may pagkakahawig nga sila pero mas pogi pa rin at mas maganda si Quentin.

"Three days?!" I bellowed in irritation. "Bakit ang tagal naman yata?!"

"Huwag ka ngang, makialam. Wala ka na roon," Noren said and smirked. "Hindi ikaw ang kausap ko."

"This is my house!"

"So?" balewala nitong sabi at bumaling kay Q. "I can observe your life for a few days, right Kuya?"

Q thought for a while as the kid and I waited in anticipation.

Say no. Say no. Say no.

"Yeah, I guess but I have to stay in Wynfrost's unit," ani Q at lumingon sa direksyon ko. "We can stay, right?"

What?!

"Wait, what?!" gulat na sabi ni Noren. "No, no! I'm not gonna sleep in HER unit!" Umismid ako sa bwisit na batang 'to. "Don't be stupid, Kuya!"

"Kung ayaw mo, edi wag! Binibigyan ka na nga ng time ni Quentin, magrereklamo ka pa?" Natigilan ang walanghiya dahil sa sinabi ko na para bang may nariyalisa. "You're a grownass man invading your brother's privacy, shithead. He can say no, but because you're his brother, he won't. So respect him even though you can't respect me." Pagkatapos ay tinalikuran ko na ang mga ito at dumiretso sa kusina. "I'm gonna cook dinner."