Through the darkness of the night,

In the dimming moonlight...

I am staring at you,

Sleeping beside me...

You look so calm and quiet,

I know you always fake your smile,

But I know you've been in pain,

The pain of losing all your loved ones,

The pain of seeing your world crumbling before you,

The pain of denying your own dreams,

And the pain of my divorcing with you...

I know you love me so much,

But still, you said a 'yes' to my decision,

Never saying anything more...

But why?

How can a man love his wife so much?

Without any expectations from her?

I still wonder...

I don't want to leave you either,

'Cause yes, I've fallen in love with you too...

But I have to do this,

I know you can't afford me...

After my miscarriages,

Our marriage got worse...

I was sure, it's not gonna work out...

But you never left me alone,

Though you knew, I hated you,

You still did everything to keep me happy,

But I never spoke a kind word to you...

I'm so sorry that I hated you,

I thought you were imperfect for me...

I disgraced you many times...

I threw harsh words at you...

Yes, I've heard you shedding tears, that night,

When I said I wanted to divorce...

When I said I can't live like this anymore...

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You lost your parents, your friends,

And now, you're going to lose me too...

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I know you've starved many nights,

Just for arranging my favorite dinner...

You always wear the same shirt, for months,

Just to buy me a dress during occasions...

You never forgot to gift me on my birthday,

But I didn't even care to ask the date of yours...

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It feels so strange, that,

We've been living in the same house,

For the last 4 years,

But still, we're so different...

I felt my tears, pouring out of my eyes,

Drenching my pillow beneath...

Tonight was our final night together,

And tomorrow will be a new day,

For both of us...

We'll never see each other again...

And that thought kinda pains me now...

All memories came rushing, into my head,

And I recollected them, in my heart,

To cherish them for the rest of my life...

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But all the time, we had been together,

I never realized, but now I do, that...

'We were imperfectly perfect, together!'

-Ankita