To be fair I had a gokd day today. I learned how to drive a bit more. I panic because of the thingy (cant figure thr name of it).

I had these soft cookies. I like them it doesnt help me when I'm trying to lose weight. But they are small so give me a break.

But beside that... It went all fine. A couple hours ago I got news that my dad friend who i grew up with has pass away this morning. A heart attack. I want to be alone but if I do. Ill fall. Deep.

I was happy.

Everything has fine.

I was okay.

Why...

Why do things go wrong?

Am I that bad? A fuck up? I don't even know anymore. I'm going to try to get my mind out of it. I don't know what to do. What to think.

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Poem:

Wondering

Learning

Traveling

I am lost yet found

I am empty yet loved

Where shoukd I go?

I am learning how to survive

To keep silent

My fault

My feelings

Me

Lost

Yet found found

It was my fault

Yet not

But why

I need to stay away

Where do I go?

Where do I start?

Death

Depression

Anxiety

Lost

I'm walking

Wondering

Leanring

But yet

I'm trap

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Its cold.

I'm hungry

I'm lost

I'm lonely

I'm confused

I wish I can make someone happy. To make someone happy. To be something. Hate me. Despise me. I dont even know. What am I? Who am I?

Well.

I'm a writer for sure. No doubt. (Not a great one but a okay one)

I like games. All sorts of games. Card games. Board games. Videos games. I like them!

I'm pretty good at games. I'm okay. I'm no expert but I'm okay.

I like to listen. Listen to people. Try my best to help them. I care for them!

I'm not selfish. Yeah I might talk a lot about me. I try not too! I know its seems bad. I'm learning to get it through. But I'm not selfish. (Only when it comes to Skittles. A whole different story.

I am a lazy ass.

For now. I might just go to sleep. I'm getting tired.