Guys guys guys guys guys

I just can't.

Today has been a very emotional day for me.

Firstly, I finished reading Death Note and lemme just say

Whew

That was a crazy intense game of cat and mouse and I enjoyed every second of it. Except for the time when L died but yknow let's move on and not make me cry harder than I already am.

But really, like if you haven't read/watched it and you're into anime seriously go do it. Even if you aren't into it, it's just so amazing and intriguing.

Even though Tokyo Ghoul was the first manga I read and anime I watched, Death Note is my favorite. It's also the one that convinced me to read manga.

Long story short I heard of it from kawaiicaramelldansen 's Mettaton x reader and I looked it up cause why not and decided maybe it would be cool to read.

Oh boy am I thankful to that story. If not for it, I'd just be a subpar dork, without any weeb.

Being a weeaboo has made friends for me okay it was a good decision for my life.

So anyway, as if that did not leave a large enough gaping hole in my heart...

I finished The X Files today as well. And that just… I can't comprehend it.

Like, for two years now I've been watching this battle between Mulder & Scilly and the government/aliens/paranormal and now I'm done.

It's all over, all of it. (Until season 11 *cough*Chris Carter*cough*)

It was amazing though, all of it. Even though there were some atrocious sfx, it was and will always be my favorite show.

The ending messed me up so badly. Like when I realized that they were in the exact position that they were in way back in episode one. I was already tearing up but that just made me so nostalgic that I could barely breathe.

And then, the whole ending scene was just everything.

Like ahhh finally they can overcome whatever comes at them together.

Also when they played the first bar of the opening song (you can hear it if you listen close) I died crying.

To make matters worse I can't go back to that episode or anything after season 5 because today was the last day that it was in Netflix. Now I need to buy the rest of the DVDs and they are incredibly expensive and I'm broke.

I still can't process… nearly two years of my time just ended right before my eyes.

So yeah, I'm gonna be quite a wreck for a while without Death Note and TXF.

I really need a life.