Tobirama:

I was nothing compared to him.

Nothing.

Izuna...

Oh, to lead a normal life with him.

To wake up at seven each day, have a shower together, me cooking breakfast, him getting his makeup done.

Taking the same bus to work.

A normal job for me, in business as I had a five-year education from university and a good resumé.

Coming home to him having cooked dinner.

Or going to the gym together and then buying sushi on the way home.

Watch a movie together, then go to bed at the same time, arms around each other.

Buying an apartment with each other.

Buying a car.

Travelling.

But of course that wouldn't happen.

Because if I left, they would reveal me.

And I would get lifetime in prison.

And now, Izuna is going to find out...

I knew that was the end of our relationship.

At least, he could have Emil, I thought, the realisation that he could have a normal, happy relationship filling my heart with a glimmer of hope.

No he can't, because...

I put my head in my hands and wept, more for the blonde boy with a scar that was so obviously in love with Izuna, than for Izuna himself.

Izuna:

"Izuna..."

His soft voice...

"Izuna, snap out of it. I need you here. I need you alert."

With a ginormous force of effort, I came back to the room. Emil, who had spoken, was looking at me. He looked worried, and I could see he had to force himself to keep his words on a professional level. Izuna, snap out of it. Please! I'm worried about you, his eyes said when his mouth didn't.

I looked up at Tobirama.

That explains his skill with a gun at the fair...

"You..." I said darkly.

"Izuna, leave it", Emil said harshly. "We'll talk about it later." He cast a meaningful glance at Tobirama at this, as if drilling into his brain that he was the one who got to talk to me after all of this, not Tobirama. "I need you alert."

Tobirama didn't smile or act. He had his hands in his suit pockets, and he walked towards me. I looked up, met his gaze, and the chock was replaced by something else; anger and a deep, deep, inexplainable hurt as every piece of our relationship clicked together. The money. The mystery. The ownership of several businesses.

He stopped opposite me, towered over me. I could se Emil clenching and unclenching his fists.

"Emil, don't do anything stupid", I pleaded. "I-" I swallowed as my voice cracked. "I can't do this without you."

Tobirama grabbed my chin harshly then. Then, he lowered his face and kissed me. I froze. My body completely froze, making me unable to move.

"Don't touch him!!" Emil screamed, every thought of remaining professional evaporated.

Tobirama just depend his kiss.

There lay something behind it; desperation, hunger. For what, I wasn't sure. But it was palpable.

But as soon as I felt it, the moment was gone.

"Don't waste your breath, Emil", Tobirama said. "I'm going to fuck him in front of you no matter what you say."

"I'D RATHER DIE!! I'D RATHER DIE THAN HAVE HIM RAPED!!" Emil's eyes were wild, he was spitting and sputtering as he screamed. He rose from the chair, but instantly, the man pressed his gun to his head.

"Emil, please!" I begged. My brain seemed to have started working a little again. "I need you alive!"

"Oh, it won't be rape", Tobirama said smoothly, ignoring my words, turning my head so I was forced to look at him. "Izuna is going to give himself to me willingly."

I spit in his face.

I literally, dead-ass spit in his face.

It landed on his cheek.

He stood still, hand still underneath my chin.

And he lost it.

He forced me down on my knees and I screamed.

"IZUNA!!" Emil screamed.

Tobirama unzipped his trousers and it didn't take him three seconds until he had forced himself into my mouth. The pain in my teeth and lips was excruciating as he shoved his entire erection inside of my mouth. I could hear Emil scream, but I had shut my ears off, had closed my eyes. Please, make it stop. Make it stop. Not in front of Emil. I'll do anything you want, just spare Emil from this.

But he kept thrusting. More than ashamed, disgusted or mad, I was heartbroken. The man I loved... He's raping me. He's raping me in front of another person whom I love dearly...

He grabbed my throat, purred in my ear. "Look at me."

I looked up at him, my eyes furious, considered spitting at him again. But in a millisecond, his gun was to my temple.

"Don't even think about it." He pointed the gun at Emil instead. "Or he'll die." The man knows me too well...

Slowly, agonisingly slowly, he started to unzip my trousers. No no no no no no NO. I don't want this. I don't want any of this.

I usually loved the pain of having a big dick shoved into me unprepared, but this was something else entirely. It caused me a pain that went to my heart as the sensation of his erection inside me mixed with Emil's screams.

I remember locking eyes with a Tobirama, how ice-cold his expression was. I remember turning to the side and locking eyes with Emil. The man behind him held his gun to Emil's throat, forcing him to watch. Blood was starting to trickle down my behind, drip on the floor. A trail of drool was carelessly running down my chin.

"Moan for me, baby", Tobirama murmured into my ear, sensually, but I found it anything but sensual. Emil... Keep looking at Emil. He was tethering me, anchoring me down at this point, despite his wild look. I could see him bend forwards and vomit. I am sorry. Emil I am so sorry.

I felt Tobirama's gun against my throat. "I said, moan for me."

No way... No way.

"KILL ME INSTEAD!"

I realised how out of his mind he was. Oh, Emil, that's not how this works.

Tobirama thrusted, and I hated to admit it, but some part of me felt the pleasure, the deep sensation of this man's dick inside me. I grunted a little, and it wasn't only in pain. That seemed to turn Tobirama on endlessly because he increased his thrusting to an obscene level, and I dug my fingernails into the concrete floor, causing them to bleed, and I screamed, and Tobirama screamed, and Emil screamed as Tobirama came, pulling himself out, drenching me in his seeds. He stood on his knees, panting. Then, he smirked, pulled his trousers up, stood up and left.

"Release him", he demanded.

As soon as they removed the gun from Emil's throat, he came running to me.

"Izuna..." He put his hand to my cheek. "Izuna, I-"

"I am so sorry", I whispered.

"Don't apologise!" Emil said, tears streaming down his face, dressing me with great care. "Don't apologise. Are you hurt?"

I suddenly felt ice cold, and started trembling. "Emil, hold me", I wheezed.

I wish he had.

I wish he had held me.

Held me one last time.

Emil looked up at Tobirama. Then he stood up and stomped to him. "You motherfucker..."

Tobirama put his finger underneath Emil's chin in that way of his. He put his lips to his ear. "Such a pretty boy..." He snaked his hand around Emil's waist. Emil didn't move. "Such a shame you'll die."

What?

Tobirama moved out of the way. "Shoot him."

I didn't have time to react.

Emil didn't have time to react.

The man who's escorted Emil lifted his gun and shot Emil in his stomach.