Hyperthymesia - a condition that leads people to be able to remember an abnormally large number of their life experiences in vivid detail.

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If you are new to this term, or 'a condition', you are really lucky. Your mind doesn't have to worry about remembering things that made you sad, ashamed or extremely angry in the past.

Your feelings and memory of the experience will be present for a short period, until you forget about it and move on with your simple life. People who insulted, hurt or mocked you will attack their next victim and you will be left alone, avoiding big crowds and anything that could trigger your experience until you regain your confidence.

But, eventually, all of that passes. You can hang out with your friends in public again and keep eye contact, without shame overwhelming your entire body, while proudly walking down the school hall. You can finally be popular again.

I, however, am not lucky like you are. My first memory is a dream I had when I was only nine months old. I remember every word I said, wrote, read or heard. I remember everybody who entered my life and walked out of it. I remember every facial expression, every voice and, well, every action.

That is why I can't sleep at night, without swallowing the medicine from my dad that I know I shouldn't take. My mind is constantly working and it never stops. After school is when I finally feel exhausted enough to sleep.

You may be wondering, how do I manage to cope with it on an everyday basis? The answer is as simple as it gets - I don't.

One experience changed the way my mind works and, since then, I was never the same. If you want to, call it trauma. To me, it doesn't mean anything anymore.

I'm just numb.

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