Song above was the inspiration for not only this scene, but this book ❤️

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"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life."

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"Wait," Anakin stopped what he was doing just as I had drifted my hands down to his pants so I could undo them. He backed away from my neck and looked into my eyes while caressing my cheek with the back of his hand, "We shouldn't be doing this, I told you my life is messy and it's about to get a lot more messy. I don't want you to get hurt because of it."

I grabbed the wrist of the hand that was stroking my cheek, and I brought it to my lips so I could kiss the back of it, "I don't care Anakin," I assured him, dropping his hand down and running my fingers through his damp hair, "I want you. I love you."

I said once before that the moment I gave myself fully to him will be the moment that my decision is made.

I'm hoping that by the end of all of this I can save both him and my career, but if I end up having to choose, I would choose him in a heartbeat. And that doesn't mean that my career doesn't mean anything to me, it does, but now I'm starting to realize that there's more to life than a career.

Ever since I was young, my mother pushed the idea that a successful career means a successful life. But never has my career made me as happy as Anakin does, just being with him was enough to wash away all of the negative feelings inside. And now I'm starting to worry that I spent so much time focusing on advancing a career, that I haven't really lived and enjoyed life as much as I could be.

And Anakin, he makes me feel so alive.

He blinked away what looked to be more tears trying to break free, "You're so stubborn," He breathed a chuckle as he pressed our foreheads together, "Is there anything I can say to get you to listen and stay away from me - a dangerous man?"

I slowly shook my head, "No, you'll have to get a restraining order." I shrugged.

He laughed, and it was beautiful, he was beautiful, "God, I love you."

"Then let me in," I leaned forward and pressed a peck on his lips that he reciprocated. He breathed out a sigh when it ended and his eyes were closed with his brows furrowed, like he was fighting his internal struggles, "Now that I have you and got to see just how beautiful of a person you really are, I don't want to live without you."

He slowly opened his eyes and locked them with mine, "You think I'm a beautiful person?"

"I know you are." I said with confidence.

I'm not jumping to any conclusions right now when it comes to Rex and his body hiding expertise. I don't know Rex's story, he could've been doing this for years for more than one person, not just for Anakin. But maybe for Sheev, and that's how Anakin knew to call him — that's my hopeful theory at least.

He cupped my face and it gave me butterflies, it's a small gesture, but it has always been my favorite, "Even if I told you that the reason I didn't bat an eye is because I've killed before too." He whispered as a tear finally broke free and fell down his cheek, "Not that I wanted to—I swear I didn't, I just didn't have any other choice." His voice cracked and I could tell that whatever memory he's reliving, was devastating for him, and it's something I can relate to.

"That's okay," I caressed his arms to comfort him, "We all have done things we didn't want to because our options were limited." Did I want to kill the men I have? Of course not, but it was kill or be killed, "And that doesn't make us bad people, it makes us human and relatable." I told him the exact thing I've been told by a therapist countless times, and it has helped me a lot. And in a way it was helping me right now with what I did to Clovis, he was going to kill Ahsoka so I did what I had to... that's what I keep reminding myself.

"You truly are unbelievable," The way Anakin was looking at me was like I was the greatest gift he's ever received.

"I told you I wouldn't look at you any differently, didn't I?"

"Yeah you did," Finally he started to smile and released one of the hands cupping my cheeks to move my damp hair away from my face, "Meeting you has been the best thing that has ever happened to me (y/n)," He brought us closer, causing our lips to graze, "And I'm just so afraid of losing you."

"I can say the same Ani," I whispered, shifting my eyes between his and his lips, "I love you too much to ever want to lose you either," I then brought my hands down again and undid the button on his pants — this time he didn't stop me.

As I lowered the zipper, he took a deep breath, "Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked, knowing that once we take this step, there's no going back, "I'm not everything you think I am."

"Neither am I."

— SMUT —
And it goes on for the rest of the chapter
Also you can play the song here, unless music distracts you when you read then j suggest listen into it before or after (: but I do highly recommend the song!

I crashed our lips together and lowered his pants down, revealing his boxers. He still had his hold on my face as he kissed me passionately, before finally lowering his hands and gripping my waist, tight. He moaned softly against my lips as he pulled our bodies together and rubbed his erection against the thin fabric between my legs.

He removed his lips from mine and brought them to the side of my neck, where he started to trail his kisses up to my ear. His hand snaked it's way through the waist band of the basketball shorts he lent me, and he found my clit easily enough, "Fuck," I whispered when he slowly moved in a circular motion to bring me an intense amount of pleasure. Waves of it shot through my body as I threw my head back in bliss.

No one and nothing else was in my mind now, just him.

"You have no idea how bad I want you," He whispered once he reached my ear and proceeded to lightly nibble on the lobe.

"You have me," I whispered with a shiver. Moments later his lips were back on mine, but not before he gazed lovingly into my eyes with the happiest smile I've ever seen him hold.

Faster his finger pleased me and every moan I let out was muffled by his lips, "I need to taste you again," He mumbled after giving me one last kiss before backing away. He grabbed the hem of the shorts and pulled them down, exposing me. He dropped down and without taking his eyes from mine, he buried his face between my thighs and ran his tongue along my hole that was already wet for him.

Butterflies erupted in my stomach as I grabbed the edge of the counter and squeezed, "Yes," I cried when he slipped his tongue inside after placing my legs on his shoulders.

I wrapped my legs around his neck and pulled him in deeper. He grabbed my hips in response and dug his fingers into my skin as he stuck his tongue inside of me deeper. Shots of pleasure went through my body like jolts of electricity, and I found myself reaching an orgasm quicker than last time.

Words can't describe the amount of love I feel for this man, and it was scary knowing there wasn't anything I wouldn't do for him. I'm about to risk my entire career... and in my heart I know he's worth it.

I grabbed his hair and pulled as I arched my back, "I'm gonna cum," I warned him as my soft and struggled mains turned into high pitched squeals as the strongest organism I've ever had hit my body like a truck. I shook and trembled as he continued pleasuring me even though my limit had been reached, "Anakin I can't handle it," I said out of breath and immediately he removed himself from between my legs with a proud smile — I was too sensitive for him to continue.

He stood up and licked his lips, "I'll never get over how sweet you are beautiful," He came down and kissed my lips. I didn't care about where he had just been either, I kissed him back and loved every second of it.

I could feel him fumbling with his boxers, and the next thing I knew, I felt him rubbing himself  against my hole, "Oh my god," I said in surprise after ending the kiss to look down, he was a lot bigger than I thought he would be. He was at the very least eight, maybe eight and a half inches. And the girth... he was the biggest I've seen.

He smiled and I could see the narcissism within it. He gently rubbed the tip up and down my wet slit, the veins were popping out and I was both excited and nervous for this, "Are you sure?" He asked again before going any further.

I nodded, "I've never been more sure about anything."

"Okay, just tell me if you want me to stop,"Anakin grabbed my arms and wrapped them around his neck for me, before he pushed himself inside of me.

It hurt at first and I winced in pain, but after a few seconds, I was able to get used to the size and even enjoy it.

Both of us moaned at the same time as he slid in about our of me and he pressed his forehead against mine while furrowing his brows in pleasure, "Oh my god," He mumbled and I could feel him inside, stretching me, "You're mine now (y/n)."

"I'm yours." I told him what I know he wanted me to say and it was that that prompted him to move faster. He grabbed my hips and began to thrust in and out of me, fucking me on top of the counter behind the bar. The very one that holds countless glass bottles. I was afraid for them to fall, but at the same time, I didn't care.

The faster and harder he went, the more his fingers dug into my skin and I swear he was drawing blood, but I was too high off of him to know or care. My mind was in cloud nine and my body was taken over by nothing but an intense and euphoric pleasure.

He grunted in pleasure and moaned my name as he gave me the best sex I've ever had. And although I understood my reasons, I was hating myself for waiting for so long. It's clear now that he is the love of my life, not anyone else, and my denial was keeping me from that for too long.

Anakin went harder and the back of my head hit the mirror behind me. And one of the bottles on the counter got knocked down by my thigh that I opened to give him more access, causing it to shatter on the floor. Neither of us cared and neither of us stopped.

"You feel so fucking good, I love it," He praised me in a whimper, "I love you."

I yelled in pleasure as a response when he removed one of his hands from my hips, to rub my clit, "Anakin!" I was so close to cumming again and the cloud of deep euphoria was taking over and making me dizzy and feral with lust.

Anakin removed me from the counter, but kept me up with my legs wrapped around him long enough to turn me around and set me down on top of the actual bar. He threw everything that was on top of it onto the floor—including glass cups that ere now broken—and brought our lips back together as he kissed me like no one else has; filled with love, devotion, happiness, and maybe even a little bit of obsession.

He grabbed the middle of the shirt I was wearing and ripped the fabric to make my bare chest visible, "So fucking beautiful," He whispered as he took his lips from mine and started kissing my neck, before lowering down and giving my chest and boobs his attention.

He switched between nipples as he slowly thrusted inside of me and I leaned all the way back until my head hung off the other end of the bar. I couldn't believe where this job had taken me and although I was scared at first, now I wouldn't change a thing.

Both of our moans echoed throughout the club and I arched my back while bucking my hips when I felt the orgasm returning after he picked up his pace. I felt him wrap his hand around my neck and when I looked up, I saw fire in his eyes as he fucked me on top of this bar that is going to need to be desperately sanitized.

"Come here," He pulled me by my neck and crushed our lips together. His moans were growing quicker and louder, and I took that as a sign that he was close too.

I kept moving my hips upwards since it helped with the friction and gave me more pleasure, "Anakin," I moaned, feeling the orgasm get even closer the faster he went, "Oh my god Anakin I'm gonna—Fuck!" I screamed as I came for the second time tonight.

Anakin's hold on my neck tightened as he crashed our lips together again and I rode out my high that way, enjoying every moment as his thrusts sent more pleasure throughout my body than I could handle. But I wasn't going to tell him to stop this time, I knew he was close and I wanted him to finish undisturbed.

"Cum Anakin, cum for me," I edged him closer between kisses and his muffled moans got even louder as he thrusted harder into me.

I raised my legs higher for him and I felt him twitching inside of me, showing me just how close he really was, so I squeezed my walls around him. That gave him the push he needed, because seconds later, he pulled out and let go of my neck to stroke himself off as he moaned uncontrollably. Streams of his hot cum shot out of his tip and landed on my stomach and vagina, and he kept pleasuring himself until he had no more to release, "Holy fuck," He whimpered after letting himself go. He glanced up into my eyes and grabbed my neck again before pressing our lips together, "That was more amazing than I thought it would be." He said with a smile.

"It really was," I agreed as I smiled back.

After kissing each other for another minute or two, Anakin took the ripped shirt I had on off for me and cleaned his cum from my stomach, "I have more clothes you can borrow," He tossed the shirt to the side before picking me up bridal style, his smile widening, "And then I can take you home."

I shook my head as I wrapped my arms around his neck, "I want to go home with you." I told him as the butterflies that never once stopped, continued to flourish.

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