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"The heart wants what it wants. There's no logic to these things. You meet someone and you fall in love, and that's that."

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The second he said those words to me, the wall I was trying to keep up came crumbling down. I kissed him back as he got on top of me, and I let him as I ran my hands through his hair. I tugged on the roots and his low moans of delight were breathed into the kiss, which only made me tug harder so I could hear him again.

He just admitted to falling in love with me. I knew he liked me, that was obvious, but I was never expecting him to love me. I was already here to destroy his life, now I was going to do the same to his heart?

That's overkill.

"This is wrong, we can't do this," I breathed in a whisper when the kiss ended and Anakin gazed into my eyes with a deep desire. His trap, I was falling into it all over again. And I was terrified because I knew it was all wrong, but I also knew that I was not going to stop myself.

"Stop denying it," He traced my lips with his fingertips, a soft and sweet gesture that made my stomach do a flip, "I know you want me as much as I want you, you said it — please don't take it back now."

"Anakin, I just don't want to hurt you." I said low as I ran my fingers through his soft hair, "I'll only be a disappointment to you."

I never thought I would find myself trying to protect him. But my heart is not as innocent as I hoped for it to be, and now that's it's open and damaged, Anakin was slithering his way in through the cracks and I wasn't sure how to stop it. I don't think I even wanted to stop, my heart was currently beating his name like it longed to be with him.

"You can never disappoint me, you're perfect," He slowly ran his hand up my thigh as his lips grazed mine and his nose brushed against the tip of my nose.

"No I'm-" He kissed my lips to stop my answer, he knew I was going to deny my worth, that I was going to try and sabotage the perfect image he has of me. But he wasn't going to let me.

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Fingering and Oral Sex. —

"You are. But if you want me to stop, then say the word 'stop' and I promise you I will," He whispered, his hand entering my shorts from below and lightly brushing the fabric of my underwear. I moaned low when I felt his gentle touch on the thin layer of clothing, "That doesn't  sound like you want me to stop (y/n)," And with his words, he moved my underwear to the side and rubbed his fingers down the wet slit, before he gently pushed two of them inside of me.

A loud moan parted from my lips, and Anakin silenced me with a kiss as he moved his fingers inside and out, slow and making me writhe.

Everything that was telling me to stop was now completely silenced. I didn't want it to stop, I wanted him to keep going — this is the best anyone had ever been able to make me feel in a long time.

"You're so beautiful, and innocent," He mumbled when his lips left mine, but only for a moment before he went back to kissing me, "I would like to change one of those things."

I kissed him back and brought my hands up to his face where I cupped his cheeks and deepened the forbidden embrace. Faster his fingers went, and an excess of moans broke free — he wasn't able to silence me this time.

He chuckled as he slowed down, "You're going to wake them if you don't be quiet."

"Sorry," I breathed. It all felt so amazing, and I couldn't believe I was allowing this to happen. But in this moment, him and those entrancing eyes had full control over me - like a spell.

He shook his head and pressed his lips to mine in a soft kiss, "Don't be sorry," He whispered when our lips parted, his eyes locked with mine, "I want to hear you." He dropped his head into the crook of my neck, and began lightly kissing me as his fingers brought me close to an orgasm.

We should stop, I need to tell him to stop.

"Anak-" His name was interrupted by a pleasure filled whimper when he curved his fingers inside of me.

Fuck, I'm going to hell for this.

His lips continued to travel down my body until he reach the waistline where my shorts began. He looked up at me as if he was waiting for a protest. This was it, this was my chance to end all of this right here and now. Yet, my mouth never opened and not a single word rolled from my tongue.

Anakin placed his hands on the waistband to my shorts and pulled them down, his eyes landing on the space between my thighs. The desire in his eyes burned brighter, and the wetting of his lips showed me his intentions.

He glanced back up at me one more time, "I've been dying to taste you since I saw you," He lowered himself down and brought his face in-between my thighs, "I saw you for the first from the balcony and I watched you as you worked. You were so concentrated, unaware that I was even there."

I didn't say anything as I listened to him, intrigued on this revelation. That must've been when I think I saw him for the first time, or I saw his shadow at least, hours before I stepped into his office. How long had he been watching me? And how often do I not notice him around me?

"I thought you were so gorgeous," He leaned down and wrapped his lips around the clit and gently sucked — all with his eyes never leaving mine. Shockwaves of pleasure went through my body and my moans grew to be louder than before.

He continued to pleasure my clit as he brought fingers back to my hole and slipped them inside, "Oh god," I whimpered, arching my back up from the lounge chair.

Anakin took that as an indicator to move faster, so as his fingers moved in and out of me at a quick pace, his tongue licked up all of my pre-cum that came out as I grabbed his hair and pulled while nearly screaming from the pleasure.

My cheating husband has never made me feel like this, so maybe this was a blessing in disguise. It was showing me that life has better things to offer me, since my first ever relationship has now turned into a mistake. That's what marrying Connor was, a mistake, my body knew it, and my heart knew it - that's why I was so reluctant to walk down the aisle.

The pain of his betrayal still hurt, but I'd be lying if I said this wasn't the best therapy I've ever gotten. It even made his face hard to remember since the pleasure was all I could think about.

Anakin slid his free hand up my bare stomach and under my shirt and here he grabbed my bra-less chest, and squeezed. My hand shot to his and I grabbed it through the shirt, squeezing it just as he did to me as I arched my back once more - his tongue and fingers pushing me towards the edge of my release.

He then brought his hand from out of my shirt and held my hand, his eyes still on mine as he watched how he made me feel. It was one of the most erotic moments I've ever experienced in my life. Seeing the pleased look in his eyes as I squirmed under his touch.

"I'm gonna-" I whimpered and shot my head back against the chair, "Yes" I screamed as I bucked my hips upwards, and his tongue entered me just as I exploded in a body shaking orgasm that caused my eyes to roll backwards.

My mouth was agape but no sound came out as I squeezed his hand as hard as I could while he squeezed back. His tongue was still working my clit as I came down from the high, which prompted my body to jolt in pleasure when it became too sensitive, "Oh my god," I moaned loud, coming down from the best orgasm I've ever had.

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Summary: There's not much to note other than you know, some stuff happened. And the  clonflict within her was attacking her at every given moment, but eventually she gave in and enjoyed herself. And she was beginning to understand that what she feels for Anakin may be more than just a like or a crush, but something stronger.

Finally, he removed his plumped lips from me and caught his breath, "I'd ask if you enjoyed it, but the whole neighborhood knows you did." He smirked and my cheeks flushed in embarrassment when I realized just how loud I was.

Oh god, what if Ahsoka and Piett heard?

"That was-" I sat up and kept my wide eyes on him. The regret and guilt was setting in, what does this mean for my career? And what does this mean for me? "Wrong, we shouldn't have done that." I said, but now it started to sound like I was only saying it because I know it's what I should be saying.

"But I'm happy that we did." He sat up as well and brought his face close to mine, "I meant it when I said I was falling for you." He caressed my cheek and looked at me like I was only girl in the world, or at the very least, the only one that mattered.

My heart raced more with every gentle touch he gave me and the butterflies in my stomach flourished when he looked me in the eyes — was I falling in love too?

No... I can't be. I can't love him, my marriage wasn't even over yet. I can't possibly be in love with someone else already, right?

Right?

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Honest thought please since I'm a little iffy about it. I hope it makes sense that she is subconsciously in love with him, she's just in denial.
The heart wants what it wants after all and she had no control over it happening, it was inevitable and soon she'll realize that. And for anyone wondering — how is she moving on so fast?  Remember that she was never fully happy in her marriage and her heart craved something more fulfilling, which it found it in Anakin. He's always been who she was meant to love, and she began to move on and fall for Ani LONG before Connors infidelity. That was really just the push she needed to allow Anakin to break through her wall.

And this is short because in my publishing version, I plan to put this chapter and the last one together (:
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