​I analyze my situation. 1. I have an almost cracked gem. 2. I'm falling with a Lapis Lazuli 3. We're falling at a height that would shatter us both, so it's not like we can escape this.

I come to have two options. I crack my gem even more, so that I can save her and use my spider like abilities to get us out, which could leave to me being cracked so bad that it's beyond repair (corruption), or I force her to retreat into her gem and use my axe to friction us onto the wall, this one could lead to both of our deaths, since it isn't certain it will work, and I'll have to break her gem a bit for immediate reaction. I analyze that we have 27 Seconds before we hit the ground. Which is enough for me to do either options with some spare time to decide.

I could crack my gem even more, and save us definitely, but I remember what happened to the other Beryl's. This one Beryl, which I didn't completely hate, got in a fistfight with a Ruby. The Ruby won, resulting in the death of a Beryl, except, the Ruby didn't finish her job, and the cocktail of emotions the Beryl was feeling, along with the cracking of her gem, made her corrupt. She transformed into a giant ant, and attacked the ruby with its pinchers and chewed on her gem. It took an entire legion of 17 Rubies to take down a corrupted Beryl Ant. Now think of me, I'm much more powerful than those Beryl's, I can't follow orders like they do, but I can destroy when I want to. Now this begs the question, would I as a corrupted spider, be able to demolish more than they can? Will I be able to protect this Lapis? What would corrupt me think about this situation? Will she be selfish? Am I willing to take this chance? 21 Seconds.

I could crack her gem, she wouldn't even feel pain, I could just strike her and she'd be out, unconscious and in the palm of my hand. Ready to be rescued. She'd have a mutation of some sort afterwards, and I don't know if she'd be willing to go through that. Plus, I'm just getting used to my axe, I've barely used it, and I don't know if I can catch myself at this height. This would give us a higher chance of surviving, though, but is it morally right to hurt another and risk their life, if you think you could save theirs and yours? Isn't hurting her for my benefit wrong? Or is it right since we're both getting the upside, but she will probably have some afterward damage done to her. 15 Seconds.

I suddenly feel colder, she regained her ability to fight against the wind, she flew. She could fly and looked straight into my eyes. She kicked me in the gem to give herself a boost so she wouldn't stay in its gravitation. I can't believe it, she ditched me. Now I'm about to get broken, and she knows that.

​"Not yet" I say to myself, reaching for my gem, but something gives me a pain, a transforming pain. It goes up and down in levels of agony. I can feel all myself changing, and now, I feel my gem scratching again, maybe even a little chipped. My gem gets segmented into 6 pieces, good choice of the gem too, now it's one little segment for each spider eye. Good one gem, so witty in the time I die.

​What does it mean to die? Will I just vanish? Disappear? Or will I go on and repeat another life of being another gem? Maybe I'll be a Diamond, and get an entire Kindergarten dedicated to me, maybe this is how I can fix the problems with Kindergartens. Or will I die, and go to another place. Heh, I bet this is what Eta used to think about before... Maybe I'll be with Eta, and I can finally see her warm, smiling face. Maybe we can finally talk about being free, being free from the chains of the Homeworld. If Eta could've seen what I've done, all the sabotage, she'd be proud. I hope I get to see Eta again, I can see her reaching out for me, ready to grab on, her eyes felt like the heat coming off from a fireplace, so warm and relieving. I can sense that I only have 7 seconds left.

​No. Not yet. This isn't what Eta would've wanted. She wanted me to not die in vain, falling off of a building trying to save a gem which abandoned you is dying in vain. She wouldn't have wanted this, so I don't want this either. I hear her whisper her last words into my ear. "Don't let me die in vain." She continued, but that's all I needed to hear. My gem glowed, and I was falling even faster and faster. With only five seconds left, I feel lighter, and I feel a warm glow in my pocket. Something large and glowing flew out of it. I can't see, it's too hazy. It wrapped around me, and I fell unconscious.

​I woke up, and I can tell it's a fan. It's currently flapping its way up, with me in her arms. This must've been Eta's gem weapon, if only she could've used it. I feel tears rolling down my eyes, as I see the read imprints on her fan. It directly references me. The writing is her thoughts, but locked. It must change whenever she would think of something different, but Eta's dead now, so she can't think of anything.

​"Stay strong, Beryl. My death will only be a miniscule sacrifice to this campaign. You can do so much more, just remember how terrible the Kindergarten was, and remember me. I'll miss you Beryl. I hope that you can find what you're looking for on this Earth. Hope."