five more
motherfucking
weeks

35 days
and
840 hours

till I hop on
a plane and
fly away

alone

fuck fuck
i don't have
fucking friends

jesus I'll
just be
lonely

oh god I'll
be preforming
in front of

people

living organisms
that think and talk
and can move

human beings
who can think
she's ugly she's bad

individuals that can
talk to each other and
say she's so bad at this

people who can point
and laugh and talk
about me

I'll have no one to
drink butterbeers with
or laugh with

a friend who can
encourage me
and help me

a person that can
go on scary rides
with and spend money

I'll just stutter and fidget
and get super nervous
and I'll just be and awkward mess

fuck me and my
scared ass
fucking hell

2018/03/14