I can't help it

I start to stutter and
my words are tied
together with fear

fear that you will
judge my every word
and think "she's weird"

so my train of thought
collides with my fears
and it all goes to hell

then my brain is panicking
from the crash and you start
to question why the fuck I'm quiet

next you hear my sentences
that are way too fast and jumbled
and you think "what'd she say?"

2018/06/03