Chloe's pov

''yeah um amanda has the plans for the actual ceremony thing trees white walls and flowers i dont even care anymore'' i said and kat gave me a hug.

''kat stop okay stop feeling sorry for me alright thats all everyone is doing is giving me pity i don't want to be reminded every damn second that im the one that made my mom go suicidal alright'' i said and she looked down.

''sorry'' she said and she walked out and the tears just fell. I needed to scream i wanted to scream my heart out i was just so angry and i just couldn't process what happened yesterday. My mom is now in the hospital and doing better but now not only does she blame me now cameron blames me. I needed henry. But i can't keep going to him every time i needed his help i needed to start going to austin. I got up and wiped  my tears and went to his office and walked in and closed the door.

''chloe what is it whats wrong'' he said and he hugged me and i started crying again. 

''its my fault austin its all my fault'' i said and he rubbed my back.

''all everyone can do is say im sorry for what happened to your mom, are you okay, giving me hugs and i am tired of it. It hasn't even been a full day and thats happened at least over a hundred times i get people care and want to be there but damn i just want to be left alone'' i said 

''beautiful'' he said and i looked at him.

''yes'' i said 

''scream'' he said 

''why'' i said

''because i know you need to'' he said and he covered his ears and i just let it out. It lasted for thirty seconds till there was no air in my lungs. I took a deep breath and austin rubbed my arm.

''its not your fault your father was a terrible man your mom is just grieving'' he said 

''austin i hurt her'' i said

''she's never gonna forgive me'' i said 

''go visit her'' he said

''no she's gonna throw me out'' i said 

''no she won't your the luna'' he said and smiled

''fine'' i said and i grabbed the dust and went to the pack hospital and i took a deep breath and walked in and she stared at me and cameron guy up.

''get out chloe'' cam said 

''you get out cameron'' i said 

''you're forgetting your the damn reason she's in here'' he said 

I walked to him and glowed my eyes.

''you want to fucking test me right now cameron don't fucking forget i am your sister and i am the luna so watch yourself'' i said and he glowed his eyes.

''i think you should watch yourself chloe'' he said and growled and i growled back.

''enough!'' mom yelled and i looked at her.

''chloe i know why you did it alright but you don't know how it feels to lose a mate it makes you not want to even live anymore'' she said

''chloe i forgive you with all my heart he was a bad man and im glad you saved me when you did'' she said and smiled and she grabbed my hand and a tear fell from my face and i hugged her.

''im so sorry for how i have been mom i love you so much'' i said and sniffed and she rubbed my back.

''i love you too lady bug'' she said 

''get some rest alright'' i said and smiled

''of course hun'' she said and smiled and i walked out with cameron. 

''are you done being an asshole'' i said 

''would it bring back dad'' he said

''you know what it wont cameron so how about you fucking get the hell over it because i saved alot of lives killing him he wanted all of us dead did you not get the memo he was planning to kill you the day me and gracie officially were in their hunter crap he told us the plan it was to kill me you and all of our friends plus our mates so before you fucking judge me on what i did ever again cameron just remember you lived another damn day because of me'' i said and i walked away.

I got in the car and drove to the building to finish the plans for the ceremony with kat.

''hey so i finally got the samples'' kat said and smiled and she handed me them.

''this feels cheap this one feels to rough ohhh i love this one silky and soft this is the one'' i said and smiled

''got it'' kat said 

''how are you holding up'' she said

''im fine sorry for the way i acted earlier it was uncalled for'' i said and she smiled

''don't worry i know how it feels to see your mom like that'' she said and i gave her a hug.

''i know and i hate that you do'' i said 

Two years ago Kat's mom killed herself after her mate died in a car crash coming home from town kat was the one that found her body.

''hey its okay lets get on with planning your big day'' she said and smiled 

''okay'' i said and gave her a small smile...............