I'm sorry Jaquez, I know it's your birthday.

But I'm sorry....

This is what I did...

This my ankle. Scars on top of scars... Just making new scars on top of scars everyday.

This is my arm... More scars on top of scars. I refuse to reveal my thighs and shoulders. I'm sorry. But my left ankle and left arm are just cuts on top of scars on top of scars on top scars. I'm sorry.

(PLEASE PRAY FOR HER OR HELP HER OR SPREAD THE WORD TO HELP. HER PLEASE? WE'RE BEGGING YOU.) -Mackenzie, Daisy, Abbie, Sienna.

To everyone who hated me,

I hope your happy. Are you happy? Cause your words sure didn't help when I already think of myself as shit, your words just don't help.

Sincerely,
Maddy

Dear senpai_noah7 & crazygirls12390 -Chris,

I'm sorry for everything I've ever done. I love you both. So freaking much, and we've had so many great adventures. And we've had so many encounters, and so many things that we've been through. If you guys could just stay with me a little longer and don't let me go, j can promise to be out of your lives for good unless you want me in your life... which you probably don't because no one does. Thank you for understanding... I love you both... so freaking much. Just please stay with me...

Love,
Maddy

Dear NateIsFrothing,

In sorry I wasn't a good friend. I'm sorry for everything. I love you, im sorry, but I do. Whether you believe it or not, I really do love you. You're like a brother to me, one of my best friends... you were there for me through everything... and I let you down. I'm sorry. 😭😭😭😭

Love your friend,
Maddy

Dear everyone who cared,

I'm sorry I pissed you off. I'm sorry I made everyone I love and loves me mad. Im sorry for being a suicidal bitch okay. I can't help it. I hate myself and others hate me. I'm sorry for everything I've done. Im sorry for being myself, cause knows one cares or like it. I'm sorry for even living. I shouldn't even be alive, no seriously. If my brother and sister's mom wouldn't have died, then my dad and mom would've never gotten married and had me. I wish she was still here. I love you all, but everyone keeps saying stuff about me, and I've gotten into a lot of fights, and been broken and bruised, and my ankle is sprained, my hands are bruised, my heart aches, and my soul is dead. Dead, it's black and withered away.... it's ashes. I'm sorry for everything I've ever done to anyone. I'm sorry for every single thing I've ever done, good and bad. Cause I've just messed it up. I am a screw up who has f**ked up everyone's life who's ever encountered me. All of you probably think the Same thing... and that's that you don't want me in your lives... if you don't, just tell me.... If you do... I don't know what to tell you because no one wants me in their life. I love you all... Even if you don't feel the same...

💗 Love a horrible friend 💗
😲🔫 Maddy S. 😲🔫