I just want you happy ,loved,cared,and cuddle with me please stay with me i know i keep doing this when i want to be left alone i know what you go through and i know what u have been through I'm sorry for hurting you senpai please stay i still want to be with you i don't want you killing yourself i want you here with me cuddling me i know i made you upset at times but mostly i don't mean this happening i don't mean all of this happening i still love you so much i love the way you bring me close to you as i lay your head on your chest listening to your heart beat its soothing that its still going everyday i love that i love being loved and cared for I just sometimes i have mental break downs that i should calm down and i should handle it and i should just let you love me and i know it hurts but that's what relationships go through sometimes pain but i want this relationship to last a lifetime please just stay with me or just keep living on i want you pulling me in a hug everyday i want to be the one pulled and loved by you i really do and probably this chapter can change for better or good i just want you happy with me i want to be holding you like you hold me Doug ,I love you