You are a dream which I can see coming true with my open eyes.

When I met you, I knew i had met my soulmate and my lover.

You are in my thoughts every single moment of the day.

All I want is to be in your arms.

I want to spend every single moment of my life just by your side.

You are so dear to me that from all the beautiful things in the world I just desire you.

My life is complete only with you in my life.

We are like two strong magnets that connect beautifully in every possible sense.

You are my eternal soulmate and I will stay by your side till the end of my days

We are so perfect together like two hearts and two souls in beautiful harmony.

~~~

Aarti Khurana.

~~~

Well if my heart could speak on behalf of me I am very sure it would have shared the same sentiments of the above mentioned thoughts.

I know..

...looking at my condition..

...many will say..

..that's it's not my true feelings..

..rather...

...it's some sort of infatuation that's talking on my behalf.

Very easily the world will tag it as "LUST"

Maybe they are correct...

Because..

...unfortunately...

...this fact can't be denied that just like any man gets attracted to a woman..

...even I am attracted to Nandini.

Only difference being..

..I am attracted to her in the WORST WAY POSSIBLE.

She not only possess my heart but she owns my soul too.

She runs in every single vein of mine..

..in fact..

..she is the colour of my blood.

I don't know how Nandini Murthy became the centre of my personal universe.

...I honestly have no clue about how I ended up becoming a person whose existence is filled with excessive and single-minded zeal..

...infact..

..a person with an obsessive interest in and enthusiasm..

...relating to one and sole person only..

...NANDINI.

The main problem is that..

...I simply have no clue in the whole wide world that how should I stop it.

However..

...still that isn't my main concern as there is something else that tops the priority list of major concern..

..as it's something else altogether.

Want to know what it is..

..that my heart is simply has no intention to find a solution to it..

..as it's just doesn't want to stop.

In fact every single time I look at her..

...only I know how I control my barbaric and devilish side.

Because..

...every single time my eyes fall on her..

...it presses all the wrong buttons at that same time.

All my heart wants..

All my heart craves...

All my heart desires...

...is to be close to her..

...in the worst way possible.

I want to mark every single inch of her existence with the unbridled passion that's burning me from the inside pretty much since the day i laid my eyes on her.

I want her to moan in submission when I would occupy not only every single inch of body..but..every single inch of her soul.

I want her to writhe in passion beneath me.

I want her to scream my name when I will take her to the ultimate heights of ecstasy.

I want to be the one who will complete her existence in every way possible.

Yes...

...that's something that genuinely feel..

...and I am not scared to admit that.

Because indeed..

...Nandini is every man's dream come true..

..and this rule has just no exception.

However..

..it's not only her body that I crave.

No..

I crave for her soul..

I crave for her heart..

I crave intimacy with her..not only physical...but emotional too.

I don't want to own her...as she isn't a property or asset that can be owned..

...but...

..I want to rule her heart

...her mind...

...her soul.

I want to be close to her not only physically but emotionally and mentally too.

And I want her to feel exactly what I feel for her.

Yes..

I have licentious feelings for her which is indeed very common for a man who is so hopelessly attracted to a woman...

..and why not..

..after all..

..Nandini is drop dead gorgeous..

..so having these kinds of thoughts is pretty natural.

However for me..

...the step that comes way before this..

..and the step that lasts even when this lecherous emotions have passed away..

...is earning her trust.

Because until and unless I win her trust I can't win her heart.

My lecherous and indecent feelings can never compete with I feel for Nandini...from the bottom of my heart.

In fact I can spend my entire life gawking at her..

..without touching...

...just by looking at her..

..innocent,naive and beautiful face...

...and won't ever regret that.

Because my feelings for Nandini isn't dependent on any physical intimacy...

...never have...

...never will.

And Man..

..how can someone not fall for her.

I mean..

...just look at her.

She continued to walk towards me as I continued to gawk shamelessly at her.

She was all dolled up..

..dressed in a red colour dress.

..my favourite colour.

And Man..

..was she looking ethereal.

As if an angel had descended from the heaven..

..just for me.

I would have continued to gawk at her if it wasn't for Aryaman.,

...who cleared his throat several times.

Honestly that was hell annoying..

I so wanted to slaughter his existence by cutting his throat..

...but that's when my trance got broken and I realised the real reason behind his actions...

..honestly I couldn't be any more thankful to him.

I guess...

...even he deserve a raise.

But that's something I would think later..

..as right now I have way more important situation to look upto.

For example : Nandini.

She finally came and stopped right in front of me. However she wasn't looking at me..as she was looking down but unfortunately I wasn't able to keep my eyes off her.

I am sure she must have felt my intense gaze on her that's why to broke my trance she spoke "I am sorry to keep you waiting Sir..the thing is I didn't knew what to wear as I haven't went to such high profile events before...so.."however she stopped abruptly because she heard me saying "..BEAUTIFUL.."

Her head snapped up and her eyes widened as she heard the most unexpected thing from my mouth. "Sir..Excuse Me.."

Her words finally broke my reverie and I realised the blunder that I just did.

I complimented her....

...that too out loud.

God..

What did I just do..

EMERGENCY!!! EMERGENCY!!! EMERGENCY!!!

But fortunately my brain came into use..

..as I found a perfect way to deviate the topic.

"You are Excused Miss.Murthy.."

Nandini looked back at me with confused eyes which meant I was on the right path so i continued "..I was referring to your house.."

Unwillingly I looked away from her and pointed towards her house that I didn't noticed at first place "Your house..it's really beautiful.." i took few steps towards it "..I am in love with the ambience..it's so peaceful.."

Then finally I looked back at her (thanks heaven for that..) and continued with my pretence "..it's very difficult to believe that these kind of place do exist in this city..I am actually surprised.."

Nandini's facial expressions changed immediately as she clearly became more relaxed "..true sir.."even she looked back at the house "..my grandfather made this for my grandmother...when he passed away my grandmother couldn't live here anymore because this reminded her of him..way too much.."

"..this place was locked for years..until my Chacha shifted to Mumbai for his job.."she finally looked back at me. "..this place makes us feel protected as if my grandfather is still present over here..looking over us.."

Her words brought an automatic smile on my place "..those who love someone truly are never really gone Nandini..I am sure your grandfather is definitely looking over you all..just like you mentioned."

Nandini was about to say something when out of the blue Aryaman cleared his throat once again breaking my trance..

..as once again I realised that I was lost.

HE DEFINITELY DESERVES A RAISE.

I looked at my watch only to realise that indeed we are running late for the Fashion Show.

My eyes fell on Nandini who was fidgeting and was shifting her weight from one leg to another. So I chose to brought her out of her misery.

"We are running late for the Fashion Show.."
(Not that i care..however...since that was my excuse to spent some quality time with her..unfortunately I had to care..)

"..let's go.."

I gestured her to take the lead.

"Yes Sir.."saying this she started walking towards the car.

Aryaman opened the gate for her and she got in but not before mumbling "THANK YOU" to which he simply nodded without uttering a word.

Once she got in he closed the door and rushed to the other side to open the door for me.

I simply looked at him..

..but as always his face gave nothing away.

However his eyes did..

..which clearly stated that he was ecstatic..

...for me.

WHAT!!!

He was happy for me..

..which was clearly evident from the way he was looking at me..

...but what to know the worst part..

..his happiness was making me happy.

Yes..

I was ecstatic too.

GOD!! WHAT WAS HAPPENING!!

I looked around only to find the same expression that was on Aryaman's face on the faces of the member of my security team..

..and they all had that very same known expression etched on their faces.

I saw genuine happiness in eyes of not only his but on the faces of all my employees who were present over there...

...because of which I WAS TAKEN ABACK.

Sighing I got into the car..

..as now I decided..

..that all they too DESERVE A RAISE.

WHAT THE HELL WAS HAPPENING!!

Why all of a sudden was I feeling so generous.

What's happening to me..

Then out of nowhere just like a reflex action..

..my eyes fell on the face of the girl who was sitting right next to me..

..and I got my answer..

....that...

...all of this was so worth it.

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