Kira

When I woke I groaned from the instant pounding in my head. I stilled after all the memories came back to me. I opened my eyes and cringed as the light blinded me. My head throbbed and I breathed deeply trying to calm the throb down. Opening my eyes more slowly I looked around and nearly burst into tears. I was home, in the pack house.

I looked around better and sniffed, Alex's comforting scent filled my nose and then I seen him curled up in a chair. I just stared at him, I barely remember him freeing me. Fear suddenly filled me. What does he think of me now? Seeing me like that? Where was Darius? What happened? The questions raced through my mind and I didn't realize I was hyperventilating until the monitor next to me began to beep. The next thing I knew Alex was holding my hand and a doctor I recognized was there telling me to breath.

After a few moments I was able to calm down. I looked at Alex and smiled lightly.

"How do you feel Kira?" He asked softly, tierdly. I could tell just by looking at him that he hadn't slept much. His eyes had dark grey circles under them, they we're also blood shot.

I slowly moved, expecting to feel pain but was happy and relieved when no pain came. "Besides a pounding headache I feel fine?" I was a bit confused as to how.

Alex looked past me and I looked between him and the doctor as they exchanged looks. "What?" I asked a bit louder than I expected.

Alex quickly took my hand, and I almost jerked it back in surprise. "Kira- you weren't healing on your own. In fact you weren't healing at all." Alex began but the doctor cut in, "we found wolvesbane in your system, thankfully in small doses but your body wasn't filtering it so in all it was rather large especially for a newly shifted wolf." The doctor paused and I was waiting expectantly. "Luna-" my eyes instantly widened but I didn't say anything. "Your practically human. Your wolf- wasn't able to survive not only the physical abuse being so new but also the chemical abuse.."

I stared blankly at him for the longest time. I felt numb, after surviving that hellish time with Darius and now he is telling me I have no wolf? Alex grabbed my face, making me look at him. I didn't realize I had began to cry until his eyes filled with pain and he wiped the tears away.

"Baby nothing has changed-" he began but I cut him off. "Nothing has changed?!" I yelled, "everything has changed Alex!"

Alex looked at me for a moment then to the doctor who silently slipped out the door. "Kira, your still my mate and the Luna to the night pack. I still love you just as much as before and more with each day. I was terrified that I'd never see you again, never get to show you just how much you mean to, how much I love you!"

I watched Alex's eyes turn glassy with unshed tears and I felt guilty for thinking he'd actually throw me to the side. That he didn't care as much about me as I did him. "I love you so much Kira. Nothing and no one will ever change that. I won't ever make you talk about what happened, but if you ever want or need to I'll always listen."

My eyes filled with tears at Alex's speech, he did care about me. He did love me, and he had proven it. If he still wanted me after what he'd seen and knowing I no longer had a wolf then that was all I needed. I hugged him tightly and he didn't hesitate to wrap his arms around me. I could still feel the comfort, still had my scent, so I wondered did this mean that I just couldn't shift? I buried my head into Alex's shoulder and pushed the thoughts away. For now all I needed and wanted was to be in my mates arms.