Yanli saw Yibo rushing in his room and quickly followed him back, hearing sob sounds she got startled and held his arm "Yibo, my dear why are you crying? what happened?"

"i'm leaving jiejie" 

"but why, i know your parents are already back but weren't you willing to live with Zhan for longer time?"

"don't mention him with me" said Yibo with wiping his tears, he sat on the bed and pitifully looked at Yanli, the latter one hugged him tightly petting his back

"what did that silly man do? to make you cry"

"guess everything was just my illusion Yanli, he doesn't love me and he has no faith in my love too.  Zhan acted all rude and harsh just because my dream to became idol"

"wait, at his company?"

"yes"

"oh dear, you just got yourself in big trouble, this is so complicated cause you don't know many things, my brother has his own reasons but it's better to hear everything from him.  i'm sure Zhan will realize his mistake soon, he won't lose you like that"

"but i won't forgive him" mumbled Yibo

"i know you're very upset and unable to think calmly, but let's wait for him ok? please Yibo don't leave"

"i can't stay at the house which is full of  memories about him and us. see you later jiejie, i love you" Yibo kissed Yanli and left the room holding his suitcase.

*****

Zhan was sitting at the meeting table but his mind was only wondering about Yibo, remembering his painful face and  tears

"Mr Xiao, we have already decided about trainees, would you like to see their information?"

"no it's ok, i trust you"

"But i have to say, one of them really left unforgettable impression, that boy didn't ever prepared before, he just found out about competition today,  but his performance was still perfect, it's easy to see how much he loves dancing, every step he makes is full of spirit and passion. Think we found new talent boss"

"Zhan look at this" Yu Bin took picture and handled it to Zhan

seeing Yibo's happy, smiling face Zhan feel his heart breaking into pieces "he didn't know about competition?"

"yes right, Li Xian asked us to still give him chance and we didn't regret, his free style is just amazing"

"i'm such a idiot" whispered Zhan and quickly got up  "sorry but i have something very important to do, Yu Bin will lead meeting"

*****

Cheng arrived at the house, located quite far from the city. He recognized Zhan's cottage, friends visited once before to have fun. Cheng looked around and finally saw Haikuan, sitting on the grass, staring at the horizon.

"I found you" Cheng sat next to him, gently touching his arm

"You came, that means you missed me" smile brightened Haikuan's face

"Sure i missed my grumpy cat  fri..." Cheng stopped "i'm sorry"

"For what?" Haikuan was surprised seeing Cheng all serious like that

"For hurting you, for escaping from your feelings, for acting like dumb"

"Aren't you really?" Teased Haikuan

"Hey you" laughed Cheng and hit his back "i have something to tell you, actually i remembered that night later, i mean our kiss"

"Cheng why you didn't tell me?"

"Cause i was scared, scared of losing you" Cheng lowered his head "it's so long time we're friends and i did something like that, thought you're angry and disgusted at me, so i acted like nothing happened"

"you silly one" Haikuan pulled Cheng closer and hugged him tightly "i couldn't stop thinking about you, it was so hard for me too to accept my feelings towards you, i know we're long time friends but my love can't fit in friendship kind of anymore.  can you give me chance? chance to love you"

"if it won't work?" Cheng broke the hug, looking at Haikuan with tearful eyes  "i don't want to lost someone precious like you, if we're wrong if our feelings..."

"i'll make it work, i'll make you to love me so so much" by saying that Haikuan moved his face closer and softly pecked on Cheng's lips, holding his neck. He stopped, shyly looking in his eyes

"i won't break" teased Cheng and hopped on his lap, pushing their lips together again, warm feelings ran over their bodies, Haikuan wrapped his arms around Cheng's waist and started passionately sucking his lips, inserting tongue in his mouth. he was willing to go farther but...

"damn this phone, why now?"

"who is that?"

"hey Cheng think there is something wrong with our baby" said Haikuan worryingly

"Yibo?"

"yes, we have to go back, Yanli is waiting for us, but before that..." Haikuan leaned closer again and quickly bit Cheng's neck, causing latter one scream from pain

"what was that for?" cried him out

"for making me suffer, i'll punish you better later. just wait" Haikuan smirked at him and helped to get up

"i'm waiting, don't take long time" didn't hesitate Cheng

*****

Zhan rushed into the house, searching for Yibo, seeing empty room without any trace of him, Zhan felt unbearable fear of losing Yibo forever

"he left, i know what do you feel gege but still how could you" 

"that evil who destroyed my life is back Yanli and i just threw all my anger on Yibo, thinking he is the same" Zhan's chin started trembling, trying to held his tears "if he leaves me"

"Yibo loves you too much, that is why he's too hurt now. don't force him, just be honest. tell him everything that is kept in your heart ok? fighting gege" 

Zhan smiled at her and quickly ran to Yibo's house, Ms Wang opened the door, surprised by seeing sudden guest  "Zhan it's you, come in did our Yibo bother you while staying at your house, hope he was behaving well"

"Yibo is... He is very adorable" smiled Zhan  "actually i came here to talk to him, can i?"

"he closed himself in the room today and not willing to go out. i don't know the reason,  but you can try, wish he agree"

"thanks aunt" Zhan nodded to her and walked on the stairs. it was first time he visited Yibo's home but could recognize his room at first glance cause of many posters of dancers. Zhan knocked on the door.

"Yibo it's me, your silly gege. please open the door ok? i want to explain, know i don't deserve your forgiveness but i'm so sorry, i'm really sorry.

Hearing no reply for a minutes Zhan leaned at the door and kept talking "you're right, i had never ask what did you like, what do you dream about, all i cared about was my pain and fears. you gave me your pure love without asking anything but i didn't value it. The words i told you, wish i can brought it back but... Still i won't give up this easily, like you didn't give up on me before. i won't leave from here until you talk to me, so please please come out"

the door slowly opened and Zhan almost couldn't recognize the boy standing in front of him. Yibo's eyes're red and swollen cause of crying, his always blushed cheeks looked pale now, even his lips lost it's rosy color. Zhan moved forward to hold him, but Yibo avoided his touch and sat on the bed.

"i'll listen, but no need to touch me"

"ok i won't" said Zhan with shaking voice and knelt in front of Yibo "think it's time to tell you everything about my past now, i'll be honest. the boy i was talking to today, did you recognize him?"

"isn't he celebrity? i saw him on the TV"

"you saw him in the picture too, with me. he was my lover before"  Yibo's eyes widened in surprise  "when we first met he was the pure guy who dreamed about being idol like you. i fell in love with him like crazy and thought he loved me too but i was wrong. he changed after receiving everything he could from me and just left leaving me in unbearable pain. All of that his new lover was my friend. You remembered me as happy man during our first meet no? But i changed suddenly later, you know the reason now. The feeling of betrayal  made me crazy, i lost trust in people. I wasn't willing to get close with someone anymore.

Today when you told me about your plans i felt like story was repeating itself. Like i'm going to be left alone again, but this time i can't survive this"

"Gege"

"I'll die Yibo, i'll die without you, the fear of losing you made me realize how strong my feelings for you is" Zhan stopped a little, wiping tears,  blurring  his vision "thought i couldn't fell in love again, but you changed everything in me, you made my heart soft and full of love again.  I want to be your gege, your husband to be, even pooh you'll hold every night. I can't breath without you, you're my world, you're everything i need to keep living"

"Gege i'm sorry too" Yibo lowered his head "i'm..."

"Don't answer me now, i want you to think well" Zhan stopped him "and about your dream, keep going towards it i won't stop you. But it isn't going to be easy ride for you and for me too. You're way too soft for this industry but i'll be  always there for you, as someone you can lean on and share your hardships"

Zhan got up and carefully held Yibo's hand, scared he would avoid him again. But yibo stayed still, causing hope in Zhan's heart   "first practice is after two days, i'll wait for you, if you come that means you forgive me too" Zhan walked towards the door, leaving last words before going out

"I love you my puppy"

Ok Zhan did his best, it's yibo's turn now to decide 😊

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And i'm tired, no more sadness in next chapter 😅