Because I felt lazy today, i am skipping proof reading for now. I might do it in the evening. So if you're a grammar-nazi, read this later good bye

Lan Wangji was suffering. He was suffering badly. It had been over a month and he hasn't heard anything from Wei Wuxian. Of course, he knows that Wei Wuxian is going to be safe and sound at the burial mounds. But that doesn't mean that he is not dying to see him.

Everyday, his heart is beating faster and faster. His temptation to just fuck it all and leave to see Wei Wuxian has been growing at a rapid speed. But he can't. He can't. Having continuously someone monitor him, he cannot risk it. He can't risk letting Lady Baoshan's hide out, and especially not Wei Wuxian's location.

Even, right now, as Lan Wangji sat in his study, correcting the test papers of younger disciples, his hands were shivering wildly, he was breathing heavily as all he could think about was Wei Wuxian.

It was two months now. Lan Wangji still hasn't contacted Wei Wuxian. He at least wants to let Wei Wuxian know the reason of his absence. He is aware of Wei Wuxian's nature. Overthinking and self-blaming will cause Wei Wuxian to have a mental break down soon. Lan Wangji knows.

He can't have that. He had failed Wei Ying once, he cannot do it again.

Three months have passed.

Lan Wangji is lying down on his bed, tearing silently in memory of Wei Wuxian. He misses him. He fucking misses him so bad. Its worse than ever, because now Wei Wuxian was more special than he ever was before. Lan Wangji cannot handle this distance any longer.

"Lan Wangji, you need to go and conduct the classes, its already eight in the morning. Get up and get going already." Lan Nuying said, reminding.

Lan Wangji turned to his side, avoiding her like plague. "I refuse."

Four months.

If anyone who has felt Lan Wangji suffer, it would be Lan Nuying. Lan Nuying was a quite admirable person. An excellent cultivator, a clever intellectual and a gracious beauty. She was around the same age as Lan Wangji, in her mind twenties, a lovely virgin maiden. Well, virgin maiden, only in the eyes of the orthodox elders.

And even though she was perfect in every way, Lan Wangji utterly despised her at this point. She was the reason he was trapped. She was why he couldn't meet his Wei Wuxian. She was the reason of his suffering.

But its not like she isnt suffering as well. She has people to watch and better things to do than watch over a madman from getting to his lover. But she is also not at a position to disobey any of the elders. So she has to continue this duty till she is said.

And five months now.

Lan Wangji had And five months now. gone insane. He refused to eat, refused to work, refused to get out of his room. He had gone mad. He shouted for Wei Ying as if he would come to him by that. He spent hours weeping to himself. He has gotten desperate. He would try to escape out of his window, only to be stopped by Lan Nuying.

He wouldn't ever understand until he is sane again that Lan Nuying was trying her best to help him. "For fuck's sake, Lan Wangji! Control yourself! They will come behind you if you try to get out of here!" She shouted out of frustration. The last two months have been extremely difficult for her to handle Lan Wangji, let alone her other personal problems.

"I want to get to Wei Ying! I am worried." Lan Wangji cried. Lan Nuying had no choice but to tie his hands to the bed post so he doesn't start running like a lunatic again.

"Well, you think you are the only one who has problems? What about me, ever thought about it? Do I not have my loved ones? But I am not going crazy, running off like a maniac, am I? I am not going hysterical, am I? So shut the fuck up and let me rest for a minute too. I have a fucking life, if you ever cared to acknowledge." Ad yes, even though Lan Nuying seems like the perfect disciple, she breaks a lot of rules. But she also knows when and where to break them so to not get punished.

Lan Wangji chuckled sadly. "Its different for you and me. I cannot go and meet my lover. You have been holding me back."

"And you have been holding back me, Lan Wangji! I cannot go to my family because I need to continuously keep an eye on you!" Lan Nuying glared at him. She chuckled sarcastically "I am sorry, if your highness thought he was the only one born with feelings, that if he is the only one who has a lover to look after. Because of you, I have not seen my wife and child in the town in five months! So just stop fucking around and causing a chaos. I cannot look after you forever, I need to go and meet the people I love too."

Lan Wangji paused. He never knew Lan Nuying had a love partner... Especially, a wife. "I didn't know you... But you are... Why didn't you..." He failed to find the most suitable words which will not have him get slapped.

"What, I cannot love a girl? You can love a guy, but are so shocked that I love a lady." She sighed, clearly offended. "You mean are true hypocrites! I'd have cut off your dick for all this nonsense if I really could!"

"You could... You could have your family come and live here in Cloud Recesses, since you are married. I cannot do that." Lan Wangji continued reasoning.

Lan Nuying gritted her teeth in anger. "Easy for you to say, bonkerhead! This wierd society is barely ready to accept two men falling in love, but at least they acknowledge it. The very few people I ever told that I like girls, called me delusional. As if a woman can't like other woman. What do I say to get my wife here? She is my very good friend, please allow her to stay? Friend, my bloody foot, I have fucked with her."

Lan Wangji stayed silent. Lan Nuying breathed out her anger.

"What do we do?" Lan Wangji asked, tired.

"I don't know." Lan Nuying shook her head. "Whatever it is, you have to do. And do it fast, please. I am just as desperate as you are, if not more, to go back in town and see my family."

Its been six months, and then seven.

Lan Wangji is as good as dead now. He has lost his will to do anything. To sleep, to eat, to cry, to escape. He cannot think of any way how he could ever escape here. But he needs to go. Wei Ying heeds him. He needs Wei Ying.

He is hyperventilating.

His vision is blurry.

He is sobbing and his desperation is out of control.

He wants to see Wei Ying.

He needs to see Wei Ying.

"Nuying! Lan Nuying! Do something! I need to see Wei Ying, i am gonna go lunatic if I don't see him." Lan Wangji begged, having a panic attack.

"Oh, you think about it now?"

"Please, Lan Nuying, please! I beg you. Do something. I really need to see Wei Ying. Just for once, I just need to see how it is. Even just a hour is enough, but please get me out of here." Lan Wangji fell on his knees in front of Lan Nuying.

The lady sighed, rubbing her temples. "Fine, I have a small plan."

So Lan Nuying is like basically Wen Qing, but meaner and gayer.