Weeks went by and Jamircle got to quit her two early day jobs because she got a better job at some company. She also started dating this very nice and handsome man. Since she was so happy she finally let me go out for the weekend and that's how I met Mason. I was at my friend ,Denise, house which was right down the street from mines. We were in the yard doing dance stunts and these two boys came over. We all started talking and laughing and I couldn't help but stare at Mason. I had always dreamed that one day I would date this light-skin boy with pretty eyes and a pretty smile. However I fell for a dark-skin boy with pretty eyes, a beautiful smile, and a hilarious personality. After the two boys left I asked Denise about him. I never noticed him at school until after I started crushing. Denise boyfriend Derrick was actually good friends with him and so of course Denise and Derrick tried to play the matchmakers. Truth be told I was very happy because Mason and I ended up dating. Of course Jamircle didn't know because I wasn't allowed to date however me and Mason were only like best friends we never kissed or anything but we both cared a lot for each other.

AT HOME

Jaclyn: So mom how was your date?

Jamircle: Good and why are you still up missy? she said playfully hitting my head

Jaclyn: I wanted to know how your date went.

Jamircle: Noisy.... but it was great. These last few weeks have literally been the best and I hope that things continue to work out for us.

Jaclyn: "AWWWWW" I got up and hugged her "Me too mom."

The next day

Teacher: what's the answer to # 9

Jaclyn: 524

Teacher: what about number 10

Jaclyn: 28

Teacher: Ok anybody other than Jaclyn

Linsey: We would try but she doesn't give anyone else time to answer

Davina: yeah she wants all of your attention let her have it.

Bell Rings

The Class Leaves out and Jaclyn is still getting her stuff together

Teacher: Are you ok Jaclyn.....

There's a long silence

Teacher: Don't listen to them they.........

Jaclyn interrupts her

Jaclyn: I'm not worried about that I'm good.

I walked out of the class and into the hallway were Brianna and Alice were talking.

Alice: hey Jaclyn

Jaclyn: Hi I said slamming my stuff into my locker

Brianna: What's wrong

Jaclyn: Nothing ok

Alice: Something has to be wrong

Jaclyn: Ughhh I said it's nothing people just don't understand

Savanna walked by and said "Ugh that's that stuck up girl that's in most of my classes and she thinks she's better than everyone just because she's smart when really being smart is the only things she got going for her I mean look at her she's unattractive, and lame no one likes her and I heard she's messy."

Brianna: Chill Savanna because I swear you don't want any of these problems

Savanna: O so your her bodyguard now

Alice: O and someone is supposed to be scared of you

Jaclyn: Y'all relax she's my problem

Savanna: (laughs) o am I supposed to be scared (she said sarcastically)

Jaclyn: (I closed my locker and looked Savanna straight in her eyes) Savanna I might be a lot of things but at least I'm not fake. At least I don't walk around this school like the baddest chick in town or ms. popular when really all those supposedly friends are talking about you as soon as you turn the corner. Or I wasn't talking about someone to my supposedly best friend yet didn't tell her that you kissed her boyfriend was it just yesterday?

I said while looking back at my two close friend while high fiving them and Savanna and her little friend scurried away.

Brianna: Don't worry bout people like that your cool in our eyes Jaclyn

Jaclyn: O trust me I'm not worried popularity, being cool, and all these other childish games are extremely useless after high school.

Later That Day I met up with Mason. We went skating were we skated all night long and drowned ourselves in laughs, pizza, and all the candy we could afford to buy. The next night we went to the movies and honestly I can't recall what we went to see because I was too busy laying on his chest imagining the future we would have together.

That Night

Jamircle: So how was the movies?

Jaclyn: O it was very good

Jamircle: So what was it about?

Jaclyn: Um I don't really recall

Jamircle: and why is that?

Jaclyn: I honestly went to sleep on most of it

Jamircle: That doesn't really sound right.

Jaclyn: look mom you don't have to worry about me.

Jamircle: I know I don't because you guys are only friends

Jaclyn: yes "only friends"

"Only Friends" became the phrase that caused me a lot of pain but let me not get ahead of myself.

The Next Day

Mason: How about we go for a walk after school

Jaclyn: Sure

AFTER SCHOOL

Mason: So we've been dating for about 2 months now and I feel that we should be able to do something to make it official.

Jaclyn: It's already official silly

Mason pulled me in and we kissed well he kissed me and his hands slowly started to wonder.

Jaclyn: No, don't, I mean I can't

Mason: Come on

Jaclyn: No hon I can't

Mason: Why not babe

Jaclyn: I'm already lying to my God-mother I'm not even supposed to have a boyfriend and this is really me crossing the line.

Mason: O

He had this sad look on his face

Jaclyn: I'm so sorry I trust you but....

Mason: No you don't have to explain

His phone then beeped he looked down

Mason: Um my mom needs me back at home let me walk you home first

Jaclyn: ok

Back At Home

Aisha: Jaclyn something is wrong with mother

Jaclyn: Where is she?

Aisha: In her room

I went to go check on her and the first thing I saw were bottles containing alcoholic beverages by her bed as she laid awkwardly on the bed

Jaclyn: Aisha do you have a friend that lives on this street

Aisha: Yea, but I'm old enough to know what's going on around here why do you always send me somewhere else

Jaclyn: You're younger you shouldn't have to see this

Aisha: Only a year

Jaclyn: It's more like 2

Aisha: the point is that I'm a pre-teen I should know what's happening with my mommies.

Jaclyn: Stop arguing with me and leave now

Aisha: Ugh (she stumped out)

Jaclyn: Jamircle............Jamircle.............JAMIRCLE

Jamircle: shhhhhhh I got a head-ache

Jaclyn: O I wonder why (I sarcastically said as I held up a bottle)

Jamircle: Look I'm not drunk

Jaclyn: Um are we sure

Jamircle: I drunk those around 1

Jaclyn: What were you doing home that early?

Jamircle: I got fired...... (she sarcastically started to laugh and I set down on the bed) turns out the man of my dreams has a wife who happened to be my boss well ex-boss. Its a shame I got punished yet I didn't know I was played just as much as she was.

Jaclyn: Jamircle it's going to be ok

Jamircle: No it's not. I've been told that my whole life. It was just me and my mom until she passed when I was 9. Then, I was passed from foster home to foster home and I only had one friend and that was your mother I watched her excel in everything and she had a chance to become something great but I held her back and now she's in a rehabilitation because she's gotten very sick and sometimes I blame myself. I'm a lonely person and I don't know why I can't find just one person to actually care for me.

Jaclyn: I care

Jamircle: I know but I can't go to the club and party with you. and your not the man of my dreams

Jaclyn: Don't stress yourself out over this I promise it'll get better

Jamircle: Please don't make promises like that........... just give me a little time I need some rest.

I went found Aisha brought her home and explained everything that happened to her. Once we ate sandwiches we both went into our separate rooms.

Dear Diary,

I was hoping to tell Jamircle the truth about what happened with me and Mason today but I guess it wasn't meant to be told. He said it was ok but I know it wasn't hopefully tomorrow when he sees me everything will still be the same but my gut keeps telling me that things are going to change. I couldn't let him keep kissing me because certain things have happened to me in my past and I still have trust issues and I was very uncomfortable so.............. but all I know is that things are going to change I don't know if it's for the better or worst but I have this weird gut filling that nothing will ever be the same.

THE NEXT DAY

I was in class actually quiet today because I really didn't feel like hearing people rude comments and all of a sudden I got a text message.

Text Reads

Mason: I love you I really do but you know I think we should just be friends

Jaclyn: Yeah I figured that

Mason: So we good?

I didn't reply to that text because I would either have to tell the truth or lie. I didn't want to lie and say that I was good when I wasn't and I didn't want to text a full paragraph about my feelings because it would've just been a waste of time. In my head I kept trying to convince myself that things could only get better from here, however if only I would've known that it would be the exact opposite.