Next Day.

I woke up with a terrible headache. I convinced myself to open my eyes and at least check the time.
'6:23' it displayed.

I had a thought of skipping school that day, but that's when I recalled that Shawn is going to come. I wouldn't miss a chance to see him. I didn't care about the headache no more. All I cared about at the moment was to see Shawn for hours, I don't even know after how many days.
I missed him so much, all these days. It's like after he moved out with his family, the connection was lost between me and him. The two of us.
I knew he was mad at me for some reason that I wasn't aware of, yet. I really wanted to know about it. I wanted to know things. I wanted answers to so many questions. Of course I wasn't going to tell him that I love him yet, but I needed to know about him. His feelings. His thoughts.

"Ugh," I groaned and pushed myself out of the bed, and tumbled.

What is wrong with me? Why can't I walk straight?
I tried hard and went to take a shower.
I felt better after. I wore a black and white striped over-sized crop top, paired it with a pair of black leggings. I took my black jacket and backpack before running downstairs. I had my cereals and some blueberries.
I had a lot of time left, at least fifteen more minutes. I sat on the couch and went through my phone. After checking all my accounts, I went into gallery.

Sigh. Those eight pictures of me and Shawn, from the day he left. Those multiple shots.
He was smiling, smirking, winking, showing his tongue, making a duck face, more smiling and in one he had no reaction at all. I just smiled there, like a fool, in every picture.

I got up from the couch and walked of the door, closing it behind me. I skated to school. Aria enetered the class after fifteen minutes.

"Look who came early today?" Aria mocked.
"Good morning," I greeted with a broad smile.
"What happened?" she frowned.
"I don't know what you are talking about," I said.
"Why are you so happy?" she asked.
"Because-" I was cut off.

"Good morning class," said Miss Campbell, after keeping her books on the desk.

Aria sighed and sat on the chair beside me.
Where was Shawn?
Was he late or was he going to ditch school?

I sighed feeling he wouldn't come.

Miss Campbell was our Geography teacher. Aria, I, and Shawn shared her class together.
After ten more minutes of her speech on The Big Bang Theory, and taking down notes, the door opened, revealing a breathless Shawn Collins.

A smile crept on my face.

Aria looked at Shawn and back at me, again at Shawn and back at me. She kept on doing that for fifteen good seconds.

Shawn started telling the teacher why he ran late and –

"Ahem," Aria fake coughed.
"Hi," I said, dreamily, without looking at her.

Aria shook me back to life.

"What the hell? Have you gone nuts? You cannot zone out. He is here," Aria said with wide eyes.
"Yes, he came. I saw," I said excited.
"Do you realize that, there are no more empty chairs, except the one beside you?" She pointed.

My eyes widened, and mouth formed an 'O' as reflex.

"So, you cannot zone out. Be normal. You need to get your shit together," she finished, emphasizing the word 'cannot.'
"Yeah," I nodded.
"Yeah?" she asked for confirmation.
"Yeah," I said, louder than before.

Shawn took long steps and sat on the chair beside me.

"Good morning," Aria said, with a small smile.
"Morning," Shawn said with deep voice, and no smile.

No. He cannot be in a bad mood. Not today.
He was already mad at me, and now a bad mood was like the cherry on the top.
Why me?

I mentally sighed. I looked at Aria and she rolled her eyed. I facepalmed and started taking down notes again.

My life, sucks.

After the bell rang, Shawn rushed out of the class.

"Go, and talk to him," Aria ordered.
"Yeah sure," I mocked "and what exactly should I tell him? Shawn, I really love you, can you please not be weird and be normal with me all over again?" I finished.
"Look, I don't know why he is acting like that with you, but-" before listening to her, I walked out of the class.

I could hear her call my name, but I wanted answers.
I scanned the corridor and saw Shawn walking out of the gate, towards the parking place.

What did he even come to school for? 

I ran out of the gate to the parking lot and I was behind Shawn. If he's not going to man up and tell me his problem then, atleast I have to try one time. I needed to sort things. I didn't even know what his problem was and he was being so weird with me. 

I held his arm, "Shawn wait," I said, looking at my shoe.
"What?" he said turning around.

I looked up at him. Oh Lord, his eyes. I looked back at my shoe.

"I... uh... wanted-" I was beyond nervous.
"Nevermind Mel," he said.

He jerked away his arm off my grip and started walking away.

"No, wait," I said, looking up and standing at my position.

He stopped.

"Why are you mad at me?" I finally let the question out on the thin air.
"Why does it matter?" Shawn said looking at the ground.
"It does Shawn. Just tell me, please?" I said.
"Talk to you later," he said and started walking away again.

I swear, if I didn't love him, I would've stabbed him by this time.

"Look at you Shawn, you can't even look at me in the eyes, what's the deal?" I asked from behind, still standing at the same place.

He started walking towards me. I could feel his breath, that's how close he came. My heartbeat went crazy.

"You are the deal," he said, his eyes piercing through mine.
"W-what?" I stuttered, taking a few steps back.
"I don't know what you did to me. Why does it even matter to me? I hate you, cause everything related to you matters to me," his voice broke at the end.
"I don't get anything that you are saying. You need to get these out cause they are bothering you. So, keep saying," I suggested.

His words were hurting me. But, I needed to listen to him. To his feelings. His thoughts.

"Look Mel, you got to leave me alone, you can't play with my feelings," he finished.
"Why would I ever play with your feelings?" I asked confused.
"Leave. Me. Alone." he said.
"I can't and I will never do that," I whispered.

"Why? Are you bored and need someone to play with?" he asked.
"Is that what you think about me?" I mumbled, with tears on my eyes.
"That's not what I think about you, I was just making myself understand that I should stay away from you" he tried to reduce the pain he was causing to me.

"And why are you convincing yourself to stay away from me?" I mumbled, crying.
"Because, I don't want to get my heart broken by you. You are just a random girl in this school and you are just a random star in the sky," he said without any emotion in his eyes.

"W-what?" I shuttered.

He shattered my heart.
What's wrong with me? Why am i crying? He isn't worth it.

He is so rude, and every time he said something came as shock to me. How could someone be so heartless?

"You know what? You don't deserve me, you don't deserve anything good in your life," I snapped at him, but didn't walk away.

He kept looking at me. I said nothing as well.

"So you give up?" he asked, with worry on his eyes.
"Give up on what?" I frowned.
"On me," he said.

Did I? Did I give up on my love so easily? I couldn't. I would never. I wanted him to say anything, that would raise hope, and I would fight every second for him to be mine.
I couldn't answer him. I wanted him to say something positive. Something that would say he had little feelings for me.

I kept quiet.

"Tell me Mel," he urged.
"And why does it matter?" I couldn't tell him. I couldn't tell him that I loved him, hopelessly.
"I don't know," he said, looking at his shoes.
"You have hurt me enough in the past five minutes, Shawn. What do you want my answer to be?" I asked.

He kept quiet.

"See? You don't have an answer too," I pointed.

He looked up to meet my eyes.

That was it. The 'good-bye' I knew, it was the end. Nothing else would ever happen. He hated me, for some reason I wasn't aware of.
I gave him a small forced smile. He would remember the last smile at least and not my crying face.

"Shawn?" I called out for him.
"Yes?" he asked.
"I can't take another blow that you have for me today. Maybe we can sort things out some other day," I said.
"Uh-" I cut him off.
"Bye," I walked away.

I cried. I started crying like never before but kept walking. I walked through the parking place without looking back. I didn't know where I was going, but I kept walking. I wiped away my tears, shivering slightly from the cold wind.

Aria stood in front of me, with her hands on her hips.

"I was finding you everywhere you asshole, where we-" she noticed the tears on my face and her face softened, she ran towards me and gave me a hug, "why are you crying?" she whispered into my ears.

"I need to be alone," I murmured.
"He's is not worth it, if he makes you cry before anything at all happens," she claimed, throwing her hands in the air.
"He is more than worth it, and that scares me," I spoke my heart.
"W-what?" she asked.
"If there's something more than just falling in love, it's that with Shawn," I confirmed.
She smiled and said "I knew this. From whom have you been hiding this from all the time?"
"Myself," I said looking at her eyes with no emotion in mine.
Her excitement dropped "I'll always be there if you need me, I am just one call away, I'll be the class, but you'll be my first preference, I hope you know that" she assured.

"I know," I said with a small smile and walked away.

She went to her classes and I kept walking once again, to God knows where.

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A/N-

One more chapter to finish the story :)
Till then, bye.