Part 7 Missing her!!!

"You are not coming", She asked him hesitated. "No. You go", He replied her. "Why?" She probed him like kid. "I have work", He simply repeated the word. "Won't you be missing me a minute at least? Not bothered about me going away", She told her pain with hope. He would understand her. If he tell her to come with him, she would surely run into his arm. "I would.", He said taking a deep breath staring deep into her eyes.

"Maya. Close the Curtains!!!" He shouted in deep slumber pulling the bedsheet over his head hiding his face from the shimmering sunlight through the window curtains.

No reply.

"Maya." He repeated again mumbling.

"Maya. Close that", he said irritated.

Still no reply.

Frustrated he pulls off the blanket his head, sitting on the bed and shouted, "Maya".

"Arjun", Maya shouted at the same time waking from her slumber seeing him not beside her. It is her habitual to close curtains when she woke up so that his sleep never been disturbed. But now she was not in her service to help him. Deep down she feel like he had called her. It was so much crazy to think like that. He would probably happy for her departure.

Arjun scanned his empty room as realisation dawned on him. She was not here.  It was almost three days since she left. Since he dropped her in her house. Not even bothered to look back at her even a single glance.

He would understand her. If he tell her to come with him, she would surely run into his arm. "I would.", He said taking a deep breath staring deep into her eyes.

Arjun said deeply sighing, his emotions are traitorous to his eyes which was cold devoid of showing emotions.  He was such Person who would deeply bury his mind in the perfect acting mask. Only he knows how he fails to act normal.  Normal and Acting Normal are so much different.

Tum mere ho iss pal mere ho
Kal shayad yeh aalam na rahe
Kuch aisa ho tum tum na raho
kuch aisa ho tum tum na raho
kuch aisa ho hum, hum na rahein...

you are mine, in this moment, you are mine,
tomorrow, things may or may not remain the same,

maybe something happens that you don't remain yourself,
maybe something happens that I don't remain myself.

She looked at him shock, completely written over her oval face making him chuckle inwardly.  She was not believing her ears. Could ears also hallucinate? Are all this was her prospect. 

"What did you said?" She asked with her partly builded hope against false hope. "I would miss you Maya" He said clearly, as she stared at him in disbelief.  What was wrong in him? Had he feeling feverish?  Or He is hallucinating her as Sanjh.

"Are you fine?" She asked worriedly touching his forehead with her feeble hands. No heat! He was normal. Then what his problem? Oh god. If he not having fever. Then do he having illusion. God no. Don't get him sick with different disorders.  Maya prayed silently shutting her eyes.

Arjun glanced at her in irritation. "I'm fine" Arjun assured her as he looked at her with grimace. Why was she concerning him now?

"Arjun. Have you having any problem.  Tell me Arjun. We can Solve them.  Are you hallucinating? Me as Sanjh. Do you see her?" She asked nonchalantly.  As he looked at her in anger understanding her words, God. She should have debted her brain somewhere. He should get her first checked about her brain. Before here exams.

"No. I don't see her. I said to you only. You. Maya only before me right?" Arjun said pissed, stomping his feet angrily on the ground.  She blinked her eyes continuously gazing his mesmerizing silver like eyes, melting under his hot heated haze.

"Sorry" She quickly opened her mouth innocently speaking with her untainting eyes. I should stop reading Novels. Vo bhi na. Making me get more expectation.

ye raaste alag ho jaayein
chalte chalte hum kho jaayein...

maybe our paths diverge,
and we get lost while walking.

"I am going." Arjun said segregating his staring session with her in great effort. She looked at him abruptly in pleasingly,  wanting him to tell come with me. Her unnerving eyes kept looking at him. "Take care. Write Exams well. All the Best" He said taking a deep breath not meeting her eyes. "Go in" He ordered her sighing. She nodded her head in no, She wants to stand here with him. He looked at her heavily, she is different.  Apart from anything,  she just needs him not anyone. Her unrequited love is something is new thing. He never seen before. It can never been Obsession or simply Infatuation. 

main phir bhi tumko chaahunga,
main phir bhi tumko chaahoonga...
is chaahat mein mar jaaunga
main phir bhi tumko chahunga...

but I'll still love you,
I'll still love you.
I'll die for this love,
but I'll still love you.

"Okay. I am leaving" Arjun said with heavy heart unwilling to go away. He took steps forward with his hammering heart not even turning to see her face again.  He wished. But he can't. She have to stay away from him for a while to stable her life to know there is also another priorities she have than loving him.

meri jaan main har khaamoshi mein*
tere pyaar ke naghme gaaunga...

O my life, in every silence,
I'll sing the songs of your love.

She silently saw him depart until his large figure disappear into a small dot before her vision.  A drop of tear escaped her eyes, as the comfortable feeling she felt now was gone away replacing with coldness surrounding her body.

aise zaroori ho mujhko tum
jaise hawaayein saanson ko
aise talaashoon main tumko
jaise ki paer zameeno ko-

You are necessary for me,
like air for breathing,
I look for you
like feet look for the earth

She walked into her home wiping the tears. She was having thoughts how she lived her all life before without him? To her now it feels like he was the oxygen she was breathing making her live alive.

hansna ya rona ho mujhe
paagal sa DhoonDhoon main tumhein
kal mujhse mohabbat ho na ho
kal mujhko ijaazat ho na ho
TooTe dil ke TukRe lekar
tere dar pe hi reh jaaunga

whether I have to laugh or cry,
I look for you like someone crazy.
whether you are in love with me tomorrow or not,
whether I have the permission tomorrow or not,
with the pieces of my broken heart with me,
I'll stick to your door only.

He picked his cell phone and tossed it aside contemplating whether he can call her or not?

What he done was wrong? A cowardice behaviour. He was missing her terribly, if Yash was here. He would compensate that, but now even he was no where. He was so guilty to admit that he miss her more than Yash. Even though they talk less, the Feeling of complete home was deficient to him. In his home. Where he had grown all these years? After long years she was here to showering him love without sympathy or pacify.  She is all he needed. A strong and light Zephyr.

He dialled her number wanna to speak with her. To hear her melodic voice.  Oh My gosh. He was feeling like teenage boy desperate to meet her lover girl.

"Maya" He said her name softly, remembering how she smiled that day when he called her name.

Just like a moment he wished to call her, his phone rang.

To be Continued.
NasreenAyesha.