Want to administer something majestic in mine shallow hole,
may've been a minute or so in none control,
possible I've forgotten euphoria behind stained soul;

none can blame you see,
stayed longer than a hundred ones dared to dream;

occasionally I fall,
back into patterns of mine old self walked,
no ones fault
-
I am easily pulled & caught,
pounding upon spectacular walls...
pray that ears hear & steadily search for mine gagged lip calls;

no...
I don't expect,
the world to reflect,
crumbles vacuumed or swept,
when hearts unable to correctly dissect...

yet -
this all is within weary head defect.