*

& I'm here to say,
it's easier told than swayed,
heart doesn't believe... self to be...
more than sufficiently brave;

I've perceived that subconscious feeling...
perseverance drilling -
yet, a grievance takes a grasp & tires of hiding,
holding string tightly of bound composure,
Can't you defer when face wears a days fighting?

screaming out voices lodged within chest,
maddened till energy is drained... relinquished & spirit wishes rest;
descending easily beneath damp depths,
a thousand counts this rep:
Exactly what defense mine hardships could be extinguished?
that saddened aroma exists...
apart of this DNA's remiss,
just another limb pushing through membrane's resist -

& tomorrow comes yet one more subsist.