Chapter 16- Being Embarrassed

I opened every door in damn house and it either revealed a bathroom or the kitchen or the living room. I was getting upset, where am I going to sleep? I needed it, maybe crying my eyes out last night wasn't such a good idea. 

I sighed and retraced my steps and I ended up back in front of Amy’s room. Amy opened the door after my first knock. “What are you doing here? I thought you’re in your own room.” She opened the door wider and motioned for me to enter.

“I don’t have a room. I looked for a spare but found nothing. Can we share?” I gave a sheepish smile and my puppy dog eyes.

“No, that won’t work on me. In case you haven’t noticed, the bed you’re sitting on is single.” She pointed to the lavender covered bed. I didn't realize I was already on her bed.

“Do you think my sisters would agree to let me share a room with them?” I was getting frustrated and sitting in a car for an hour is tiring.

“No, I think the rooms the three of us are staying in all have single beds.” She said in her matter-of-fact voice. I sighed and got out of her lavender colored room. After knocking down every door in the house, I realized that each room has a specific color its themed to. In Amy’s, its lavender, Sarah’s is Yellow-ish, Denise’s is green and my parents have beige. The kitchen is dark compared to the bedrooms and the living room is cream colored, it gives off a homey feeling.

Back to the problem at hand, I followed where Seth headed to earlier. I found myself in front of stark white double doors. I took a deep breath before knocking and I heard a faint “come in.” I opened the door and found Seth on his queen sized bed. He was wearing a plain white shirt and pajamas and was typing away on his laptop. 

He looked up and stopped typing when he realized it was me in his room. “What do you want?” He bit out harshly. I winced at his tone, why is he so harsh to me? What did I do? Maybe he has a problem? I don’t really know that because he barely opens up to me.

“I have nowhere to stay.” I was glad my voice was steady.

“So?” He answered immediately and furrowed his eyebrows? Why is he being like this? My parents are here for Pete’s sake and he decides now of all time to act like a kid?

“Er-I-er. I’m gonna go.” I wanted to get out of his room, the last of my dignity has been crushed by him. I turned to leave.

As soon as I touched the door knob, he whispered “Don’t go.” I heard him perfectly because the house was so quiet every sound you make is magnified a hundred times.

I turned to him and I regretted it because he was already in front of me, his breath was fanning my face. “I-er. Yeah.” I am stunned to say the least. 

“You can stay here if you want.” He stepped back and I can see agony etched on his face. What is his problem?

“Er-sure.” I answered but still unsure of it. “Seth?” I asked as he turned around, probably to get back to work on his laptop.

“Yes?” He turned and smiled at me but it didn't reach his eyes.

“Is something wrong?” I mustered up all my courage to ask that question.

He let out a sigh and strode towards me, when we were half an inch apart, he hugged me. I was not expecting that. “Ysa, I just had a crappy day at work.” He nuzzled into my hair and we stood like that for God knows how long.

When he finally let me go, he kissed my forehead and apologized for the way he acted. I understand him, I guess. “It’s fine but you have to tell me if you have a problem or not, I can’t be your punching bag. I’m your friend.”

“I’m sorry.” He muttered and gave me a smile, a genuine one.

“It’s fine, can I rest for a while?” He led me towards the bed and we just stayed there, him sitting there, typing on his laptop and as for me, I just rested my head, no sleeping, just resting.

“Ysa, I don’t deserve you.” He muttered and yet again, I heard him perfectly.

I turned to him and raised an eyebrow. “What do you mean?” His face was shocked, he clearly meant for those words to get lost in the wind.

“Nothing.” He answered and went back to typing.

“What are you typing?” I sat up and peeked over his shoulder but before I could comprehend what he was typing, he shut it and faced me.

“Private.” That one word sort of hurt me. I mean, I do respect his privacy but some part of me wanted him to share those kinds of things to me. Now I sound selfish.

“So, what happened with Ashley?” I tried to divert the subject.

“She and I are going to meet the day after tomorrow, she understood completely when I told her something came up yesterday.” A small pang of jealousy rushed through me but I brushed it off. This is my friend. I am not supposed to feel these kinds of things for him.

“That’s good, she sounds good.” Those words were a pain to say. Now I wonder why that is. Maybe I should just enjoy my weekend with him and forget about it one day.

“Ysabel! Seth!” I heard someone yell before barging through the door. What is wrong with these people, don’t  they know how to knock?

We both looked up and watched as Sarah and Denise stumbled in our room. Our room. I like the sound of that. Get a grip!

“What’s wrong?” Worry immediately took over me but I was about to kill them because the reason they barged in was not due to an emergency.

“Come on, we’ll go by the lake.” My sisters basically dragged me from Seth’s comfortable bed and I heard the man chuckle before we even exited the room.

Before I understood what was happening, cold, not cold, freezing water engulfed me. How didn't I see this coming? My sisters were laughing like hyenas and I stomped over to where they were and pushed them in the water. It was turn to laugh at their faces because it looked like their teeth are going to fall off.

We spent the rest of the afternoon laughing and splashing water at each other. We acted like kids and we laughed like one too but no one bothered to stop us. I think my parents are just amused at us being like this because it has been a while before we actually laughed like this.

I don’t want to dwell on that for long, we walked around the house leaving puddles of water at each step. My mother reprimanded us but we just laughed it off. I went back to the room I stayed in and Seth wasn't in it. I locked the door and I took off my clothes and about to put on a robe I found when someone cleared their throat behind me.

My cheeks heated and I felt embarrassed. One, no one except for Greg saw me naked, my mother bathing me when I was little does not count. Two, I was not comfortable with my body, Greg always criticized me about my figure so I don’t flaunt it as much. Three, I was standing in front of Seth without any piece of clothing on me. This is probably the most embarrassing moment of my life.

My reflexes acted up and I covered myself with the white fluffy robe I was holding. I did not expect this, I thought I was alone! “I-er-I-er-I-I-.” Sentences were foreign to me at the moment.

“Sorry, I’ll go.” Before I knew it, he exited the room and the door clicked softly.

I ran to the bathroom, I was taking in deep breaths. That certainly had my heart pumping. Why oh why didn't I check if he’s in the room. And why didn't I just take off my clothes in this damn bathroom. Stupid. I was so used to walking naked in my bedroom that I forgot I was sharing a room with the master of the house.

I spent the rest hours of the day locked in the bathroom. How am I going to face Seth at this rate? We are going to sleep in the same bed and he saw me naked! I am going to lose it! After showering for three whole hours, I dried myself and put on a robe. I then realized I didn't bring any clothing with me. Why is the world so cruel to me?

I stepped into our room and saw Seth lying on his back and playing with a Rubik’s cube. The moment I stepped out of the bathroom, his eyes snapped to me. “You didn't eat dinner.” He stated, so he’s avoiding the matter. That’s fine with me.

“I-er needed to wash up.” I tried to think for a plausible excuse except for the obvious, you saw me naked and I’m embarrassed about my body.

“Ysa, its fine. Let’s forget that even happened.” His words made me feel two things, hurt that he wanted to forget and happy because he didn't comment on my body.

“Okay, thank you. I’m gonna go down and eat dinner.” I started to exit the room when Seth spoke again.

“Please put on something decent. I don’t want you walking around the house with nothing but a robe on.”

-----BETTER-----THAN-----DREAMS-----BETTER-----THAN-----DREAMS-----

A/N

So, due to the fact that I am unsatisfied with the latest  chapter, I typed this down and I feel a bit better.

Let me know what you think

-G