with honey and my lover gone,
i remained emotionless; i had
to stay numb and carry on, and
so, my life was molded after
sex - - detached from feelings,
clashing bodies in a sea of men
and women.

and that changed when i've thought
i've found the one - - one whom i thought
who'd felt the same as me; but seeing as
how they've done the same thing as i did,
i froze to see her in a local lover's park.

she was with someone else,
laughing and having the best time
with someone other me.

this was the first time, in a long time,
that i've fallen for someone who saw
something beautiful in me - - who would've
thought it'd end up like this?

she saw me, and came close to me.
i didn't bother opening my mouth,
but she did - - and told me the thing
that triggered a series of emotions
out of me - - those were: "i never loved you,"
and "i never saw anything beautiful in you,"

and that was when i just knew,
my internal struggle had become
just a fact - - a conspiracy theory
turned into a fact, and it came from
someone who i'd adored too.