"Somewhere you can get food" He simply says. No way I don't eat. I'm trying to be skinny here and he is not going to ruin that for me. I've worked so hard not to eat and become beautiful, even I know it will never happen.

"Why can't you just leave? And I have already eaten" I say. I'm not going with him no matter what. If he thinks I'm that stupid to go with him then he is the stupid one here.

"Come on, it will be fun. I promise" Jack says with a smirk. Gross, I would rather die than spend another day with him only so he can just break my heart again.

"I'd rather hang myself then be with you" I tell him as I closed the door behind me hoping he would go away. But guess what he kept on ringing the doorbell and he has been doing it for the past hour, doesn't he get tired of this? I know I would get tired by standing there and ringing the doorbell, endlessly. He doesn't know that after hearing this bell for freaking one hour, I've gotten used to it but I don't want to tell him. I like to see him suffer just like I suffered. Nice to have someone else who suffers for a chance, he can know how it feels like to be ignored and abandoned when you need someone.

I go to my room and look through my old stuff that I haven't looked at for four years. I saw the Christmas gifts I was going to give The Four Wonders and my family, they are still wrapped and unopened. I find the letters I wrote for The Four Wonders when they started ignoring me. I start reading, since I can't remember what I wrote. It was four years ago.

To: Samantha.

Samantha, we weren't always friends, like when we fought over nothing and over something that stupid, but I want you to know that you will always be my friend even if you don't remember me. I hope you will become the champion you've always wanted to be, I know that is your dream. Keep on dreaming because dreams comes true.

From: your ex friend Eliza.

This was the first letter that I read and I begin to get tears in my eyes just by reading this because I know I was crying while writing this, I'm starting to remember it all. The next letter I read is for Nick.

To: Nick.

Nick, You were always the person I could count on, I could tell you everything and you told me everything but don't worry I would never tell anyone your dark secret and I hope you won't tell anyone mine because I trust you more than anyone in this world. Keep on reading books about everything and maybe you can find something in them that can lead on in life and find out what you want to with your life.

From: your ex friend Eliza.

I'm now fully crying, I don't care I just want to have a friend again and have fun but deep inside I know that it will never happen. However I will always remember the time when we had fun, when we were scared, when we were sad, when we were angry.

The last letter I read is for Jackson and that is the saddest one I wrote, I remember the pain I went through when I was writing it.

To: Jack

Jack, I know you will never like me and I can't make you love me even when I want to, I love you so much that it hurts to see you with Ashley. But if you are happy then I will be happy even if it breaks me apart. So you know I will always have you in one of the pieces in my broken heart. I will never forget you but you have already forgotten about me so I lost my chances with you, maybe it's for the best that I stay invisible.

From: your ex friend Eliza.

I put the letters back into the box where I found them in. I take my razor and start cutting but instead of just doing scars I wrote a sentence. My tears streaming down my cheeks.

I write on my wrist these six words. 'I will never be good enough'. And I know that I will never be, never have been and never will be, I know that for a fact. I stand up and clean the blood then walk to the kitchen, I see that Jack was gone, through the window. He isn't ringing the doorbell anymore, I guess he got tired of it. Finally. I have no idea how long I was reading and cutting these words but at least he is gone.

I don't want to eat ever again. I'm going to stop eating one banana each day, It's better that way. I don't care if I starve to death, I just want to end my life. I've been broken so many times, that I can't handle this anymore. The pain inside is just too much to bear.

I look over at the night sky and see that the moon is full tonight. It's so beautiful like this. I walk to the balcony of the house. The chilly air sends shivers down my spine.

"Why me?" I ask the moon. Even if I know that the moon will never answer me but somehow I feel like the moon helps me or protects me somehow. I feel good when I'm in the moonlight. I don't know why, I just do. There is something about it that makes me feel safe and protected. I wait for few minutes hoping that the moon would help me but I guess it's just a myth.

I walk back inside and go to bed crying like most nights. I fall into the darkness alone with no one here like always but I'm used to being alone. That has become my life.

Jack

I know you think I left but I didn't leave. I just got inside the house through the window. I know you think that is breaking in but I don't think so. I'm just trying to help her, I'm still in shock after I saw her cut herself and reading at the same time, like she is used to it. It broke my heart to see that. She didn't cry and she just let the blood leak down her arms. She needs help but I don't think she has someone to help her and I don't think the Robinson family helps her. I mean she is their maid but that doesn't mean they shouldn't care about her health.

I see that she is reading some letters while crying. I guess these letters mean a lot to her. After reading the last letter she takes out a razor and starts cutting her self again. I see A LOT of scars on her arms and I see that she wrote something in her skin but I couldn't see what she wrote. I want to know what she wrote. She needs help and I want to give it to her.

She begins to clean her blood like she has done this many times. She walks to the balcony.

"Why me?" She says as she looks up to the moon. I could her voice was cracking but she was trying to say it normally. After she has been there for a few minutes she walks to the basement and gets into pajamas and don't worry I didn't look when she was chancing. She lays down on few blankets that were on the floor and she sets her head on a pillow. I think that is her room.

I wait for a while then I walk around the house. This house only reminds me of one person, Eliza. Eliza was part of The Four Wonders but then she started hanging out with other people or at least that is what Ashley said. I mean Ashley is her cousin but no one has seen Eliza in four years. Some say she moved away or something, I don't know.

I see those letter Elizabeth was reading before. I don't know if I should read them or not. I need to see why she was crying while reading them. I take the first letter and start reading it.

The first letter is to Samantha from... Eliza? This is very strange. What does she mean with 'Even if you don't remember me' and 'ex friend'? I start reading the next letter.

The next one is addressed to Nick. I don't understand anything about these letters. Why does Elizabeth have them and where is Eliza? There was only one letter left and I don't know if I want to read it but I have to read it.

I read the letter and, I realize that she is writing to me, about me. Wait Eliza loves me? I had no idea and she says it's better for her to stay invisible. Wait Eliza's full name is Eliza Robinson. And I remember Eliza has golden blonde hair and sky blue eyes, just like their maid. OMG! Their maid is Eliza, she has been in front of my nose this entire time but why is she a maid for her own family and why does she sleep on the floor in the basement? I need to get answers for these questions as soon as possible and I'm going to get out of here because I don't want her to wake up and I'm in her house, she didn't exactly invite me in. I will ask her in school without The Four Wonders to find out but this will be hard she always disappears somewhere, with me always confused on where she has gone to.

Eliza

I wake up and it's Sunday. Yay it's Sunday, the day I have nothing to do. Normal people spend their Sundays with their families but I always spend it alone, cleaning or cutting but that is just my life.

I didn't finish the book I was reading yesterday so I take out the book and sit on the cold floor. I'm not allowed to use the chairs or the sofa so I have to sit on the cold floor but I don't really care about being cold. The cold kinda feels nice if you think about it but I hate goosebumps. They are so disgusting and weird an- ok let's just say I don't like them.

I finish the book and it is amazing, this is now my new favorite book. I stand up from the cold floor and put the book back where it belongs but when I'm about start to cut into my wrist when I hear the doorbell. Are you kidding me, can't I have a Sunday without Jack showing up here. And I know it's him because he is the only one who comes here when my family isn't home. I don't even know if I should open the door for him, I mean last time I did that he treated me badly and practically blackmailed me into giving him answers.

I open the door for him but I didn't let him inside, there is no way he is going inside my house uninvited. That is just rude and I don't want to be rude back and besides he has to follow the rules of this house or I will try to call the police.

"What do you want?" I ask him in an angry voice and I think I deserve to talk to him in a angry voice. He makes me so mad, that I really would like to punch him in that pretty face of his. He walks closer to go inside but I stop him, sending him a death glare. I don't care if he pretends to be nice so he can just break my heart again but I won't bring down my walls. Especially for someone like him.

"I want to talk, talk as friends" He says in a tired voice. I look at him and see that he has black bags under his eyes. Did he stay up all night? And friends?

"We are not friends, Jackson White and there is nothing to say. Besides I'm busy" I say. It is true, I'm busy cutting. Well I haven't started but I will as soon as he leaves, and I hope that will be very soon. I'm about to close the door but he stops me and holds the door open.

"We were friends so I think there is something to talk about, Eliza" He says in a challenging tone. I let out a gasp, how did he figure out my name? I thought I was gone out of their life forever, well I will be after I'm done killing myself which I'm doing soon.

"Well then make it quick" I say, still not letting him in and I'm still glaring at him with so much hatred in my eyes.

"Fine, Eliza I want to know why you are like this and if you don't understand what 'this' means, it means depressed. I know all about your cutting and starving and harming your self, and I want to know why. What made you do it? What made you want to hurt yourself?" He asks. How did he know about it? Is he spying on me?

"Believe it or not, you" I say as I walk inside the house. And of course Jack follows me inside. I really hate him, he is just a pain in the ass.

"What did I ever do to you, Eliza?" He asks. I hate when he uses my real name. I want him gone, I want him out of my house. I sit on the floor and he just looks at me, clearly confused by my actions.

"Sit. This could take a while" I tell him as he sits to the floor beside me but I moved away from him. If you think I'm going to be with that boy longer than I have to, than you're wrong.