I walk slowly to her and sit beside her, I see in the corner of Eliza's eye that she's looking at my every movement. At least she knows I'm here and is not scared of me at all. I hate to see her like this, it simple breaks my heart, she looks so broken, more broken than ever. Now it will be harder for me to help her but I'm willing to try, try to help and save her before it will be too late to help and save her. No, it will not be to late, I will save her and she will be loved. I will not stand and watch the girl I love be hurt like this, I just have to take this all in my hands and do everything in my power to save the broken girl.

"Eliza, I know you are terrified right now but you got to talk to me. It will make things better, I promise. Just talk to me please" I say, begging is more like what I was doing, but she didn't even move or look at me, she just continued to look outside, and not saying or moving anything. Thank God at she blinking her eyes, otherwise I would be freaking out. I know she is listening well I don't know for sure but she has ears so she must have been listening, if she isn't lost in her mind which is probably what she is doing right now but can't be sure of it. I can't read minds, that is just impossible and no one is able to do that. She opened her mouth but closes it straight away like she wanted to say something but didn't or couldn't. For a moment I have hope that she would talk to me but then it disappeared and the hope along with it. That does not mean I give up on her, that will never happen. I think she's just not ready to open up so I don't want to put too much pressure on her.

I reach out to take her hand but I see how tense she becomes when I'm this close to her. I quickly take my hand back to not frighten her more. I stand up from the seat I was sitting on and walk out of the room. Before I close the door, I take a glance at Eliza, she is still in the same position not moving anything. I feel one tear slip down my cheek but I wipe it away. She is the only person who can make me cry and I will cry only for her. James is going say something but then he sees how sad I am and decides to not say what ever he was going to say to me. I guess it doesn't matter anymore. Then I remember her parents are free and if they know she is here they probably come after her, I can't let that happen, not while I'm still alive. My uncle walks inside the waiting room and starts talking to James. Soon I join their conversation, well not completely. I only listen to them talking not able to say anything at this moment.

"Did you know that she has white liquid in her blood?" I say cutting into their conversation. I'm getting bored with listening to them talking about Eliza's parents. I heard that her parents have been captured and put into jail again. That are wonderful news, now I know that they won't ever hurt her again. She's safe from them now and when James gets to the prison, he is going to let them sign the adoption papers. If they refuse then my uncle is going to make them sign it, I think I'm going to see them too, maybe I can ask them why they did this to Eliza. If her parents are in jail, what will happen to Anna? Wait now I remember she is going to stay at their aunt and uncle's house with Ashley. Since I broke up with Ashley she has become a total brat and a bitch, I don't want to be rude or anything but that is the truth but I think she is even turning into a slut. She has probably fucked ten boys in the football team and that is a lot, I'm still a virgin. Yeah you are probably laughing your head of but I just, it didn't feel right to do it with Ashley so I choose to wait for the right one which I've found already. I'm still not going to have sex with Eliza until we're married and that will happen, when we feel ready. Not right now, she is still the broken girl but someday it is going to happen.

"Yes I am aware of that and I have gone through her records. Eliza does not know it but having white liquid in the veins only means that she is special and it's really rare" James says, like he knows what that white liquid is. I never knew that Eliza was and is special, I know that everyone is special is their own way but this is just fantastic. I guess I can say that she's a very rare person since she has this rare thing in her blood. Maybe that is the reason her father is this cruel to her, maybe they want this white liquid thingy to be destroyed. I can be sure of that, that will not happen, not while they are in still jail at least. Somehow I'm feel like everything is going to be all right, now that I know that Eliza is safe and is going to get better every day.

Eliza

I wake up by the sun shining through the curtains in the window. Wait where am I? I look around and see everything is white and now I know exactly where I am. I'm in the hospital, great why couldn't they just kill me out there? That would be better for everyone, including me. I walk to the window, ripping all the needles in my arms in the process, and sit down watching the outside and all its glory. The doctor comes inside and tried to ask me questions along with the police but no matter how much I try and how much I want to, I can't talk. Nothing comes out of my mouth but I'm not going to cry. I have cried enough in my life and never again, crying only shows weakness and well I am weak but I don't want to cry, that is only for little babies.

James even tried to talk to me but I can't talk so I do not answer any of their questions. I know that they feel bad for it but what can I do? I can't talk, it's like I'm mute and right now I'm loving it. If I can't talk then it will be even easier to kill myself, you may have thought that, that plan was over, well you thought wrong I'm still gonna kill myself. Sooner than you think. I hear the door open and close and I can sense that there is someone else in the room. The person sits next to me and in the corner of my eye I see Jackson White. He is here too, can't he just leave me and my life alone. He has done enough to me already I don't need it anymore, well I am going to kill myself soon, just the only problem is that I'm still in the hospital. I got out of here once and I'm pretty sure they wouldn't leave me alone in this room especially at night since I got out when it was night.

"Eliza, I know you're terrified right now but you got to talk to me. It will make things better, I promise. Just talk to me please" He pleads, but I'm not really paying attention to him, very much. Why does everyone keep telling me to talk to them? Don't they get that I can't talk even if I want to talk? Maybe they don't know since I can't talk about what I feel, wait I can never tell anyone what I feel. No one must know what I feel inside like Katherine said once. It will only make things better and me and Katherine don't want things to become better. He stands up and walks out of the room, he gave up, just like I want. If everyone gives up on me then I can be alone. I remember everything that happen the night when I got raped but I don't know when it was and how long I was asleep.

The saddest thing about that night is that I saw my father and mother. My own father raped me and my mother did nothing to stop him. Do they hate me this much that they just want to rape me and make me to through all of this. I always thought that this was my body and I can say no to things that I don't want for my body. But this time, I didn't have a say in the matter. They made sure of that. I've begun to wonder if they even loved me at all. I just want to know if there is love in their heart's for me. I guess after what they did, they have never and will never have love for me at all. I don't care at all, I don't even want their love. The only thing I want is death and everyone seems to be keeping me from it. Can I really blame them? They just want me to suffer in this cruel world on this cruel planet. Everyone wants to punish me for being born into this beastly world.

I need to think my plan through of how in the world I'm going to get out of this place without being noticed. I can always be here for few days so they trust me and I will get away. Yeah that is my plan but after that I have no idea what I'm going to do. Well I guess I will only find out when I am out of this horrible place that really stinks bad. I hate hospitals, then again who doesn't hate them? I'm still in the window seat when a nurse comes with food. Do they really think that I'm gonna eat that. That is just disgusting and they want me to eat this thing. Rather would I die than eat that in fact I am going to die. I begin to think about a song I heard once but I can't sing it so I only think about the lyrics. I think it's called. Her last words.

I have always found this song beautiful because that girl's parents love her, other than my parents. Somehow I don't know if this song is about a real girl or not but if so I feel connected to her somehow. This makes me realize how I am going to say goodbye like the girl in the song, she wrote a letter to say goodbye, if I am going to say goodbye at all. Would someone want to say goodbye to me? Probably not, no one will ever miss me when I die and I will die. I will get away from my life and misery. Everyone will be really happy to get rid me and finally out of their happy lives. I would finally feel the pain I have been waiting for so long. Only now I have realized that I was born just to feel pain and eventually the pain of death. This is only destiny for me to feel like this. I remember when I was little I used to dream about getting married, walking down the aisle with my father to the love of my life. I have always wanted to give birth to my children and watching them grow up. And I have always wanted to grow old along with my husband but God has other plans for me and my life, I can't change what he wants with me. I have been watching the life outside since I woke up and I see how the sky turn dark and it becomes night. Soon my eyes become heavy and I close them, drifting into a dreamless sleep and still on the window seat.