Kian's POV: It's been about 9 months (to be exact) since Ricky moved out of the old o2l house in LA that him, Jc, & myself have shared...of course Jc & I were very sad to learn of this news from Ricky, but since he was going to be coming out with much more new music (including his new EP "RPD") he needed to be in his own space where he could do that for himself in general. I had continued thinking of these thoughts until I eventually heard someone calling my name, bringing me out of them altogether.

"Kian come here"

I walked out to the area of the house where Jc was calling me from, and of course it was the living room.

"What is it Jc?"

"I called you in here, because both of us need to set up Ricky's old room for JJ today."

"Oh yeah, that's right thanks for reminding me Jc I almost forgot."

"You did forget Kian, I know because your lying to my face right now."

"Ok yes you're right Jc, I did forget...but it's not my fault there's just so much on my mind right now so don't expect me to remember everything."

"Are you ok Kian? you can tell me anything, I'm your best friend and nothing else besides that".

"Best friend and nothing else besides that", those words hurt me so much...mostly because I thought of Jc as something else (besides a best friend, I mean I liked him a lot for crying out loud).

"Well Jc, honestly I just really miss Connor, Ricky, Sam, & Trevor but mostly Ricky" I say this to him with tears in my eyes, since I have no control of my emotions sometimes.

"Kian, I know you miss all of the guys...believe me I do too, but it's for the best and both of us are going to be so successful with our new channel together I promise."

"Are you sure?" I ask him looking into his eyes.

He dries my eyes by gliding his thumb across both my cheeks, "I'm sure" he says looking into my chocolate brown eyes.

"Ok good, I feel so much better now...let's get Ricky's old room situated for JJ."

"Good glad to hear it, let's get this room done already".

*Room finally finished, everything nice and set up for JJ*

"Thank god the task is done"

"I know you're telling me Jc," I replied to him with a soft chuckle & small smile.

God I love him so much, but why do I have these feelings for Jc if he doesn't feel the same way like I do?