A/N- Picture is Jake unless you imagine him different.

At the moment I'm sitting in Jake's car. Jake is fuming and I'm honestly a little scared. He gripes the steering wheel and his jaw is clenched.

"Where were you... " He finally says after sighing.

"I stayed over at a friends house, I'm sorry."

"Then why didn't you answer my calls."

"Why do you care so much it's not like you're my dad", as soon as I said that I regretted it as I saw him get ready to yell.

" I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD OKAY!" He screams while looking at me tears in his eyes.

"Caden your best just died. That mean you are going through a hard time right now. When you don't answer my calls and run off for a night I instantly think you are dead, SO EXCUSE ME IF I'M WORRIED!"

I love my brother with all my heart and seeing him like this breaks me but... "Why do you always baby me! This is hard trust me I know that better than anyone else, but I can handle this on my own. You breathing down my neck isn't going to help! "

After I said that I unbuckled my seatbelt with a 'click'. Opened my car door. Then jumped out of the car starting to make my way to the house on my own.

On my way home I see a park. I decide that I'd rather go there than home. I look up and see that it is sunset.

I hang around the park for a while. Then off in the distance I notice a pond. I go over to the pond and sit down. I feel so guilty about the fight that Jake and I had. I really need to just learn how to keep my mouth shut.

A few tears start to roll down my face.  I look into the refection of the water. What I see makes me cry harder. Katie is standing behind me with her hand on my shoulder.

I turn around and she's not there. I look back at the water and she is still there. 

"Don't be sad Caden. Everything will get better. "She says in an airy voice.

"Oh Katie I wish you were with me right now."

"I am with you I'm right here." I cry even harder at that.

"No you're not you're dead. I'm so sorry I should've respected you more then this wouldn't have happened."

"Caden my brain was messed up. Without I would've died long ago."

"Then why didn't you stay wasn't I good enough for you", but I didn't get a reply. When I looked up she wasn't there. She left me once again.

Soon I felt myself falling forward. I felt water surround me as I fell into the water. My head crashed against a rock. I felt arms wrap around me. That's all I remembered before everything went black.

I woke up in a white room. My mom was crying next to me. Everything went black again.

I woke up again. I turned but this time I didn't see my mom. Instead I saw my brother.

"I so sorry", I choked out. His head snapped up to me. His face was streaked with tears that we're long ago shed.

"I saw her Jake. It wasn't real though she wasn't really there. I wanted her to be there so bad Jake but she wasn't. Be-because sh-she's dead." I barley got to finish as I broke down crying.

"I didn't mean to fall in the pond and his my head it was an accident. I gave up for a second and didn't have time you pick myself up." He looked at me his face full of concern.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Y-yeah but please tell me you bel-believe me." I begged trying to convince him that I didn't try to take my own life. 

"I don't know if I can little bro." With that said he stood up and left the room. Leaving me hopeless. Now I know what it feels like to feel unloved.  To feel truly alone... To feel truly lost.

A/N- Writing this chapter literally put me on the verge of tears. I hope you guys are okay. Anyway I'm already thinking of ideas for the next chapter so that should come soon. (735 words)

-Jason