I mindlessly wander the grocery store aisle, getting some snacks. Zed takes the trolly from me and squeezes my hand. After watching me vomit in my bathroom, he insisted on following me to the pharmacy to get the test done so I agreed and here we are.

I grab a box of tampons and toes it into the cart. I just need to relax. But then I pass the pregnancy test, I chew on my button lip. my hands are shaking and I feel like I'm going to pee on myself. I could take one for my peace and mind because there's no way I am pregnant.

I swipe a test strip off the Shelf and say to the cashier, "Can you add this to his groceries?" I point to Zed and hand him my credit card. He took it and smile.

The cashier looks at me and then at Zed but I ignored Him and walk away to the bathroom.

***

I go through the motions according to Google. I Pee on the tiny stick, set the allotted time on my phone, then stare at myself in the mirror.

I look like I have added a little. wait, but that should be because I have not gone to the gem and have not been attending my yoga class since my breakdown section.

My hands run down my stomach. A baby? Me and Ben's baby. The evidence of my one-time sex with my best friend.

The thought makes me want to pray that it will be true but it can't be, I was careless this one time but it will never happen again.

The timer goes off, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. When I pick it up it is two lines.

Pregnant.

Tears fill my eyes. I want to scream, sit on this bathroom floor and cry the whole day. instead, the tears kept pouring uncontrollably. the tears cascade down my cheeks ad soak my sweater.

I splash water on my face, plaster a smile and walk through the door. I see Zed from the distance already sitting in the car, I smile at the cashier and then walk towards where Zed parked.

Zed didn't say a word as I slide into the passenger side. He hands me the snacks I picked and my credit card he didn't use.

I try to hold the waterfall of other tears but it falls in more. Zed hug me from the side trying to resource me.

This is not the plan. I had a well-planned plan. A baby wasn't part of it. it was to get into a good university and study entrepreneurship and become an author.

Maybe it will be a girl. No that's not what I should be thinking about right now. this is just a fluke thing, I am fine. Sometimes these sticks can be funny. maybe I should get a blood test done tomorrow just to be sure.

"You can remove it you know" Zed Say, taking a glimpse at me and then back on the road.

"No!" I snap back. I did not mean to but I'm not removing my baby.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. This might just be a fake result but if I get a blood test done and it remains the same, I will keep my baby" I tell him looking down at my stomach. if it turns out to be true, I will love my baby and give him or her everything I have got.

zed just look at me and smile.

My mom will be disappointed in me, she might not want to but she will. What would my dad have to say? would he have hugged me and told me he is here for me or drive me to the hospital to get the baby removed even if I tell him I don't want to?

I don't think I'm ready to find out.

I am not ready.

I'm going to look like a balloon.

How do I get everything done in a day like that?

I type in the symptoms of pregnancy in my Google search. when I look at the result, I widen my eyes.

Tender, swollen breast.

Nausea.

increased urination.

Fatigue.

Sick.

Angry.

Sleepy.

But mostly tired.

I'm going to be tired. tired of carrying Ben's baby.

Tired of the world judging me.

Tired of people laughing and whispering.

Tired of carrying the evidence of my first sex. but mostly, I am going to love my baby. so when Zed drop me at my parent's house, I walk to my Mother's room and lay with her on her bed. For the first time in our history.

A/N; I just found out that Best Friend is almost reaching 1k reads. I am screaming my lungs out!!! Thank you buddies this means a lot to me.💗🤗💃
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