BEN

"hey man. Are you leaving?" mile, Jeiel's brother asks me when I enter the living room. I ignore him and head outside for my car.

When I get into my car, my phone rang in my cup holder. I reach for it and answer when I see Jesi's name across the screen.

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As I walk into Jesi's parent's house, I am relieved that her parents are Not in the house.

Jesi's parents are never around anyways that's why she brings every boy that looks her way to her father's house to fuck. I have been here many times to know my way to Jesi's room so I didn't border waiting for any special invitation

I enter her room without knocking. Jesi is laying on her bed, her head propped up on a mound of the pillow and her bare legs are spread wide open. She gestured for me to sit on her bed.

Her hair is neatly tied in a ponytail.

"Well well well, look who is here." She taunts me when I sit next to her on her bed. She lifts her skirt up further, exposing her necked pussy. She runs her hand down her thighs circling it around her clit.

"You called me" I remind her. Her room is huge, the wall is painted white with her king-sized bed and a magazine poster from a fashion show covered on one side of the wall.

Her bed is positioned against the wall not too far from the door. This room is too big, the house is too fucking big and it looks empty.

"And you came....... Honey" she rolled her eyes. Reciting the line sarcastically. Fuck, she's so annoying.

"Don't be so excited, I was bored and you made yourself available" I told her shrugging my shoulder. I was having the best time of my life and Jane decided to ruin it for me I was tempted to say but I just closed my mouth anyways because she doesn't like jeiel and if I say all of this to her, it will give her more reason to torment her more.

I look over at her, her brows are frowning and she's pretending to be offended by what I said as if I care.

"This is true" she laughs shamelessly. She knows better than to annoy me because I can walk away from this room if I get angry.

She pushes one of her fingers inside of her pussy and I shake my head at her shameless behavior. Jesi wraps her free hand around my arm and pulls me closer to her.

When Jesi's lip pressed to my neck, I try not to picture Jeiel's full lips. She brings the finger that was on her pussy to her mouth then climbs down from the bed.
Her hand reaches for the buttons on my jeans, she pops them open quickly and drags my jeans and boxes down. I lift my legs helping her while trying to conceive myself that I want this.

This is the fun I like having. This is what she likes me to do to her, this is what people so fucked up like me do for fun. People like me and Jesi, fucked up people with fucked up parents.

My story is still better that my mom has been trying her best to be there for me through every phase of my life, unlike my rich-money-obsessed father who likes money more than his only son.

Her tongue licks at the head of my cock, teasing me. She knows I don't do teasing so I reach for the hand full of her hair, guiding her mouth to take all of my cock.

She gages slightly and I release her. I know she likes it rough more than I am ever willing to give her.

"Fuck. Jeiel" the name slips from my mouth without warning. Jesi immediately tenses and pulls away from my cock. "Like seriously?" She rolls her eyes

"What?" I said pretending I don't know what I did

"I heard you. Dick"

" You didn't hear anything and even if you did don't act like you haven't heard it before," I tell her. I know I'm being a dick to her but I don't care. She can't say she doesn't know I fucking love jeiel and that's why she hates her so much.

"Shut up" she cuts me off. Holding up a hand as she waves it dramatically. "Do you want me to stop?" Her tone changed and she look at me with this weird look like she needs to use only my dick for her selfish desire and make me forget her.

The idea infuriates me. She's just as lonely and fucked up as I am, who is she to make me forget her.

"No," I sigh and pull my pants back up.  I stand to my feet and push my phone into my pocket.

"I'm not walking you out, you'll just help yourself" she laughs knowing that I don't give a damn shit. Then she said "be careful, I know she loves you too"

Her eyes hold honesty in them. She isn't even trying to insult me, she's being honest and real but I don't need her advice. I don't know what I'm doing with jeiel, to be honest, but I am tired of being just a friend to her, it's exhausting. I just want to feel something, anything she can give me.

I didn't reply to Jesi's comment, I just walk out of the door and drive back to my father's house.

I entered my room not bothering to check if my mom is at home or not. I drop my key on my reading table and walk to my shelve to get a book. At least a good story will distract me a little from thinking about her. I am tempted to grab PRIDE AND PREJUDICE but decided against it and reach for AFTER instead. Opened to the middle where I stopped.

Tessa is infuriating yet a beautiful character I've ever read and I can not for the life of me understand why she put up with Hardin's shit. He's an asshole but Tessa is a brat too.