this chapter is dedicated to my buddy Water_Lili. She is the secret behind every progress this book is making❤️

The movie is enjoyable. Mile seems to know every word and made things that aren't supposed to be funny hilarious with his accent commentary, particularly the lines spoken by Hayley. I found myself forgetting all the drama that has happened this night as we laugh and joked about how overprotective her brother she was.

Halfway through the movie... My eyes are getting heavy. I will blame that on the coffee I had, sometimes it reacts differently in my body. On a good day, it makes me sleepy. While on other days, it makes me stay awake till I'm forcing myself to sleep.

Like right now, it's getting in between our little-cute-sibling time I am having with my brother.

By the end of episode one of season ten, the sound of cricket is loud even from the second floor. My head is starting to grow cloud and I yawn. I made myself comfortable on the bed and put my head on miles lab. He shifted the laptop to make room for me to relax.

"you good?" he asks bringing the blanket to cover my whole body leaving only my head.

"yeah. Thank you, " I yawn.

I can't help but think about why my brother like the character Hayley more than any other character on greenhouse academy. She loves her brother more than anything to even change her school so she can protect her younger brother from the school jacks.

She was scared that any mistake away from her sight and she might not see her brother again just like she does get to see her mother again because of other people's deeds.

That is what my brother is afraid of. Maybe that's why he watched the show more than he should.

Alex on the other hand just like me didn't notice. We are too wrapped up in our little bubbles of love, too blind to see that people before us are fighting way too much for us.

We are luckier than we know.

"mile" I call him

"Hmmm," he answered.

"I love you. More than you will ever know. " I tell him wishing that I can get up and look into his eyes and he will see how sincere I am.

"I know Jeiel. now go to bed," he tells me. Massaging my hair. How does he manage to know what to do at all times?

"one more thing and I promised not to speak again," I said. my voice coming out like a whisper between sleep.

"Okay," he was quick to answer.

"Can you sleep here tonight? Please." I asked him. I am not ready to wake up to an empty bed in the morning.

"I can do that if that's what you want" and I am grateful that he said yes even when I know he can't say no to me. "no more talking, go to sleep. "

"Good night fav." was the last thing I heard before diving into the darkness of sleep.

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I wake up to my mom knocking on my door.

I look to the door to see my mom already dressed, wearing makeup that looks perfect on her face. She's smiling ear to ear. I look down at what she is smiling at, and that is when reality catches me.

My brother is still on my bed, sleeping peacefully. Undisturbed.

Then the memory of last night hits me, bringing a horrible feeling of shame. What exactly am I ashamed of? It rotated.

I am ashamed of how I'd treated Jesi.

Not sorry but ashamed.

I am ashamed of how I didn't give Ben chance to explain.

Not also sorry, but ashamed.

If what he had to say was logical, I'd jumped to the conclusion that he feed Jesi with such lies just to humiliate me.

And since when am I the kind of person that jumps to conclusions w without finding every detail?

What continues to bother me more than anything is the fact that my best friend was the one who started all of this.

It was Ben who told her that he was in my house even though he might not tell her that he "fucked" me, but still he told her something.

I wonder if Ben had known he would trigger a monster.

"you guys should come downstairs when you're ready ." my mom said. I don't know if she's still standing in my doorway. Oh, I spaced out.

"knock before you enter next time young lady ." I playfully tell my mom.

"I did ma'am but you were too sleepy to hear it" with that she smiled and close my door and left me with my thoughts.

Mile is still sleeping next to me, ducks in the depths of my comforter.

The rise and fall of his chest caused the comforter to move up and down.

I inhale slowly, trying to absorb as much oxygen as I can in an attempt to clear my thoughts.

My brother is the type that sleeps in. But me? Well, as much as I want to stay awake on my mystery, I will turn over to my brother and sleep away the rest of the morning.

And I did.